Tonight,my road to recovery continues.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I relaxed for much of the day before I started to do what I felt that I had to do.
Today was another cold day and it also snowed again last night while sleeping.I couldn't let this stop me from doing what needed to be done.
I only had one thing to do.I had to go to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home and stayed home for the remainder of the day.
When I got home,I just relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.I had no place else to go nor any thing else to do as a result of the weather.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best today.I just didn't have any craving nor any temptation to act out.I didn't even try to manipulate my genitals for the sake of getting them hard or near hard for masturbatory purposes.I just didn't have anything like that today.I am just hoping that this lasts a while.I don't want to act out in way,shape or form.Though minimal if nil at best today,I know that the craving and the temptation to act out will come back when least expected.I will have to stay on guard when that happens.I hope that I do have enough strength to resist and fight that temptation and urge when it does indeed come back.I also still have to keep in mind all the things that I have to keep in mind when it comes to men,sex and everything else that is right in the eyes of God.
Tomorrow,I am looking forward to attending the morning's church service.After that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ