Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,is still ongoing.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to my usual Spirituality group on Thursday and I got a lot out of it.After that was over,I headed over to a local kitchen and had lunch.After lunch,I stopped at the bank to make a deposit and after that,I got some gas and headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After the movie,I was invited out to dinner somewhere and I went to the place where it was.I stayed for a while and ate with the people as well as socialized with them.After that was over,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I put my home suit on and I watched a little TV while relaxing.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery in ongoing,it is still a rough and rocky road.I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending therapy and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply express how I feel and share my struggles with God in his son's Jesus Christ's name and I feel a tad better as they are now in control and leading the way.It is great that they are there whenever the struggle is seemingly getting too tough to handle and that makes me feel good.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.The only good thing was that it didn't last long.I simply turned to my left side and after that,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still keeping in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it takes,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I am always at war with the unnatural desires that I have and though that is a difficult fight in itself,I am still going to God in the name of Jesus Christ whenever I am tempted to act out on the unnatural desires that I have.I simply throw the temptation on God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and after that,the temptation is reduced to nil.I pray throughout the day whenever the temptation comes around and I am feeling better as a result of God and Christ leading the way.I am also asking that those who follow and read my blog continue to pray for me and the prayers are always appreciated.Thanks in advance for the prayers and Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ