Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues to go forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the almost mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I hurriedly got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful as this was also another Holy Communion Sunday.After some wonderful fellowship with the rest of the congregation,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home sweatsuit and relaxed for a while.I was online for much of the time and had some difficulty getting my virus and firewall protection up to date,but after several tries,I finally succeeded.After I had the computer rebooted following the updating of the virus and firewall software,I did only a small part of my personal PC work and then,I called my nephew up and he took me to a local auto parts store so I can pick up some front brake pads and a couple of windshield wipers for my car's windshield.After paying for the parts,we headed back home and my nephew put the new windshield wipers on and said that he would put the brake pads on tomorrow afternoon once I was home from my appointments.I said okay and he left.
When I got back into the house,I finished my personal PC work and after it was finished,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as with me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,despite a rocky road,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods fluctuate between good and not so good day after day or at other times minute after minute.I never know how my mood will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my mental health struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It is great that I am not alone in my struggle and with God and his son Jesus Christ helping me,I feel a little more at ease.It is wonderful that they do help me out in this struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to resist this overwhelming temptation as it was really strong.I sat up for a few minutes and when the erection softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it makes itself to be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I did get tempted later on to grab my genitals for the purpose of manipulating them to get them erect or at the point of orgasm and stopping,but I threw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me in resisting this temptation and I kept praying until the temptation was nil and I felt better.Throughout the day,I threw every temptation on God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I always felt better after doing so.It is wonderful that both God and Christ are there to help me during this really difficult emotional time.While I will continue praying myself,I am also requesting prayers from everyone who follows and reads my blog as they are always appreciated.Thanks to all of you for your prayers and Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my building and improving self esteem group and I also have to meet with the same lady that I talked to on Friday to discuss other things.My nephew is also hopping to get around to putting the new brake pads on my car a little later in the afternoon.I think that I will just stay home and take it easy for the rest of the day onward.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ