Tonight,my road to recovery,though still rocky,continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had really nothing to do this morning,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and watched it.After it was over,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things to do.I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a phone card for my cell phone before the service runs out at the end of the month.After doing that,I went to visit with a friend to see how he was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I also made a couple of important phone calls.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my road to recovery continues onward,it is still a pretty rough and rocky road.I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.It is bad enough having BPD,but I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about the struggle that I have with this double whammy that I have with God in his son Jesus Christ's name and after that,I feel a tad better.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this current temptation.I sat up for a while and while I was sitting up,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I did later give into the temptation to inappropriately touch myself,but stopped before it could get anywhere and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me.Throughout the day,I kept getting that same temptation and every time that I did,I prayed to God in the name of Jesus Christ,his son,to help get me through the temptation.After that,I felt better.I kept in prayer to God all day whenever that temptation arose and after every time,I felt better as the temptation was reduced to nil.I kept it up all day and I felt like a big weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.Though I do continue to pray,I am also asking for prayers by those who follow and read my blog regularly.I am also asking for encouragement.The more that I get,the more it keeps me going.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have a Spirituality group that I must attend and to have lunch at a local kitchen afterwards.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I am hoping that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ