Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did another reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation this morning.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I got dressed and went out to run some errands that I had to run.After they were done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also relaxed the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday always the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up out of bed and headed for there.As I did,my genitals started to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but I stayed out for a while.I ran my errands and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I simply stayed busy and I didn't stop doing what I was doing.Though I escaped unscathed today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going and also,they help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ