Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 3/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to my Thursday morning spirituality group,which went well.After the group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch,but for the second consecutive week,it was bag lunches.After I received my bag lunch,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed over to a nearby car dealership to enter some contests that they were having.After dropping off the entry blanks that I filled out while there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away that I bought and I ate my bagged lunch.After that,I finished the rest of my personal PC work.I relaxed for a while and I took it easy when I was finished with that.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that made my genitals start to soften,though it was slow going.I headed for the bathroom as I sensed that I had to use it.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished in the bathroom.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual fantasies and lusting of other men.I was tormented by these negative sexual images and I had to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I had to pray real hard to my Heavenly Father as these temptations were really starting to envelope me.I prayed and ask my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I felt better and much stronger as I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father was there and he gave me what I asked for.While I have done that,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotion time.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help in very big ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't really gotten anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ