Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first headed over to the public library to type an important business letter and also,to print a reading from the Holy Bible that I will be doing in front of the congregation at my church this coming Sunday.After that was done,I headed over to the post office to mail out the business letter and a payment to a finance company.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare dinner as I was really hungry.I did have a couple of sandwiches at Burger King while on the way to the post office,but was still hungry when I got home.
After I had my dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little more at ease.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I got up to use the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.I wasn't tempted very much today as I was out in the community and that took my mind off of all the negative sexual images of men.I stayed busy and I kept thinking of positive things.It actually was good for me to be out and about in the community and just being out and about around people did help.Though I did escape with no problems today,I am still asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I also ask that you also please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words do help a lot.They both keep me going.They also strengthen my determination to continue in my goals to overcome SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in the journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ