Tonight,my road to recovery continues to get a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.I had a lot planned for the day and I wanted to get cleaned up and make sure that I was on the ball.After the bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I did have a lot to do.I had to attend an early afternoon group at the local hospital,which was a mandatory meeting that I had to attend in order to keep my case at the hospital open and to ensure that I get my medication subscriptions when I have to see the nurse practitioner there.I cooperated and went there.Before the meeting,I stopped at the hospital cafe to have lunch while there was still time for me to eat.After lunch,I headed over to the waiting room to wait to get called in.
The meeting went well.After the meeting,I headed over to the work skills group meeting that I usually attend every Monday afternoon,which also went well.After that meeting,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw a small amount of money from my account.After that,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues to get a little bit better,I am still dealing and struggling,on a one day at a time basis,with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the near and distant future.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,my temptation to act out today was minimal if nil at best.I didn't have any temptation to act out at all today,which was good.I did get yet another erection this morning and while the temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelming,I resisted the temptation to do that by simply tossing and turning constantly until my penis softened.When it did,I fell back asleep and woke up an hour and a half later.I know that I will get erections when least expected,but I do have a problem with erectile dysfunction and I know that my problem with it is strictly emotional.I don't get morning erections all the time,but I do get them when least expected.When I do get one,I simply toss and turn until my penis softens as I know that when this happens,my temptation to masturbate it away does get overwhelming and strong.I simply try to fight that temptation by simply tossing and turning until it softens.Even when I am not erect,I still get the temptation to masturbate when least expected.On those occasions,I manipulate my genitals in order to achieve an erection or near erection and then masturbate away.Most of the time it is emotional,but there are times when it is sexual and there are other times when it is both emotional and sexual.Today,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best and while that was good,I still have to keep on guard when the temptation to act out does get really strong and overwhelming.I have gotten some really wonderful advice from a regular reader and I am going to try and put this into practice in the near future and hope for the best.I know that I still have to take this one day at a time,but I am willing to continue fighting this.I also have to have the mentality that I can't let nothing stop me from this and that I must keep persevering.Thanks to all of you for all the help given.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ