Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed out to do a couple of important things.
I first went to the bank to deposit some cash.After that,I headed over to the local hospital's emergency ward as a result of a problem that I had last night while eating dinner.
The problem was that I got a terrible sting of acid when I swallowed my food and I kept throwing up several times.After that,I went out to get something to eat and ate that with no problems.
I went to the emergency ward and I waited there for several hours.After the wait and some consultation,I got a prescription and left to head to a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick some stuff.After paying for it,I headed for home,but dropped off my prescription to be filled before arriving there.
When I got home,I had a light lunch and did my personal PC work.After it was done,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,this time with no problems,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues onward,it is still a pretty rough and rocky road that I am on.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I Simply talk about my struggle with God in the name of Christ Jesus and after that,I feel a tad better as they both help is sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.It was a very overwhelming urge as well.I simply sat up and while I sat up,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Since I was most of the day in the local hospital's emergency ward,thoughts of SSA,nor lusting nor the craving to even manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near orgasm and stopping never even came to me.I was so busy thinking of my overall health and how to get over the hurdles to even think of my struggles today.Thanks God and Christ for that.I went through the rest of the day clean minded and then some.Thanks to both God and Christ Jesus for that.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual as well as doing my laundry in the early afternoon after church.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ