Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I was out collecting bottles around the community.I also managed to find some loose change on the ground,mostly pennies.After I had accumulated quite a bit,I turned them in at a local supermarket.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills at the Where's George site.After that,I went back out to pick up something at a local Dollar Tree store.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I alos ask for strength to help me stay calm and also,to not let the negatives of this double whammy that I have try to bring me down.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and stayed sitting up until the erection softened.I got up out of bed and I walked for a while and that made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.Images of men in a sexual sense were really clouding my mind.I prayed and prayed to my Heavenly Father.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I didn't want to sin and give into these temptations.I felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am again asking that all of you please keep praying for me as I am going through this really difficult emotional time.Please keep praying for me.I also ask that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I decided to take a drive to pick up someone that I knew years ago and wanted to hook up again.
I drove through the area that he said that he lived,but couldn't find his house number.I even tried to find an extension of the street that he claimed to live on,but couldn't.Disappointed,I headed back home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
A little later on,I decided to get some gas in my gas tank and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch.After eating lunch,I decided to pay a visit to a friend that I haven't talked to in a while.After talking with him for a few minutes,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening new for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to get me through the negative affects of this particular struggle.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I had to use the bathroom,so I headed for the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.They kept coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.Throughout the day,I asked for strength,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I didn't cease praying as these temptations kept coming at me.I felt much stronger after I finished praying each time.I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard my prayers and gave me what I asked for.Though I have done that throughout the day,I am again asking that all of you to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this very difficult emotional time.I need prayers by all of you.I also need encouraging words and comments by all of you.Your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement both do help in many ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Please pray for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 3/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to my Thursday morning spirituality group,which went well.After the group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch,but for the second consecutive week,it was bag lunches.After I received my bag lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to a nearby car dealership to enter some contests that they were having.After dropping off the entry blanks that I filled out while there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away that I bought and I ate my bagged lunch.After that,I finished the rest of my personal PC work.I relaxed for a while and I took it easy when I was finished with that.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made my genitals start to soften,though it was slow going.I headed for the bathroom as I sensed that I had to use it.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished in the bathroom.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual fantasies and lusting of other men.I was tormented by these negative sexual images and I had to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I had to pray real hard to my Heavenly Father as these temptations were really starting to envelope me.I prayed and ask my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I felt better and much stronger as I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father was there and he gave me what I asked for.While I have done that,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotion time.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help in very big ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't really gotten anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first headed over to the public library to type an important business letter and also,to print a reading from the Holy Bible that I will be doing in front of the congregation at my church this coming Sunday.After that was done,I headed over to the post office to mail out the business letter and a payment to a finance company.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare dinner as I was really hungry.I did have a couple of sandwiches at Burger King while on the way to the post office,but was still hungry when I got home.
After I had my dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little more at ease.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I got up to use the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.I wasn't tempted very much today as I was out in the community and that took my mind off of all the negative sexual images of men.I stayed busy and I kept thinking of positive things.It actually was good for me to be out and about in the community and just being out and about around people did help.Though I did escape with no problems today,I am still asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that you also please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words do help a lot.They both keep me going.They also strengthen my determination to continue in my goals to overcome SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in the journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I only had a few things to do today,I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I decided to take a trip around to see if a friend of mine was home,which he wasn't.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle and throw it on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does ease me a little bit.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for there and that is what made my genitals start to soften.They were fully soft when I was finished in the bathroom.I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.However,I stayed out most of the day and didn't even think of anything sexual at all.I simply let the temptations slowly fade into nothing by simply staying out in the community and keeping my mind on other things.I also managed to watch a pretty good movie later on.Though I did get by without any falling into sins,I am still asking that all of you who regularly follow my blog to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.They both help out in many ways.Prayers and words of encouragement are very powerful weapons in the fight against this terrible SSA.For me,they both help keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also keep me motivated to continue on the journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and words of encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I got dressed.I headed for the local hospital to get much needed blood-work done.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since it rained for much of the afternoon,I stayed home and took it easy.I just relaxed for a bit and just enjoyed the much needed rest.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and I really talk about it in prayer.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and that helped make the erection soften.After several minutes,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I kept up in prayer all day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I asked my Heavenly Father in prayer to give me the strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.I asked him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help give me the strength that I needed to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I felt better and much stronger after praying and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both also strengthen my determination to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for church for the last Summer outdoor service,which are always held the last Sunday of each Summer month from June to August.
The worship service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the the local Big Lots to pick up a box of cereal.After paying for that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar General store to pick up one more thing.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also had a light lunch as well.
I relaxed for much of the day and took it easy.
I did hear from that friend that I was hoping to re-connect with yesterday.He sent me an e-mail that he had to work overtime and that he was working out of state yesterday and didn't come home until the wee early morning hours.He apologized for that and he said that he was hoping that we can get together tomorrow afternoon.I told him that this would be okay.I am hoping that nothing comes up that prevents us from getting together after so long.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I then ask my Heavenly Father to help get me through the negatives in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat yup and proceeded to get up out of bed.This made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep when they were fully soft.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.This time,it wasn't so bad.I simply kept busy with my day.I relaxed and tried to think of more positive things and that took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.Still,I am again asking that all of you continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and continue praying for me.They both help keep me going in this fight.They also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting much needed blood work done at the local hospital,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ