Tonight,my road to recovery continues a bit better than the last few days.I had a very wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,though a little over an hour later than I was hoping to,and bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up and headed over to the church for the morning worship service.I was looking forward to that with a lot of enthusiasm and positive anticipation as I always do each and every week when Sunday comes around.
It was another wonderful service as always.I also attended the early morning bible study class as well and that also was wonderful.I had some really wonderful fellowship with all of the people after the worship service and I left for home with a smile on my face and some really good optimism for the rest of the day.I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local video store to see if they had a particular movie in stock,which they didn't.I headed straight home afterwards.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work after changing clothes and after that,I decided to go out for a while and run a couple of errands that needed to be run.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I headed over to another local video store to see if they had the particular movie that I was looking for in stock,which they also didn't have.I headed straight home afterwards and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into my DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very wonderful and eventful day.Then again,going to church always makes the day eventful in itself and also makes the day worthwhile in more ways than one.
Though my recovery is a little bit better than it has been the last few days,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.I am hoping that my recovery continues to improve.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as of now,my temptation to act out on the desires is minimal if nil at best.I really don't have the temptation to act out at the moment and I am greatful that somebody who has been watching my blog has given me some helpful advice and I will give it a try.I guess that I really need to take this to God's attention as I,as a result of depression,have been trying in vain to do it by myself and have been failing miserably.Again,I will give it a try.Still,I need to keep on guard as the temptation to act out will come back when least expected and I must prepare for when that happens.It is a really difficult journey out of Homosexuality,but if I keep going in it,I will be successful.I just have to keep focusing on God and turn this weakness over to him and ask him to help me in controlling the emotional stuff that makes me want to masturbate or manipulate my genitals to hardness or near hardness for that purpose.Thanks to that friend and blog watcher for that wonderful advice.
Tomorrow,I have a group meeting at the local hospital that I must attend.I also have a group after that and I will be attending that as well.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ