Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I got out of bed in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today.
Today,I got around to cleaning the back seat of my car out of all the bottles and cans that had accumulated in the back seat of my car over the last several weeks.I bagged them all and after that was done,I proceeded to take them to a local supermarket to turn them in for the money as I did need money at the moment.It took quite a while,but I managed to get them all turned in and after getting the money,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten from the refund at the Where's George site.After that,I headed back out again to get a few things that I needed at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched another movie and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to deal with the symptoms of schizophrenia alongside the BPD symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I throw it on my Heavenly Father and I ask him for strength to me endure through the negatives.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for this strength.They both help in keeping me sustained and much more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I also had to get up because my head was hurting as well.I got out of bed and I headed for the kitchen.Though it was very slow going,the erection started to soften.After taking something for my headache,I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Yes,I was tempted to indulge in those things.But today,I managed to stay out in the community and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed out and did what I had to do and that took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still asking that all of you continue praying for me.I also needs words of positive encouragement alongside your prayers.They both help out in many ways.They help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.I need some positive words of encouragement.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any form of comments.Please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I truly need that and also,as always,your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ