Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up much later than usual and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had only a few things planned for today and I wanted to make sure that I got them done.
I first went to a bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a couple of things there.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things there.After paying for those items,I headed over to a copy store to make a few copies for my mom.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did dome more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of depression.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours again when I was awakened by another erection that was also throbbing.I really had to fight this temptation as it was really overwhelming and strong.I really tossed and turned because I didn't want to masturbate as the urge was really strong.After several minutes,my penis softened and I drifted back into sleep.For the rest of the day,I really had no temptation.But that can change in the near future as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to be watchful when that happens.I want to stay pure and clean and giving into temptation will only make me the opposite.I will just have to keep fighting when temptation does indeed rear it's ugly head and I have to stay strong.I have to show my body that I own it and not the opposite.Again,I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
Tomorrow morning,I am planning on attending the morning's church service and early Holy Bible study class.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local Tim Horton's to buy some ground coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by being awoke by an erection that was throbbing.My temptation to masturbate it away was really strong and overwhelming.I had to really fight this.I simply tossed and turned until the erection died down.I slept for a few more hours.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out in other ways will rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in ways other than seeking a male partner for the purpose of acting out sexually can be very strong and very difficult to resist.It is just a day by day fight.I have to stay in the fight and hang in there.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up a little later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I had only a few things planned and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to a local Tim Horton's to buy some ground coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by being awoke by an erection that was throbbing.My temptation to masturbate it away was really strong and overwhelming.I had to really fight this.I simply tossed and turned until the erection died down.I slept for a few more hours.Though I escaped this one,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out in other ways will rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in ways other than seeking a male partner for the purpose of acting out sexually can be very strong and very difficult to resist.It is just a day by day fight.I have to stay in the fight and hang in there.I am still open to any suggestions or advice.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to get ready for the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it and after it was over,I had lunch at a local community kitchen.After lunch,I headed over to the post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that,someday soon,my recovery will improve.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours.An erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also yet another throbbing one.I really had to fight the temptation to masturbate the erection away as that is when my temptation to masturbate is the strongest.I had to really toss and turn to get rid of that throbbing erection.After several minutes,my penis softened and I went back to sleep.A couple of hours later,I had to get up and take my bath to clean up before going on with the rest of my day.Though I escaped that occurance,this only shows me that I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get really strong and it can be very hard to resist.I have to keep fighting this temptation as the temptation to act out by masturbating can be strong and overwhelming.I have to keep relying on God and my strength to resist this temptation as it can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Fighting the temptation is the only thing that I can do.Any other advice or suggestions are welcomed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to get ready for the rest of my day.
I had a spirituality group that I needed to attend and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group was wonderful.I got a lot out of it and after it was over,I had lunch at a local community kitchen.After lunch,I headed over to the post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things for the home.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that,someday soon,my recovery will improve.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours.An erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was also yet another throbbing one.I really had to fight the temptation to masturbate the erection away as that is when my temptation to masturbate is the strongest.I had to really toss and turn to get rid of that throbbing erection.After several minutes,my penis softened and I went back to sleep.A couple of hours later,I had to get up and take my bath to clean up before going on with the rest of my day.Though I escaped that occurance,this only shows me that I have to continue staying on guard and being watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get really strong and it can be very hard to resist.I have to keep fighting this temptation as the temptation to act out by masturbating can be strong and overwhelming.I have to keep relying on God and my strength to resist this temptation as it can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Fighting the temptation is the only thing that I can do.Any other advice or suggestions are welcomed.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the morning and I bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare for what I had planned for the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first had to go get my oil changed in my car's engine.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw money for myself.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that was needed for the home.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recover will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awoke with an erection that was also a throbber.I simply had to toss and turn repeatedly to rid myself of this as when I am erect,the temptation to masturbate it away is overwhelmingly strong.After a few minutes,my penis softened and I fell back asleep.But a few hours later,I woke up with another erection and again,my temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelmingly strong.I simply got up to use the bathroom and on the way,my penis softened again.While I escaped these occurances,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can be very strong.I know that I have a choice to give in or not to give in.While I chose not to give in to these latest bouts,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and work on staying strong when it does.Today,I did escape.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I need to continue fighting temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head again.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the morning and I bathed as usual.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to prepare for what I had planned for the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first had to go get my oil changed in my car's engine.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw money for myself.After that was done,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that was needed for the home.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recover will start to improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awoke with an erection that was also a throbber.I simply had to toss and turn repeatedly to rid myself of this as when I am erect,the temptation to masturbate it away is overwhelmingly strong.After a few minutes,my penis softened and I fell back asleep.But a few hours later,I woke up with another erection and again,my temptation to masturbate it away was overwhelmingly strong.I simply got up to use the bathroom and on the way,my penis softened again.While I escaped these occurances,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form can be very strong.I know that I have a choice to give in or not to give in.While I chose not to give in to these latest bouts,I know that temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and work on staying strong when it does.Today,I did escape.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I need to continue fighting temptation whenever it rears it's ugly head again.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today and I was eagerly looking forward to this.I always look forward to seeing my counselor in this area as I always have lots to talk about.
The session was great.After she set another appointment with me,I left and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a store to pick up several things.After paying for these items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections.The first happened at around 4:45am and to get rid of it,I simply tossed and turned around until the erection died down.The second one happened at around 7:56am and to get rid of that,I simply had to get up and use the bathroom and while on the way there,the erection died down.As I have stated previously,my temptation to masturbate gets really strong when I have morning erections because in the past,when I did get them,I would masturbate them away,which is why the temptation to masturbate is really strong when this happens.I escaped these occurances,but I know that I still stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get overwhelmingly strong.I will have to continue to fight this when it comes and just deal with it when it comes.Still,advice and suggestions are always welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get the oil changed in my engine.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I had only one thing on my agenda today.I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today and I was eagerly looking forward to this.I always look forward to seeing my counselor in this area as I always have lots to talk about.
The session was great.After she set another appointment with me,I left and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a store to pick up several things.After paying for these items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery will improve soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted twice in the wee early morning hours.I had two morning erections.The first happened at around 4:45am and to get rid of it,I simply tossed and turned around until the erection died down.The second one happened at around 7:56am and to get rid of that,I simply had to get up and use the bathroom and while on the way there,the erection died down.As I have stated previously,my temptation to masturbate gets really strong when I have morning erections because in the past,when I did get them,I would masturbate them away,which is why the temptation to masturbate is really strong when this happens.I escaped these occurances,but I know that I still stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out by masturbating can get overwhelmingly strong.I will have to continue to fight this when it comes and just deal with it when it comes.Still,advice and suggestions are always welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get the oil changed in my engine.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, February 13, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned.
For starters,I went to my usual Monday afternoon groups.These were groups that I needed to attend and they both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that I needed.After I was done shopping at them,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was strong,but not as strong as previous times.I still had the urge to masturbate by manipulating my genitals to get them hard or near hardness for that purpose,but I fought it and I did get through it.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than searching for male partners to act out with can be very strong at times.I managed to make it through today,but tomorrow and the day after that and so are new challenges.Each and every day is it's own challenge.I have top fight the urge whenever it comes over me.I have to keep on fighting and keep on enduring whenever the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.I have to hang in there and simply tough it out.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got ready to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned.
For starters,I went to my usual Monday afternoon groups.These were groups that I needed to attend and they both went well.After they were over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that I needed.After I was done shopping at them,I headed for the bank to withdraw some much needed cash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was strong,but not as strong as previous times.I still had the urge to masturbate by manipulating my genitals to get them hard or near hardness for that purpose,but I fought it and I did get through it.The temptation to act out in any way,shape or form other than searching for male partners to act out with can be very strong at times.I managed to make it through today,but tomorrow and the day after that and so are new challenges.Each and every day is it's own challenge.I have top fight the urge whenever it comes over me.I have to keep on fighting and keep on enduring whenever the temptation to act out rears it's ugly head.I have to hang in there and simply tough it out.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and also to attend the morning's bible study class.I was looking forward to both of them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.The cold weather did nothing to dampen my mood as I was leaving to go to church.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I got a lot out of both of these.After some fellowship with the members after the service,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I stopped at a local Tim Horton's to pick up a bag of coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a nearby bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a few things there.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no cravings to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate nor manipulate my genitals to hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.While I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can come back in any way,shape or form.Again,while it was good that I escaped today,I still be watchful when it hits again.I have to work on staying strong and work even harder on resisting the temptation to act out when it does indeed rear it's ugly head.Prayers and encouragement are welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have tow groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up to attend the morning's church service and also to attend the morning's bible study class.I was looking forward to both of them with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.The cold weather did nothing to dampen my mood as I was leaving to go to church.
Both the class and the service were wonderful.I got a lot out of both of these.After some fellowship with the members after the service,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I stopped at a local Tim Horton's to pick up a bag of coffee.After paying for that,I headed over to a nearby bargain outlet closeout store to pick up a few things there.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
While my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery starts to improve very soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out on my desires was minimal if nil at best.I had really no cravings to act out nor did I have any urges to masturbate nor manipulate my genitals to hardness or near hardness for the purpose of masturbation.While I escaped today,I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out on my desires can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I still have to be on guard and be watchful as the temptation to act out can come back in any way,shape or form.Again,while it was good that I escaped today,I still be watchful when it hits again.I have to work on staying strong and work even harder on resisting the temptation to act out when it does indeed rear it's ugly head.Prayers and encouragement are welcomed.
Tomorrow,I have tow groups that I need to attend.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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