Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a very good and eventful day today.
This morning,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up as I was going to church this morning and I wanted to make sure that I made it on time for the morning Holy Bible study classes that they usually have every Sunday until Summer.In the class,we were finishing up the birth of and it's significance for all of us and how his death can benefit all of us.The class was wonderful and after that,I got ready for the service after that class was over.
The service was yet another wonderful service indeed.The sermon this morning was on Sexual Morality and the scriptures used were 1st Corinthians 6: 12-20.The sermon really made a lot of sense.The fellowship after the service was also terrific.I am going to be putting this to good use in my life.I am going to continue working on avoiding anything immoral in the sexual sense and I am going to keep working to fight temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head.It won't be easy,but I know that I can do it.I left church and on the way home,stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up something.After that,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a warm sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue in my recovery and I am hoping that it does indeed get better and more positive in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,they were minimal if nil at best today.I didn't have any cravings nor any temptations to act out on my desires.I also didn't have the urge to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them hard or near hard for the purpose of masturbation.I guess that the sermon in church today played a role in that.I had no erotic thoughts of men cloud my mind.I also didn't have no erotic thoughts of anything period.I also didn't have the temptation to act out by watching pornography themed to the so called "Homosexual/Gay" culture.For the first time in quite a long time,I felt no temptations nor any cravings to act out in any way,shape of form.Again,I guess that they sermon that was given in church today concerning how God intended sexuality to be and why he created the two people of opposite sexes that he created for a reason.It was a terrific sermon and also,the words that were expressed by the pastor were words that I personally desperately needed.I am hoping that the pastor at the church that I worship at will have more sermons like this one.Each and every one of us as people need to have sermons of this sort to keep in mind why God created sexuality and what he intended sexuality to be,as he never intended for sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us uses and abuses it.Again,I had no temptations,cravings nor any urges to act out in any way,shape or form.But still,although today was wonderful,I still have to be on guard because it can't be predicted when the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Again,I still need to be on guard.The temptation to act out will come again.I will just have to be watchful when it happens.I am going to try to apply the advice that has been given to me by those who have been following my blog and I will hope for the best.Thanks again to all for their help.
As for tomorrow,I have not made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ