Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
This morning,I woke up and ate.I also got a phone call from the out of town Christian counselor that I have been talking with for the past few months.It was a great talk and I got a lot out of it.
After that,I did and finished my personal PC work.It was pretty short this time around.Despite some server issues,I got it done pretty fast and it was great.
After getting that done,I went out to run an errand for my mom.I went to a local supermarket to pick up some things that my mom needed for the home.I had to go to two different places to get everything that she needed.I headed for home afterwards.
When I got home,I bathed and I ate a light dinner after that.I also decided to catch up on some much needed personal PC work.
While I was out,I stopped at a local Wal-Mart and I bought George A.Romero's Diary of the Dead.It is the latest in the series that Romero helped launch in the USA that became a world phenomenon later on.Though Romero didn't create the zombie(i.e.undead)genre,he did introduce it to American audiences and it is now a phenomenon that has inspired numerous copycat movies,which persist to this very day.I can hardly wait to watch this film pretty soon.
Tonight is my night to entertain the crowd.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.I am also hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well for me as you never know what might happen.At the same time,I feel that everything is going to work out for me.Still,I hope.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the night and the rest of the weekend.FJ
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly and I also managed to get quite a bit done despite the short period of time that I had.After finishing,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center.
On the way home,I bought a movie at a local Big Lots called Castle Keep,which is a war movie.This also is a movie that Ronald J.Defeo Jr. watched before he murdered his family in the infamous Amityville Horror house.It is not clear whether this movie inspired and/or influenced him but the film itself seems interesting.I also cashed my paycheck at a nearby bank.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got there,I decided to lay down and read while listening to a little bit of slow music.I just wanted something to keep me occupied until dinner.I also waited for my computer to warm up so I could register all of my currency at the Where's George site.
After eating,I registered all my bills at the Where's George site and I also did some last minute personal PC work.I also managed to have a talk with a friend for only a couple of minutes.He let me go because he was entertaining a relative that had just come into town.I said that it was good and we hung up.
I can't believe that the weekend is finally here.I have been waiting on this for the whole week.Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowd and I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that tomorrow night goes well for me.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't really decided what I am going to do but whatever it is,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
Last night,before going to bed,I gave into temptation and I masturbated.Once again,I was manipulating my sexuality and when I was near erect,I felt myself on the verge of a climax and I ejaculated.I felt really lousy after that and believe me,I had to ask the creator real hard to forgive me for what I did.Though I felt better,I still felt pretty guilty over this and why.I am hoping that this doesn't happen again.If anyone has any advice on how I can combat this habit,please share.Thanks.I don't want to be enslaved to my own sexuality.I want it to be my slave rather than I be it's slave.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly and I also managed to get quite a bit done despite the short period of time that I had.After finishing,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center.
On the way home,I bought a movie at a local Big Lots called Castle Keep,which is a war movie.This also is a movie that Ronald J.Defeo Jr. watched before he murdered his family in the infamous Amityville Horror house.It is not clear whether this movie inspired and/or influenced him but the film itself seems interesting.I also cashed my paycheck at a nearby bank.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got there,I decided to lay down and read while listening to a little bit of slow music.I just wanted something to keep me occupied until dinner.I also waited for my computer to warm up so I could register all of my currency at the Where's George site.
After eating,I registered all my bills at the Where's George site and I also did some last minute personal PC work.I also managed to have a talk with a friend for only a couple of minutes.He let me go because he was entertaining a relative that had just come into town.I said that it was good and we hung up.
I can't believe that the weekend is finally here.I have been waiting on this for the whole week.Tomorrow night is my night to entertain the crowd and I am looking forward to that.I am hoping that tomorrow night goes well for me.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't really decided what I am going to do but whatever it is,I hope that it benefits me in a positive way.
Last night,before going to bed,I gave into temptation and I masturbated.Once again,I was manipulating my sexuality and when I was near erect,I felt myself on the verge of a climax and I ejaculated.I felt really lousy after that and believe me,I had to ask the creator real hard to forgive me for what I did.Though I felt better,I still felt pretty guilty over this and why.I am hoping that this doesn't happen again.If anyone has any advice on how I can combat this habit,please share.Thanks.I don't want to be enslaved to my own sexuality.I want it to be my slave rather than I be it's slave.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went by smoothly.It was problem free.I simply did what I had to do in the period of time that I had.There was also an early lunch because the social club was going on a field trip.So,I had to divide the time from the early lunch and the resuming of work.After I was finished,I simply bagged everything,dropped it off at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I mailed out an important post card for my mom and I withdrew some money for her.The money was used to get a fresh made sandwich at Subway and a few things that my mom needed.I registered the bill a little later in the day.After I completed the withdrawl,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I relaxed for a bit while watching a movie.I watched the 1986 film Blue City.The film stars Judd Nelson,Ally Sheedy,David Caruso,Scott Wilson,Anita Morris,Julie Carmen & Paul Winfield.The film,which is based on the Ross MacDonald novel of the same name,is about a young man coming home in hopes of reconciling with his father but is disappointed when he learns that his father was murdered.He sets out on a mission of revenge as he tries to uncover the truth and bring justice to his father so that his father can rest in peace.He does meet opposition along the way but he doesn't let it stop him.A good friend also joins him on his crusade because his friend also has a bone to pick with the town.This is a very good movie.I went to see it back in 1986 when it was released in theaters and I enjoyed it immensely.I still enjoyed it watching this on DVD for the first time in quite a while.I have this on VHS but waited for the DVD so I could preserve my VHS copy.I am glad to have this on DVD and I still think that this is a very good movie.A nice thing from my youth and one of the good things that I remember from it.
After that,I finished my personal PC work and I also registered the bill that I withdrew from my mom at Where's George before leaving to get the sandwich and the few things that my mom needed.
After eating,I registered the change at the Where's George site.I also got a bill from Buffalo NY in the change and now,I will be sending it on it's way on Saturday night when I go out to entertain the crowd.This Where's George hobby sure is fun.
I am now relaxing and just getting ready for tomorrow.I am hoping that the final day of the week goes well enough for me.I will be paying my car insurance renewal tomorrow morning and that will be great to get done.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work shift went by smoothly.It was problem free.I simply did what I had to do in the period of time that I had.There was also an early lunch because the social club was going on a field trip.So,I had to divide the time from the early lunch and the resuming of work.After I was finished,I simply bagged everything,dropped it off at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I mailed out an important post card for my mom and I withdrew some money for her.The money was used to get a fresh made sandwich at Subway and a few things that my mom needed.I registered the bill a little later in the day.After I completed the withdrawl,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I relaxed for a bit while watching a movie.I watched the 1986 film Blue City.The film stars Judd Nelson,Ally Sheedy,David Caruso,Scott Wilson,Anita Morris,Julie Carmen & Paul Winfield.The film,which is based on the Ross MacDonald novel of the same name,is about a young man coming home in hopes of reconciling with his father but is disappointed when he learns that his father was murdered.He sets out on a mission of revenge as he tries to uncover the truth and bring justice to his father so that his father can rest in peace.He does meet opposition along the way but he doesn't let it stop him.A good friend also joins him on his crusade because his friend also has a bone to pick with the town.This is a very good movie.I went to see it back in 1986 when it was released in theaters and I enjoyed it immensely.I still enjoyed it watching this on DVD for the first time in quite a while.I have this on VHS but waited for the DVD so I could preserve my VHS copy.I am glad to have this on DVD and I still think that this is a very good movie.A nice thing from my youth and one of the good things that I remember from it.
After that,I finished my personal PC work and I also registered the bill that I withdrew from my mom at Where's George before leaving to get the sandwich and the few things that my mom needed.
After eating,I registered the change at the Where's George site.I also got a bill from Buffalo NY in the change and now,I will be sending it on it's way on Saturday night when I go out to entertain the crowd.This Where's George hobby sure is fun.
I am now relaxing and just getting ready for tomorrow.I am hoping that the final day of the week goes well enough for me.I will be paying my car insurance renewal tomorrow morning and that will be great to get done.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and that was great.After I did that,I went to the work site.
Before I sorted out the laundry,I had lunch and after eating,I sorted out the laundry before heading for home.
On the way home,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed and I also got her a bottle of pain pills that she needed.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down for about 45 minutes.I was feeling slightly tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.After I woke up,I ate dinner.
I also decided to do some last minute personal PC work,which included registering another bill at the Where's George site.Before the night is over,I have to go to the store and pick up a few more things that my mom needs.
While laying down,my cravings started coming back.I was once again talking to myself while manipulating my sexuality until the point where I was on the verge of ejaculation,which is where I stopped.It was over the fantasies of having sexual relations with other men.I was also tempted to go over to some guys house that I used to have sexual sessions with,but chose not to.My cravings are coming back strong and I am being tempted once again to go and act out on my desires.I don't want to do that because acting out my desires is not going to give me the fulfillment that I need to get by.I will only feel good for a while but when the feeling wears off,I would act out again just to get that same feeeling of fulfillment,which is false fulfillment.I need true fulfillment and I am not going to get it from having sex with other men.Plus,men were not meant to have sexual relations with men.Men were made to have relationships of that kind with women because we all biologically hard wired for masculine-feminine compatability.I also have to keep remembering that the Homosexual condition is an emotional condition and not a sexual one.I need to get my needs met and fulfilled in a positive way and not negative.Sexual relations with other men will NOT help me get my needs fulfilled.It will only lead to more sex until it comes to the point where it's an obsession and it becomes addictive.I am hoping that I can meet other guys where I can have real friendships where it doesn't lead to anything sexual.I don't want sex.I want friendships with Heterosexual/Straight guys where I can learn from them and feel like A MAN.I don't want any friendships with Homosexual/Gay men where sex is all that matters and not real healthy friendships.That is all I want and ask for.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and that was great.After I did that,I went to the work site.
Before I sorted out the laundry,I had lunch and after eating,I sorted out the laundry before heading for home.
On the way home,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed and I also got her a bottle of pain pills that she needed.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down for about 45 minutes.I was feeling slightly tired and I felt that a nap would do me some good.After I woke up,I ate dinner.
I also decided to do some last minute personal PC work,which included registering another bill at the Where's George site.Before the night is over,I have to go to the store and pick up a few more things that my mom needs.
While laying down,my cravings started coming back.I was once again talking to myself while manipulating my sexuality until the point where I was on the verge of ejaculation,which is where I stopped.It was over the fantasies of having sexual relations with other men.I was also tempted to go over to some guys house that I used to have sexual sessions with,but chose not to.My cravings are coming back strong and I am being tempted once again to go and act out on my desires.I don't want to do that because acting out my desires is not going to give me the fulfillment that I need to get by.I will only feel good for a while but when the feeling wears off,I would act out again just to get that same feeeling of fulfillment,which is false fulfillment.I need true fulfillment and I am not going to get it from having sex with other men.Plus,men were not meant to have sexual relations with men.Men were made to have relationships of that kind with women because we all biologically hard wired for masculine-feminine compatability.I also have to keep remembering that the Homosexual condition is an emotional condition and not a sexual one.I need to get my needs met and fulfilled in a positive way and not negative.Sexual relations with other men will NOT help me get my needs fulfilled.It will only lead to more sex until it comes to the point where it's an obsession and it becomes addictive.I am hoping that I can meet other guys where I can have real friendships where it doesn't lead to anything sexual.I don't want sex.I want friendships with Heterosexual/Straight guys where I can learn from them and feel like A MAN.I don't want any friendships with Homosexual/Gay men where sex is all that matters and not real healthy friendships.That is all I want and ask for.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I got quite a bit done.After I finished,I dropped everything off that was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I had to stop at a gas station and then a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I saw that I received the two DVD's that I ordered on Amazon on Friday.I also managed to receive a couple of cassette's that I bought off of an Ebay seller.After checking through my mail today,I went to bed to take a nap.I was tired from the work day that I had.
After my nap,I ate dinner and I finished my personal PC work.I also managed to register a few more bills at the Where's George site.These were bills that I got in change from the gas station and from the few groceries that my mom had me buy.
I am now relaxing.There is really no place for me to go.It is raining and windy outside and it is also very COLD.I was hoping to start going back to the Tuesday night support group meetings but I chose to stay home due to the weather.I am hoping that the weather will be better next week.Not only the weather,the fuel prices have also been a factor.At the moment,they are gradually going down but it is still expensive.I am hoping that gas prices continue to go down until they reach a more affordable level.
Tomorrow is simply a laundry pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went smoothly.I got quite a bit done.After I finished,I dropped everything off that was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
On the way home,I had to stop at a gas station and then a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I saw that I received the two DVD's that I ordered on Amazon on Friday.I also managed to receive a couple of cassette's that I bought off of an Ebay seller.After checking through my mail today,I went to bed to take a nap.I was tired from the work day that I had.
After my nap,I ate dinner and I finished my personal PC work.I also managed to register a few more bills at the Where's George site.These were bills that I got in change from the gas station and from the few groceries that my mom had me buy.
I am now relaxing.There is really no place for me to go.It is raining and windy outside and it is also very COLD.I was hoping to start going back to the Tuesday night support group meetings but I chose to stay home due to the weather.I am hoping that the weather will be better next week.Not only the weather,the fuel prices have also been a factor.At the moment,they are gradually going down but it is still expensive.I am hoping that gas prices continue to go down until they reach a more affordable level.
Tomorrow is simply a laundry pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, October 20, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today was my day off.I had only a few things that I needed to do.Before I did them,I ate a light breakfast and I watched a little TV.I also did my personal PC work.It was a lot but I managed to get it done.
After doing that,I went to our regular bank to withdraw some money and to also pay a bill that I had there for the month.I only have one more payment to make on this before I can close it.After that,I did a little shopping and I headed for home.
After getting home,I dropped off the groceries and I ran to pick up a few things that I needed for myself.I headed straight home afterwards.
After eating dinner,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.I also decided to do some more personal PC work.
I am now at home relaxing.I am also anticipating the next day,which will be another work day.I am looking forward to that.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was my day off.I had only a few things that I needed to do.Before I did them,I ate a light breakfast and I watched a little TV.I also did my personal PC work.It was a lot but I managed to get it done.
After doing that,I went to our regular bank to withdraw some money and to also pay a bill that I had there for the month.I only have one more payment to make on this before I can close it.After that,I did a little shopping and I headed for home.
After getting home,I dropped off the groceries and I ran to pick up a few things that I needed for myself.I headed straight home afterwards.
After eating dinner,I registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.I also decided to do some more personal PC work.
I am now at home relaxing.I am also anticipating the next day,which will be another work day.I am looking forward to that.
As stated,tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I went out to a local restaurant to have a pasta lunch.It was a little late but I was in the mood.I hadn't had a nice pasta lunch in a long time.After that,I went and got some gas at a gas station and dropped a card off at my sister's house for one of my nephew's who was celebrating a birthday today.After that,I decided to take a drive out to the place where I entertain the crowd and see when their annual Halloween party was going to be held.They told me that it will be right on Halloween,which falls on a Friday this year.After that,I headed for home.
Before I went out to do these things,I watched an episode of Friday The 13th:The Series on the DVD set that I have and I did my personal PC work.It was a lot but I got it done and that was great.The weather was sunny but it was also a little chilly.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some much needed last minute persoanl PC work.It is now completed and I can take it easy for now.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another grand night.I did a couple of Four Tops songs in tribute to Levi Stubbs,who died on Friday.May he rest in peace.Again,my night of singing went great.
I also managed to walk around a local shopping mall for a while during my afternoon out.It was wonderful to walk around the mall for a while.Overall,a pretty good day.
As for the rest of the night,I might go out and have a drink with the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping for some nice conversations with the gang there.
Tomorrow is my day off.I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
I went out to a local restaurant to have a pasta lunch.It was a little late but I was in the mood.I hadn't had a nice pasta lunch in a long time.After that,I went and got some gas at a gas station and dropped a card off at my sister's house for one of my nephew's who was celebrating a birthday today.After that,I decided to take a drive out to the place where I entertain the crowd and see when their annual Halloween party was going to be held.They told me that it will be right on Halloween,which falls on a Friday this year.After that,I headed for home.
Before I went out to do these things,I watched an episode of Friday The 13th:The Series on the DVD set that I have and I did my personal PC work.It was a lot but I got it done and that was great.The weather was sunny but it was also a little chilly.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some much needed last minute persoanl PC work.It is now completed and I can take it easy for now.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another grand night.I did a couple of Four Tops songs in tribute to Levi Stubbs,who died on Friday.May he rest in peace.Again,my night of singing went great.
I also managed to walk around a local shopping mall for a while during my afternoon out.It was wonderful to walk around the mall for a while.Overall,a pretty good day.
As for the rest of the night,I might go out and have a drink with the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping for some nice conversations with the gang there.
Tomorrow is my day off.I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
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