Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed out to do a couple of important things.
I first went to the bank to deposit some cash.After that,I headed over to the local hospital's emergency ward as a result of a problem that I had last night while eating dinner.
The problem was that I got a terrible sting of acid when I swallowed my food and I kept throwing up several times.After that,I went out to get something to eat and ate that with no problems.
I went to the emergency ward and I waited there for several hours.After the wait and some consultation,I got a prescription and left to head to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick some stuff.After paying for it,I headed for home,but dropped off my prescription to be filled before arriving there.
When I got home,I had a light lunch and did my personal PC work.After it was done,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,this time with no problems,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues onward,it is still a pretty rough and rocky road that I am on.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I Simply talk about my struggle with God in the name of Christ Jesus and after that,I feel a tad better as they both help is sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was a very overwhelming urge as well.I simply sat up and while I sat up,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Since I was most of the day in the local hospital's emergency ward,thoughts of SSA,nor lusting nor the craving to even manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near orgasm and stopping never even came to me.I was so busy thinking of my overall health and how to get over the hurdles to even think of my struggles today.Thanks God and Christ for that.I went through the rest of the day clean minded and then some.Thanks to both God and Christ Jesus for that.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual as well as doing my laundry in the early afternoon after church.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I first went to the drug store to pick up a prescription and after paying the co-pay on it,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some much needed money and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I fixed myself a light lunch and while eating it,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I watched it.I also relaxed and enjoyed every minute.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible in as well.
While my road to recovery continues onward,though still rocky,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.While it is bad enough that this emotional roller coaster ride is an unpredictable thing,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult as I also have to put up with hearing things,such as voices and sounds that nobody else hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle gets seemingly too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of talking about the struggle and asking for strength in dealing with it effectively.I also feel a tad better after talking about it with them.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This was the strongest urge that I have had in a long time.This time,I had to really pray hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one at that.I prayed and prayed until the erection softened and after that,I simply got up to use the bathroom as I had to do so and after I was finished,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it makes itself to be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation can come when least expected.I am always at war with these unnatural desires that I have and at times,the fight against them can be very difficult.When it does get very difficult,I simply turn to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through it.I simply talk about any temptation that comes around with God and ask him to get me through in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better.I throw every temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,I feel better as I also ask for strength to help me fight and resist any temptation that comes around.I am always praying throughout the day to ask God to help me get through the temptations when they come around.I am also still asking for those who follow my blog and read it to say prayers for me as well and also,please put some encouraging words in the comments as well.They are both appreciated and Thanks in advance for all of them.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is still ongoing.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to my usual Spirituality group on Thursday and I got a lot out of it.After that was over,I headed over to a local kitchen and had lunch.After lunch,I stopped at the bank to make a deposit and after that,I got some gas and headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After the movie,I was invited out to dinner somewhere and I went to the place where it was.I stayed for a while and ate with the people as well as socialized with them.After that was over,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put my home suit on and I watched a little TV while relaxing.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery in ongoing,it is still a rough and rocky road.I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending therapy and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply express how I feel and share my struggles with God in his son's Jesus Christ's name and I feel a tad better as they are now in control and leading the way.It is great that they are there whenever the struggle is seemingly getting too tough to handle and that makes me feel good.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.The only good thing was that it didn't last long.I simply turned to my left side and after that,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it takes,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with the unnatural desires that I have and though that is a difficult fight in itself,I am still going to God in the name of Jesus Christ whenever I am tempted to act out on the unnatural desires that I have.I simply throw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.I pray throughout the day whenever the temptation comes around and I am feeling better as a result of God and Christ leading the way.I am also asking that those who follow and read my blog continue to pray for me and the prayers are always appreciated.Thanks in advance for the prayers and Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had really nothing to do this morning,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.After it was over,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things to do.I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a phone card for my cell phone before the service runs out at the end of the month.After doing that,I went to visit with a friend to see how he was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I also made a couple of important phone calls.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues onward,it is still a pretty rough and rocky road.I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.It is bad enough having BPD,but I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about the struggle that I have with this double whammy that I have with God in his son Jesus Christ's name and after that,I feel a tad better.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this current temptation.I sat up for a while and while I was sitting up,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did later give into the temptation to inappropriately touch myself,but stopped before it could get anywhere and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me.Throughout the day,I kept getting that same temptation and every time that I did,I prayed to God in the name of Jesus Christ,his son,to help get me through the temptation.After that,I felt better.I kept in prayer to God all day whenever that temptation arose and after every time,I felt better as the temptation was reduced to nil.I kept it up all day and I felt like a big weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.Though I do continue to pray,I am also asking for prayers by those who follow and read my blog regularly.I am also asking for encouragement.The more that I get,the more it keeps me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have a Spirituality group that I must attend and to have lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and was a little surprised when I saw that I had an internet connection as my mom's old phone account was closed and cancelled,so my own account could be activated.I got my phone number turned on this morning after I checked it after my shower and was surprised to see internet.Of course,I had to activate my account to get the internet going online.After the activation was done,I did my personal PC work and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day after getting dressed.
Today was a cold,wet and rainy day.I had only a few things that needed to get done.I dropped off a copy of the local free newspaper at a few friends of mine in the area,which is what I do every Tuesday.After doing that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a small pouch of coffee.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my recovery continues onward,it is still a pretty rocky road.I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.It is a never ending roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to put up with sounds and voices that nobody other then me hears.When the struggles gets almost too seemingly unbearable for me to handle,I am constantly relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle is getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God and his son Christ and after that,I feel a tad at ease.It is simply a matter of talking about everything with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,feeling a tad better.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated.I simply grabbed the erection that I had and I masturbated the erection away.After that happened,I felt really miserable and in my misery,asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ too forgive me for sinning.After praying,I felt better and went back to sleep.But throughout the day,I was being tempted again and again to act out in many ways.I was tempted to masturbate and also,to grab my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or at the point of orgasm and stopping and each and every time that it happened,I asked God to grant me strength to fight and resist the temptations.I simply threw the temptations on God and asked him in his son's Christ Jesus' name to help me fight and resist and after it was over,I felt better.Though I did sin today,I was forgiven and that shows that God hasn't given up nor will he ever give up on me.It is great to know that as I can have confidence that God hears and helps those who really need it.Thanks to God and Christ for everything.I also ask that everyone who follows my blog and read the posts to also continue praying for me and also,please leave and encouraging word or two for me as a comment.Thanks in advance for the prayers offered and for the encouraging words offered.Both are very much appreciated.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is ongoing.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a pretty busy day planned.
I first went to my usual Monday afternoon building and improving self esteem group.I headed over there expecting to get a lot out of the group.
The group meeting went as well as hoped.After the group meeting was over,I headed over to the local Social Services building to drop off my Xeroxed copy of my proof of income letter from Social Security and after that,I headed over to my appointment with the female counselor over at the local agency.
That later meeting went great as we talked for about 20 minutes.After the meeting was over,I got some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I called my nephew up and I drove my car over to his place so he could fix it by putting the brake pads on.After that was,which took another 20 minutes,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put my sweatsuit on and relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good as well as busy day today.
While my road to recovery is ongoing,despite being rocky,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My emotions and moods are always on a constant roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I am always constantly hearing things that nobody else around me hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came over me in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection out of a deep sleep.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge,but the urge died after a couple of minutes and I was able to get back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was facing temptation throughout the day and I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations came around.I really prayed hard to God in Christ's name constantly throughout the day and each and every time I did,I felt better as I was letting God and his son Jesus Christ lead the way.I also kept up my recommended Holy Bible readings and listened to Christian music as a way of getting those evil temptations out of me.While I am trying to do my part,I am also asking that everyone who follows this blog of mine and reads the posts to keep praying for me as well as I really need them.They are always appreciated.Thanks to all of you in advance for praying for me and also,a very hearty Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues to go forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the almost mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I hurriedly got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful as this was also another Holy Communion Sunday.After some wonderful fellowship with the rest of the congregation,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home sweatsuit and relaxed for a while.I was online for much of the time and had some difficulty getting my virus and firewall protection up to date,but after several tries,I finally succeeded.After I had the computer rebooted following the updating of the virus and firewall software,I did only a small part of my personal PC work and then,I called my nephew up and he took me to a local auto parts store so I can pick up some front brake pads and a couple of windshield wipers for my car's windshield.After paying for the parts,we headed back home and my nephew put the new windshield wipers on and said that he would put the brake pads on tomorrow afternoon once I was home from my appointments.I said okay and he left.
When I got back into the house,I finished my personal PC work and after it was finished,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as with me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,despite a rocky road,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods fluctuate between good and not so good day after day or at other times minute after minute.I never know how my mood will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my mental health struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It is great that I am not alone in my struggle and with God and his son Jesus Christ helping me,I feel a little more at ease.It is wonderful that they do help me out in this struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to resist this overwhelming temptation as it was really strong.I sat up for a few minutes and when the erection softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it makes itself to be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I did get tempted later on to grab my genitals for the purpose of manipulating them to get them erect or at the point of orgasm and stopping,but I threw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me in resisting this temptation and I kept praying until the temptation was nil and I felt better.Throughout the day,I threw every temptation on God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I always felt better after doing so.It is wonderful that both God and Christ are there to help me during this really difficult emotional time.While I will continue praying myself,I am also requesting prayers from everyone who follows and reads my blog as they are always appreciated.Thanks to all of you for your prayers and Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my building and improving self esteem group and I also have to meet with the same lady that I talked to on Friday to discuss other things.My nephew is also hopping to get around to putting the new brake pads on my car a little later in the afternoon.I think that I will just stay home and take it easy for the rest of the day onward.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ