Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.
Today,I was hoping to get out and do a few things,but the weather kept me at home.Today,the weather was rainy,windy and chilly.I simply put a warm sweat suit on and I relaxed for much of the day.I also put a couple of job applications in online and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I relaxed a bit.Since there was nothing to do today as a result of the weather,I just stayed home and made the best out of it.I popped some popcorn and I relaxed while watching the movie.When that was over,I popped another movie in and relaxed while watching that as well.
After eating,I decided to watch a little TV and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negatives of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.It is a very difficult and challenging struggle that I have and it never gets any easier.Both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ help in sustaining me and also,I feel much calmer and at ease with them at the helm getting me through.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel only a little bit better as I still have to deal with the negative effects of this psychiatric double whammy nonetheless,but my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ make me feel more at ease and much calmer.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and proceeded to get out of bed.I still had a throbbing erection upon rising,so I decided to get off the bed and walk for a little while in the house.Though it was slow going,this made the erection soften.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men.Today,since I stuck at home as a result of the rain and the winds,I was tempted to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men.This was because sexual images of men were trying to cloud my mind.I had to really work on myself to rid myself of these terrible images.I went right to my Heavenly Father and I prayed real hard.I asked him for strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and after I was finished praying,I felt stronger and the images and the urges disappeared.I am also asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.I need both of these things to help me through all of this as I am still going through a very difficult emotional period.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual.I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Friday, October 25, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I got out of bed in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
Today,I got around to cleaning the back seat of my car out of all the bottles and cans that had accumulated in the back seat of my car over the last several weeks.I bagged them all and after that was done,I proceeded to take them to a local supermarket to turn them in for the money as I did need money at the moment.It took quite a while,but I managed to get them all turned in and after getting the money,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten from the refund at the Where's George site.After that,I headed back out again to get a few things that I needed at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched another movie and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to deal with the symptoms of schizophrenia alongside the BPD symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw it on my Heavenly Father and I ask him for strength to me endure through the negatives.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for this strength.They both help in keeping me sustained and much more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I also had to get up because my head was hurting as well.I got out of bed and I headed for the kitchen.Though it was very slow going,the erection started to soften.After taking something for my headache,I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Yes,I was tempted to indulge in those things.But today,I managed to stay out in the community and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed out and did what I had to do and that took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still asking that all of you continue praying for me.I also needs words of positive encouragement alongside your prayers.They both help out in many ways.They help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.I need some positive words of encouragement.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any form of comments.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I truly need that and also,as always,your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I got out of bed in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
Today,I got around to cleaning the back seat of my car out of all the bottles and cans that had accumulated in the back seat of my car over the last several weeks.I bagged them all and after that was done,I proceeded to take them to a local supermarket to turn them in for the money as I did need money at the moment.It took quite a while,but I managed to get them all turned in and after getting the money,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten from the refund at the Where's George site.After that,I headed back out again to get a few things that I needed at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched another movie and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to deal with the symptoms of schizophrenia alongside the BPD symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw it on my Heavenly Father and I ask him for strength to me endure through the negatives.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for this strength.They both help in keeping me sustained and much more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I also had to get up because my head was hurting as well.I got out of bed and I headed for the kitchen.Though it was very slow going,the erection started to soften.After taking something for my headache,I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Yes,I was tempted to indulge in those things.But today,I managed to stay out in the community and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed out and did what I had to do and that took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still asking that all of you continue praying for me.I also needs words of positive encouragement alongside your prayers.They both help out in many ways.They help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.I need some positive words of encouragement.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any form of comments.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I truly need that and also,as always,your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I had my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I headed over there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I dropped a friend off at home before heading to my own home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into a home suit.After that,I did some more personal PC work before relaxing while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I got dressed again and decided to head for an evening Holy Bible study class,which was at the same place as last week.
That class went great and after it was over,I headed straight and when I got there,I changed into my pajamas and relaxed until it was time for bed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.The struggle with BPD is never an easy thing to deal with.My Moods and/or emotions fluctuate constantly by the day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult to deal with.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw it on my Heavenly Father in prayer as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negatives in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in not only sustaining me,but I also feel more at ease and much calmer.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.At this point,I sensed that I had to really use the bathroom,so I headed for there and though it was slow going,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals returned to full softness and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,I was out for much of the day and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I had my bible study group today and that took my mind off of these things.I also was out in the community for a while after that and that kept my mind clean and focused on other things.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very rough and difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I desperately need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I had my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I headed over there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I dropped a friend off at home before heading to my own home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of local Dollar Tree stores to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into a home suit.After that,I did some more personal PC work before relaxing while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I got dressed again and decided to head for an evening Holy Bible study class,which was at the same place as last week.
That class went great and after it was over,I headed straight and when I got there,I changed into my pajamas and relaxed until it was time for bed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.The struggle with BPD is never an easy thing to deal with.My Moods and/or emotions fluctuate constantly by the day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult to deal with.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw it on my Heavenly Father in prayer as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negatives in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in not only sustaining me,but I also feel more at ease and much calmer.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.At this point,I sensed that I had to really use the bathroom,so I headed for there and though it was slow going,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals returned to full softness and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,I was out for much of the day and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I had my bible study group today and that took my mind off of these things.I also was out in the community for a while after that and that kept my mind clean and focused on other things.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very rough and difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also show that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I desperately need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair to good today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things to do today.
Today was a very rainy day and very chilly.I simply went out to do a couple of things that I needed to do.I first went over to my sister's house to pick up something that she had for me.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I was hoping to stop at a friends place to see how they were doing,but the storm clouds were getting worse and I headed straight home instead.It was a good thing that I decided to do just that because it did get worse.It actually started to hail and I was glad to get home before it got worse.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I also decided to pop another movie into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a pretty fair to good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.At times,the symptoms of BPD can really be stressful to deal with.The ups and downs of this emotional roller coaster ride can really stress a person out emotionally.At times,it really makes me feel down and at times,tired both physically and emotionally.Aside from the symptoms of BPD,I also have to deal and endure with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.Whenever this particular struggle tries to really get me down and emotionally stress me out,I go to my Heavenly Father,throw this struggle on him as a burden and ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I pray real hard and I ask him to get me through it all as the struggle of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have can be very difficult.They both help in sustaining me and also,help make me feel more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.This was also a throbbing one at that.I immediately got out of bed and started to walk around.Though it was slow going,the erection softened as I was up and about in the house.I didn't go back to bed until my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode and since I didn't get out much due to the day being rainy,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual fantasies and lusting of other men.I really had to fight these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I was also tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I simply and willfully chose to stay home rather than give into that particular urge.As I said,the SSA struggle is a very complicated and difficult one indeed.I am always fighting the urge to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and it never gets any easier.Fortunately for me,I didn't fall,but there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I tried to stay busy with other things around the house,but still,the urges kept coming and at times,they can be very overwhelming.Though I have been praying when these urges come,I also need prayers continuously from all of my fellow blog followers and readers.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Please leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section as I really need both of these desperately.Prayers and positive verbal encouragement are very powerful positive and holy weapons and they do work in many ways.They help keep me going.They also help keep me strong and also,make me more determined and motivated to continue on and continue to see the light at the end of the tunnel.They also give me hope and assurance.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and an evening bible study,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things to do today.
Today was a very rainy day and very chilly.I simply went out to do a couple of things that I needed to do.I first went over to my sister's house to pick up something that she had for me.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I was hoping to stop at a friends place to see how they were doing,but the storm clouds were getting worse and I headed straight home instead.It was a good thing that I decided to do just that because it did get worse.It actually started to hail and I was glad to get home before it got worse.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I also decided to pop another movie into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a pretty fair to good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.At times,the symptoms of BPD can really be stressful to deal with.The ups and downs of this emotional roller coaster ride can really stress a person out emotionally.At times,it really makes me feel down and at times,tired both physically and emotionally.Aside from the symptoms of BPD,I also have to deal and endure with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.Whenever this particular struggle tries to really get me down and emotionally stress me out,I go to my Heavenly Father,throw this struggle on him as a burden and ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I pray real hard and I ask him to get me through it all as the struggle of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have can be very difficult.They both help in sustaining me and also,help make me feel more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me again during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.This was also a throbbing one at that.I immediately got out of bed and started to walk around.Though it was slow going,the erection softened as I was up and about in the house.I didn't go back to bed until my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode and since I didn't get out much due to the day being rainy,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual fantasies and lusting of other men.I really had to fight these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I was also tempted to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but I simply and willfully chose to stay home rather than give into that particular urge.As I said,the SSA struggle is a very complicated and difficult one indeed.I am always fighting the urge to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and it never gets any easier.Fortunately for me,I didn't fall,but there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I tried to stay busy with other things around the house,but still,the urges kept coming and at times,they can be very overwhelming.Though I have been praying when these urges come,I also need prayers continuously from all of my fellow blog followers and readers.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Please leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section as I really need both of these desperately.Prayers and positive verbal encouragement are very powerful positive and holy weapons and they do work in many ways.They help keep me going.They also help keep me strong and also,make me more determined and motivated to continue on and continue to see the light at the end of the tunnel.They also give me hope and assurance.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and an evening bible study,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.Before leaving the house,I registered some dollar bills at the Where's George site and after that,I finally got around to folding all of my laundry and filled the bag with dirty laundry to drop off at my niece's house.After all of that was done,I headed out to do what I had to do.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed out to the drug store to pick up my prescription that I had filled today.After that,I went to visit with a friend to see how he was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into my home suit.I also popped a DVD in the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.Before doing that,I put a couple more applications for work online.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that is part of the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me much calmer and more at ease.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.This time,it was a throbbing one and I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge.I was also fighting sexual images of men clouding my mind at the same time.I immediately got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and I hurried to get there.While I was on my way there,though it was slow going this time,my genitals were starting to soften.I did have to use the bathroom badly this time also and my genitals were fully soft after I was finished.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.I am learning day after day that we men who struggle with SSA lead a very complicated and very difficult life.It is really difficult fighting the urges to masturbate to sexual images of men and also,to fight the urge of going out and seeking out men to act out sexually with,which is my main problem urge.I face these urges day in and day out.It is very difficult to fight and resist them.It is a lot easier to give into these temptations than it is to fight and resist them.Even when you give these urges over to the sovereign Lord and creator of all,our Heavenly Father,and to his son Jesus Christ,it is still difficult to fight and resist these urges.I am always at war with these urges to give into sexual sin.I am glad that my Heavenly Father is there to help me when I need him.I am also glad that his only begotten son Jesus Christ is also there to help him alongside.Why?Because at John 14:6 Jesus Christ explains that we can only to his father through him now and there is no other mediator between his father and we humans here on Earth.It is great that we SSA men who worship the Father through his son Jesus Christ don't have to struggle alone against this terrible monster known as SSA.SSA does nothing to enhance the lives of those,in particular men since I am a man,who struggle with it.The only thing that it does is lead men to live very destructive sexual lives by indulging in the terrible sexual sins that it tempts men to commit,which is the sexual activity between two members of the same gender,which is forbidden by our Heavenly Father through his sacred word,the Holy Bible.It is tough to fight and resist these terrible urges and without the help of our Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,fighting and resisting these terrible urges is impossible.Fellow blog followers and visitors,I ask that y'all please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive words of encouragement.I get a lot of visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of any kind.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.The power of prayer and positive verbal encouragement does help in more ways than one and the positive power and energy that they produce is immeasurable,which is why I keep asking for them.Prayers and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have(note that I still continue to say "these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have" as I willfully and seriously refuse to let these particular desires define who I am and how I will act or be)that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.Before leaving the house,I registered some dollar bills at the Where's George site and after that,I finally got around to folding all of my laundry and filled the bag with dirty laundry to drop off at my niece's house.After all of that was done,I headed out to do what I had to do.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed out to the drug store to pick up my prescription that I had filled today.After that,I went to visit with a friend to see how he was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into my home suit.I also popped a DVD in the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.Before doing that,I put a couple more applications for work online.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that is part of the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult to handle.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me much calmer and more at ease.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.This time,it was a throbbing one and I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this urge.I was also fighting sexual images of men clouding my mind at the same time.I immediately got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom and I hurried to get there.While I was on my way there,though it was slow going this time,my genitals were starting to soften.I did have to use the bathroom badly this time also and my genitals were fully soft after I was finished.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.I am learning day after day that we men who struggle with SSA lead a very complicated and very difficult life.It is really difficult fighting the urges to masturbate to sexual images of men and also,to fight the urge of going out and seeking out men to act out sexually with,which is my main problem urge.I face these urges day in and day out.It is very difficult to fight and resist them.It is a lot easier to give into these temptations than it is to fight and resist them.Even when you give these urges over to the sovereign Lord and creator of all,our Heavenly Father,and to his son Jesus Christ,it is still difficult to fight and resist these urges.I am always at war with these urges to give into sexual sin.I am glad that my Heavenly Father is there to help me when I need him.I am also glad that his only begotten son Jesus Christ is also there to help him alongside.Why?Because at John 14:6 Jesus Christ explains that we can only to his father through him now and there is no other mediator between his father and we humans here on Earth.It is great that we SSA men who worship the Father through his son Jesus Christ don't have to struggle alone against this terrible monster known as SSA.SSA does nothing to enhance the lives of those,in particular men since I am a man,who struggle with it.The only thing that it does is lead men to live very destructive sexual lives by indulging in the terrible sexual sins that it tempts men to commit,which is the sexual activity between two members of the same gender,which is forbidden by our Heavenly Father through his sacred word,the Holy Bible.It is tough to fight and resist these terrible urges and without the help of our Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,fighting and resisting these terrible urges is impossible.Fellow blog followers and visitors,I ask that y'all please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive words of encouragement.I get a lot of visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of any kind.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.The power of prayer and positive verbal encouragement does help in more ways than one and the positive power and energy that they produce is immeasurable,which is why I keep asking for them.Prayers and positive verbal support both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have(note that I still continue to say "these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have" as I willfully and seriously refuse to let these particular desires define who I am and how I will act or be)that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, October 21, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded to head over to a local kitchen in my hometown for free food day.When I arrived there,I was given a number and waited for a while to sign in.After signing in,I headed out to get my free food.I also got a bag lunch as a bonus.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up another gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the food away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some more running and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.While doing that,I prepared my evening meal and while and after eating,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.I also watched another one after that.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.They are always on an up and down scale.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,my struggle is even more tougher as a result of the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and I headed for the bathroom and that made the erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,it wasn't too big a deal.I stayed out in the community and kept busy just doing what I was doing and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I stayed out and about and that took my mind off of the sexual stuff.It was great not to have a problem by simply staying out and staying busy.While I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please ease continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination and motivation in this particular struggle.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded to head over to a local kitchen in my hometown for free food day.When I arrived there,I was given a number and waited for a while to sign in.After signing in,I headed out to get my free food.I also got a bag lunch as a bonus.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up another gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the food away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some more running and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.While doing that,I prepared my evening meal and while and after eating,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.I also watched another one after that.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.They are always on an up and down scale.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,my struggle is even more tougher as a result of the schizophrenic tendencies that I have alongside the BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for all that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and I headed for the bathroom and that made the erection soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,it wasn't too big a deal.I stayed out in the community and kept busy just doing what I was doing and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I stayed out and about and that took my mind off of the sexual stuff.It was great not to have a problem by simply staying out and staying busy.While I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please ease continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need some positive verbal encouragement as well in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination and motivation in this particular struggle.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation this morning.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I got dressed and went out to run some errands that I had to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also relaxed the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up out of bed and headed for there.As I did,my genitals started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but I stayed out for a while.I ran my errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed busy and I didn't stop doing what I was doing.Though I escaped unscathed today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going and also,they help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation this morning.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I got dressed and went out to run some errands that I had to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also relaxed the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up out of bed and headed for there.As I did,my genitals started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but I stayed out for a while.I ran my errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed busy and I didn't stop doing what I was doing.Though I escaped unscathed today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going and also,they help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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