Tonight,my road to recovery continues slow,but sure.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and also,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had a lot planned for the day.
The biggest thing on my agenda for the day was that I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today.Today's meeting was a rescheduling of a previous session that I was hoping to attend several days before Christmas,but was canceled due to an emergency that happened at the clinic and my appointment had to be rescheduled.I was going there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meeting was wonderful.The counselor and I talked for a long time and it was just terrific to get all of what I wanted to get off of my mind by talking about it.I left with a smile on my face and I looked forward to my next meeting with her and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of video stores to see if they had a certain movie that I was looking for in stock,which they didn't.After that,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues on a slow path after what has happened in the last several days,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to go positively again in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out today was minimal if nil at best.As last night was winding down,my temptation to act out was very strong and overwhelming.But I fought it off,though admittedly,it wasn't easy to fight it off.I had the temptation to masturbate that was unbelievable.I was also manipulating my genitals for that sake,but stopped doing that when I realized that this was wrong for me to do.But today,it was minimal if nil at best.Still,I need to keep on guard as to when the temptation to act out in that way happens again.I need to be strong and be willing to fight off any cravings or temptations to act out in this way.I have gotten some good advice from the online support groups that I am a member of and that is great.I am going to try and apply this advice in the near and distant future.I am hoping that it will work.Thanks also to those who have been watching my blog for all the advice given as well.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ