Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to postpone my morning shower and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I headed for the post office to mail out an important payment and to get a money order to pay my car insurance for this month.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to run an errand.
I first stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store and I bought a few things.After that,I headed to a local bargain supermarket to pick up a few needed things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD and watched it.After that was over,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though this is painful for me to admit,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,leading me to fantasize and lust after them and when the moment of orgasm came,I masturbated the rest of the way leading to ejaculation.After washing my hands,I immediately went in prayer to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also admitted full and total responsibility for my fall and I left nothing out.I prayed hard and pleased for forgiveness and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was truly forgiven and I went on with the rest of the day.I really need to continue working on getting tough with myself.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father and asking for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible and overwhelming urges.I don't want to keep on giving into these terrible urges because it's not what I want.I don't want these unnatural sexual desires to own me.I don't want them defining who I am nor dictate to me how I will act.I need to get tough and tell Satan and his minions to get out of here.I don't want to give them what they want and I don't want to fall into the trap of habitually falling and asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Happy 4th of July to everyone in the good old USA today.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I did some checking up on my e-mail accounts and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and showered when I was finished.After showering,I relaxed for much of the afternoon listening to music and watching a movie that I popped into my DVD player.A little later on in the afternoon,I got dressed and headed over to the house of one of my church friend's for a little food and watching a fireworks display from a local park that was near my church friend's house.When it was over and it was getting dark,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply headed for bed as I was really tired from the very good day that I had today.I also still managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though the latter thing is the most difficult for me,I had no problems with it today.I had no temptations to act out in any way,shape or form and that was great.I guess that staying busy with the holiday and being around a friend took my mind off of these things.I am glad that I didn't have the stress of temptation today.Though I escaped today unscathed,I have to keep in mind that there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to tempt me to act out in many ways.When this happens,I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I don't want these unnatural sexual desires that I have to own me.I want to own them and not them owning me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I also need positive verbal support.The more support that I get,the better I will feel.Your support,bit prayerful and verbal,helps keeps me strong.It also reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing really planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.I postponed my shower for a while and I washed my hair over the kitchen sink and when that was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and got dressed to do some much needed errand running.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money and to pay a bill.After that,I went home to register one of the bills and I went to a friend's music store to give him a little business.After that,I did a little bit of grocery shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I showered afterwards.I then watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Thursday night Holy Bible study group,which went well.I headed straight home when it was over and when I got home,I proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it may be that,I didn't have any problems in regards to being tempted to act out nor was I tempted to fantasize,lust nor manipulate my genitals.I guess that staying busy with what I had to do was all that I had to do to take my mind off of the immoral sexual aspects of SSA.I had to run my errands and just be out in the community.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as much as I need prayers.Your prayerful and positive verbal support means a lot to me.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.They also keep me strong in terms of my determination to overcome and motivation to heal.Your positive verbal support also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I will be spending the holiday with one of my church friends and I am looking forward to that.
That was my day today and my plans for the holiday ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to meet with my job placement counselor and complete an online employment assessment,where everything went well and I passed the assessment.After it was all over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local pizzeria for a few slices of pizza for lunch and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of the dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to listen to a little bit of music and after did,did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,in the early morning hours,I gave into masturbation when I was awakened by an erection.I felt miserable after that and after washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked to be forgiven in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was sorry.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and after I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to be prepared when they do.I still need to work on getting tough with myself by going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show them that I am really serious about wanting to heal from these terrible unnatural sexual desires and that I want to overcome SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a difficult emotional time.I need your prayers very much.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section as much as I need your prayers.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having to do some much needed grocery shopping,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I relaxed and did some checking up online and when I was finished with that,I got a phone call from a friend of mine who worships with me at church asking me to meet him at a certain time and after hung up,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to meet my friend at the clothing store where he bought me the suit to pick it up because it was done.After we talked for a few minutes,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had at the Where's George site and I headed back out to get my hair cut at the usual hair place that I go to.
When that was finished,I stopped at a local supermarket that was across the street and I turned in a whole bunch of cans and after collecting the money from them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I also headed back out again to get a few slices of pizza from a local pizzeria.I headed straight home and ate them.After that,I did some more personal PC work and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD I popped into the DVD player and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I also listened to some music while preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,while the latter struggle is the most difficult,I had no problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to fantasize and lust after other men nor was I tempted to manipulate my genitals.While I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I don't want to give them what I want nor act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,is very important to me.I need to stay strong and be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach in the mid morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After coffee,I showered and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I had a talk with my job placement counselor/coach and set up an appointment with her to meet this Wednesday morning and after that was done,I got dressed and I headed over to the local hospital to meet with my therapist there and the meeting with her went well.After getting a new appointment,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to relax and enjoy a little music and I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,while online doing my personal PC work,a passing immoral thought went through my mind and I let it fester in my mind.I almost started to touch myself inappropriately,but managed to stop myself before it went too far.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I told my Heavenly Father about it all and when I was finished,I felt better and knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.For the rest of the day into the evening,I had no problems with temptations of any kind.I need to continue working on myself and also,continue working on getting tough with myself.I need to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asking him for strength to help me fight and resist all sorts of temptations,including passing immoral thoughts that creep up when least expected.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want me to do.I also have to work on "I WON'T" give Satan and his minions what they want me to do.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I constantly need both prayers and positive verbal support every day and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need to stay strong in terms of my determination to overcome and motivation to heal.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to get my hair cut at a local salon,I don't have much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed for church for the worship service,which was outdoors today.
The service was wonderful and was shortened due to rain in the morning.After it was over,I changed into casual clothes and headed back to the church for a lunch they were having.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that,went out to the local Super Wal-Mart to get a gallon of milk.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I again gave into temptation twice by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also fantasized and lusted after the images as well.I managed to stop myself and ask my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I new and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself and make it a habit to go to my Heavenly Father often when temptation comes around.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want.I want to overcome SSA and heal from SSA as well.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day and I need it because I really don't have any support networks in my hometown.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support on the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ