Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is ongoing.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a pretty busy day planned.
I first went to my usual Monday afternoon building and improving self esteem group.I headed over there expecting to get a lot out of the group.
The group meeting went as well as hoped.After the group meeting was over,I headed over to the local Social Services building to drop off my Xeroxed copy of my proof of income letter from Social Security and after that,I headed over to my appointment with the female counselor over at the local agency.
That later meeting went great as we talked for about 20 minutes.After the meeting was over,I got some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I called my nephew up and I drove my car over to his place so he could fix it by putting the brake pads on.After that was,which took another 20 minutes,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put my sweatsuit on and relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good as well as busy day today.
While my road to recovery is ongoing,despite being rocky,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My emotions and moods are always on a constant roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I am always constantly hearing things that nobody else around me hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about my struggles with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came over me in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection out of a deep sleep.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge,but the urge died after a couple of minutes and I was able to get back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was facing temptation throughout the day and I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations came around.I really prayed hard to God in Christ's name constantly throughout the day and each and every time I did,I felt better as I was letting God and his son Jesus Christ lead the way.I also kept up my recommended Holy Bible readings and listened to Christian music as a way of getting those evil temptations out of me.While I am trying to do my part,I am also asking that everyone who follows this blog of mine and reads the posts to keep praying for me as well as I really need them.They are always appreciated.Thanks to all of you in advance for praying for me and also,a very hearty Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ