Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to the monthly Men's Network meeting.
The meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store in the area where the meeting was and I bought a few things.After that,I headed to the public library in the area to print a couple of online articles to read.After that,I headed for the local Super Wal-Mart when I got back into my area and picked up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweatsuit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I laid down to read for a while.After this,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I also laid down again and read a little bit more.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle of the two.Yes,it is.At times,the SSA struggles gets so difficult that I don't know whether I am coming or going.Today,I was overwhelmed again with temptation and they can get very strong at times.Today,I was tempted left and right to act out by fantasies and lusting.I was also tempted to manipulate my private parts at the same time.I wish that I didn't have to struggle with this.I hate that I have these unnatural sexual desires.I also hate it that I find members of my own gender sexually attractive.I know for those out in the world who have these same attractions,it is a cause for living it up and celebrating,but for me,I am a believer in the sovereign Lord and creator,my Heavenly Father and his son,the Lord and savior Jesus Christ,as my Heavenly Father condemns the sexual practices that are connected with this condition.His sacred word,the Holy Bible,condemns these sexual practices and calls them sinful.I believe and know that the sexual activity associated with Homosexuality is sinful,unnatural and above all,wrong.I am in a constant war with these unnatural sexual desires that I have and the war can be very difficult to fight every day.I am always working on not letting these unnatural sexual desires own me because I want to own them.I am still hoping that one day,I can really feel healing from these desires and also,I want to accomplish the goal of fully overcoming this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.It both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone.Please keep your support coming.I so desperately need it as I am going through a very rough and difficult emotional time in my life at the moment.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, October 04, 2014
Friday, October 03, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I first went to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money and pay a bill.I then went to a local hair place to have my hair cut.After that,I went grocery shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After paying for those things,I headed to a local Dollar tree store to pick up some snacking food.I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light evening meal and when I was finished with that,I decided to listen to some music and do some more personal PC work.There was a torrential downpour of rain and there was thunder and lightning alongside High winds.I chose to keep the TV off to be on the safe side.After a while,I laid down and read for a while.Later on,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and that led to fantasizing and lusting after these images and I ejaculated while doing so.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself after I did that and after washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I admitted everything to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me for my sins while also accepting full and total responsibility for my fall.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I am sick and tired of falling constantly.I can't keep falling into sin.I need to work on resistance and getting tough.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I can't let Satan and his minions bring out the worst in me as a result of these unnatural sexual desires that I have.I need to kick Satan and his minions to the curb every time I get the temptation to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section.I really need it as I feel alone when nobody leaves anything encouraging in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network group tomorrow and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I first went to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money and pay a bill.I then went to a local hair place to have my hair cut.After that,I went grocery shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After paying for those things,I headed to a local Dollar tree store to pick up some snacking food.I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light evening meal and when I was finished with that,I decided to listen to some music and do some more personal PC work.There was a torrential downpour of rain and there was thunder and lightning alongside High winds.I chose to keep the TV off to be on the safe side.After a while,I laid down and read for a while.Later on,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and that led to fantasizing and lusting after these images and I ejaculated while doing so.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself after I did that and after washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I admitted everything to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me for my sins while also accepting full and total responsibility for my fall.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I am sick and tired of falling constantly.I can't keep falling into sin.I need to work on resistance and getting tough.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I can't let Satan and his minions bring out the worst in me as a result of these unnatural sexual desires that I have.I need to kick Satan and his minions to the curb every time I get the temptation to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section.I really need it as I feel alone when nobody leaves anything encouraging in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the upcoming weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network group tomorrow and church as usual on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, October 02, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes real quickly and I headed for the agency so my job placement counselor/coach and I could fill out a job application.After we filled it out,I left the agency to drop it off and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and I headed back out to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I headed back out to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending several minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Wendy's to buy a side salad for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and while that was heating up,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being my most difficult of the two.Today,I actually gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind and I also gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and while I did,I left nothing out.I admitted everything.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to find out why I keep giving into these terrible temptations.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Again,I need to find out why I keep giving in.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I feel alone when nobody leaves me any positive verbal support in the comments section.Please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I need it very much.I also ask that you continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes real quickly and I headed for the agency so my job placement counselor/coach and I could fill out a job application.After we filled it out,I left the agency to drop it off and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and I headed back out to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I headed back out to see how a friend of mine was doing.After spending several minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Wendy's to buy a side salad for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and while that was heating up,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being my most difficult of the two.Today,I actually gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind and I also gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and while I did,I left nothing out.I admitted everything.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to find out why I keep giving into these terrible temptations.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Again,I need to find out why I keep giving in.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I feel alone when nobody leaves me any positive verbal support in the comments section.Please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I need it very much.I also ask that you continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, October 01, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I headed for a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few needed things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and enjoyed some music and a little TV.I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little more TV and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does so,I am still struggling daily against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted today to act out.I wasn't tempted to fantasize nor lust nor to manipulate my genitals.It was a relief that no temptations came around today.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can try to tempt me to act out in any way,shape or form.I need to show them that I own these unnatural sexual desires that I have and that they don't own me.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am still asking that you please keep me in your prayers as I still need them.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your verbal encouragement as much as I need your prayers.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment that I have with my job coach to help get an application for work filled out,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I headed for a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few needed things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and enjoyed some music and a little TV.I also prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little more TV and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does so,I am still struggling daily against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult struggle that I have.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted today to act out.I wasn't tempted to fantasize nor lust nor to manipulate my genitals.It was a relief that no temptations came around today.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can try to tempt me to act out in any way,shape or form.I need to show them that I own these unnatural sexual desires that I have and that they don't own me.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am still asking that you please keep me in your prayers as I still need them.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your verbal encouragement as much as I need your prayers.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment that I have with my job coach to help get an application for work filled out,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed out.I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local bakery to have a loaf of bread,that I picked up at the local kitchen,sliced.After that,I headed for the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and drop some stuff off.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I laid down and read for a while.When I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and my most difficult struggle of the two,SSA.Today,I again gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Yes,I also gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I prayed.I admitted everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I truly believed that I was forgiven.I know that I have said this quite a few times,but I feel that I need to,as I really need to start getting really tough with myself,because I keep getting tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and I keep giving into that terrible temptation.I don't know why.I want to find out why,but I don't know how to find out why.Maybe if I find out why,I can stop giving into it and maybe get a resolution to this terrible problem and start seriously healing from this terrible SSA and start overcoming it and start really progressing.I need prayers real badly right now.I also need some serious positive verbal support right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I badly need both types of support right now as I really need to get to the bottom of this problem that I have.I want to stop giving into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued and much needed prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed out.I headed for a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local bakery to have a loaf of bread,that I picked up at the local kitchen,sliced.After that,I headed for the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and drop some stuff off.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I laid down and read for a while.When I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and my most difficult struggle of the two,SSA.Today,I again gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Yes,I also gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I prayed.I admitted everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I truly believed that I was forgiven.I know that I have said this quite a few times,but I feel that I need to,as I really need to start getting really tough with myself,because I keep getting tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and I keep giving into that terrible temptation.I don't know why.I want to find out why,but I don't know how to find out why.Maybe if I find out why,I can stop giving into it and maybe get a resolution to this terrible problem and start seriously healing from this terrible SSA and start overcoming it and start really progressing.I need prayers real badly right now.I also need some serious positive verbal support right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I badly need both types of support right now as I really need to get to the bottom of this problem that I have.I want to stop giving into the terrible temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued and much needed prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, September 29, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I got a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach and she told me that I had an interview for a job today and after hanging up,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and after that,while getting dressed in dress clothes,I got another phone call from her and she told me to meet her at the agency and after that,follow her to where the interview was,which I did.
The interview went by quickly and my job placement counselor/coach let me know that she would get back to me by the end of the day and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and after that,I headed out to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that,I headed to a gas station to get gas and after that,I went to the public library to register the bills that I got in change after getting gas.After that,I stopped at a used book store and I bought four record albums.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work while awaiting my job placement counselor/coach to call me,but I didn't hear from her.I called the agency and left a message on her voice-mail and after that,I cleaned the kitchen sink and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little music and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two struggles for me.Today,I gave into temptation by masturbating to sexual images of men clouding my mind.Yes,I fantasized and lusted after other men and I was really ashamed of myself and felt sorrowful.After cleaning my hands,I immediately went my Heavenly Father in prayer and I prayed for forgiveness and mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I unloaded everything and accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough on myself.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,but I am not doing a very good job at it.I want to do a good job,but my sinful nature prevents me.I need to get back on track and work on my goals to overcome and heal from SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Your support is very important to me.I get a lot of visitors,but the visitors rarely post anything.Positive verbal support both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your prayers and verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I got a phone call from my job placement counselor/coach and she told me that I had an interview for a job today and after hanging up,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and after that,while getting dressed in dress clothes,I got another phone call from her and she told me to meet her at the agency and after that,follow her to where the interview was,which I did.
The interview went by quickly and my job placement counselor/coach let me know that she would get back to me by the end of the day and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and after that,I headed out to have lunch at a local kitchen.After that,I headed to a gas station to get gas and after that,I went to the public library to register the bills that I got in change after getting gas.After that,I stopped at a used book store and I bought four record albums.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work while awaiting my job placement counselor/coach to call me,but I didn't hear from her.I called the agency and left a message on her voice-mail and after that,I cleaned the kitchen sink and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little music and later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two struggles for me.Today,I gave into temptation by masturbating to sexual images of men clouding my mind.Yes,I fantasized and lusted after other men and I was really ashamed of myself and felt sorrowful.After cleaning my hands,I immediately went my Heavenly Father in prayer and I prayed for forgiveness and mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I left nothing out.I unloaded everything and accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I still need to work on getting tough on myself.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,but I am not doing a very good job at it.I want to do a good job,but my sinful nature prevents me.I need to get back on track and work on my goals to overcome and heal from SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Your support is very important to me.I get a lot of visitors,but the visitors rarely post anything.Positive verbal support both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your prayers and verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, September 28, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for these,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I had to go back out again to go to the drug store to pick up my refilled prescription.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I relaxed.Later on,I prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and relaxed while watching it.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling day after day with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I can report that I wasn't tempted today.It was great that I had a rest from temptations today.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike when least expected with temptation after temptation.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as temptations can hit at any time because,as stated,Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I get a lot of visitors,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.I feel alone when nobody leaves me a comment in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue to pray for me also.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for these,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I had to go back out again to go to the drug store to pick up my refilled prescription.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I relaxed.Later on,I prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and relaxed while watching it.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still struggling day after day with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I can report that I wasn't tempted today.It was great that I had a rest from temptations today.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike when least expected with temptation after temptation.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as temptations can hit at any time because,as stated,Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I get a lot of visitors,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.I feel alone when nobody leaves me a comment in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue to pray for me also.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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