Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I got dressed.I headed for the local hospital to get much needed blood-work done.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since it rained for much of the afternoon,I stayed home and took it easy.I just relaxed for a bit and just enjoyed the much needed rest.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle as a burden on my Heavenly Father.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and I really talk about it in prayer.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and that helped make the erection soften.After several minutes,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I kept up in prayer all day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I asked my Heavenly Father in prayer to give me the strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.I asked him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help give me the strength that I needed to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I felt better and much stronger after praying and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both also strengthen my determination to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ