Saturday, March 28, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning to use the bathroom as I had to go big time.For last night,I slept on the couch as I wasn't feeling too good last just in case my queasy stomach would have went on to more worse things,but fortunately,it hadn't.After using the bathroom,I transferred all of my blankets to my bed and I went back to sleep for a few more hours because though I was feeling a little bit better,I still wasn't out of the woods yet.
After getting back up again,I used the bathroom again and after that,had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.I laid down for much of the day as I wasn't still feeling up to snuff yet.I am glad that my stomach-ache didn't go from bad to worse,but I was still aching for much of the day.Later on,I decided to get get dressed and head for the local Super Wal-Mart to get another box of Alka-Seltzer,a bottle of aspirin and a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I heated up a can of chicken noodle soup for dinner as I didn't want to eat anything heavy while my stomach was still hurting a little.I also watched a couple of classic TV episodes from a DVD set that I have.Later on,after doing the dishes and taking some more Alka-Seltzer,I started to prepare for my evening retirement hoping that my stomach will be 100% better tomorrow.Overall,it was a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still not at 100% yet in regards to my physical health.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I am hoping that I will feel a lot better so I can attend church as usual tomorrow morning.Please pray for me that I do.I prayed last night that my Heavenly Father heal me from the stomach-ache and that it wouldn't go on to anything worse and it worked.I will be praying again tonight that my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,will also take my headache and heal my stomach fully.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Friday, March 27, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went out for a drive to get an estimate on used tires for my car's front end,but the man who owned the place advised me to try getting a pair of band new ones at the local Super Wal-Mart once I have the money to purchase them.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed for a local Burger King to have a light snack of a sandwich.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and after that,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode from that a DVD set that I have into the DVD player.When it was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am not feeling very good.My stomach has been hurting me and I have been feeling warm all over the place.Plus,I am also again feeling extremely tired as my medication is kicking in yet again when least expected.I am hoping that this is only a short spell and doesn't develop into anything really serious.I am hoping to feel better by tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Please pray that I feel better by tomorrow and also in regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Please continue to pray for me.I also would still appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for the weekend,if I feel better by tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wound up waking up in the early afternoon and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was finished,I got dressed and went out to the bank to withdraw some money.After that,I headed back home to register some of the bills at the Where's George site and after that,I headed back out to a church for a free dinner,which was wonderful.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something important that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from casual clothes into pajamas and after that,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting later,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am again feeling extremely tired as a result of my medication kicking in when least expected.I can barely type this without misspelling words.I will start talking about my struggles tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and positive verbal support in the comments section is always appreciated.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly got dressed and I headed out as I had a couple of groups today that I didn't want to miss.
The first group went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed back for the afternoon group.
The afternoon group also went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I immediately went and did my personal PC work.It was a lot,but I got it done.After that,I relaxed and listened to some music for a while.After that,I headed back out for the final Lenten dinner at my church's fellowship hall.
The dinner was wonderful.I had some wonderful fellowship and it was great to be around my fellow worshipers.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into pajamas and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape of form.I guess that by keeping busy with the things that I participated in,it kept my mind off of the sexual aspects and that was very good.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions are out there and they relentlessly try to tempt all humans who worship the only true sovereign Lord and creator of the world and universe,our Heavenly Father,to break his laws in regards to,but not limited to,sexuality.They will try and try.I am still working on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,own them and not the other way around.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires that I have dictate to me how to act nor define who I am as a human being.I need all the help that my Heavenly Father can give in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the ahead.FJ

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the rehab center to meet with the center manager and with the job placement counselor there.
Both meetings went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a couple of thrift stores in the area to look around.After that,I bought a couple of things at a nearby Dollar Tree store.After that,when I arrived back in my home area,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket for a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after a short sober period,I gave into temptation.I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals this morning upon arising and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and pleaded for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me.After I was finished,I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I don't know what's wrong with me.Why do I keep giving into the same old temptations?Every time I turn around,I am getting tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting after other men,and I keep giving into that particular terrible temptation.Again,I don't know what's wrong with me.I need to learn how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have with members of my own gender and overcome it at the same time.If anyone out there can give me any advice,I would really appreciate that.I also feel that this obsession is connected with the unresolved anger and trauma issues that have happened in my life coupled also with the sexual abuse that I endured when I was younger when I was abused by members of my own gender.I want to stop this and I need all the help that I can get.I am afraid to reveal this to my therapist as I don't want this terrible false identity of Homosexual to be affirmed on me as the Homosexual identity is a false identity and there's no legitimacy with it.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,especially some advice on how I can break free from this terrible obsession that I have and how I can overcome it.I need all the help,prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.I am hoping that all of you will be here for me and to help me with any helpful advice that can be given.Even if you know of articles written by Christian writers about this particular subject,share those as maybe they could help me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my daytime groups and the final Lenten dinner at my church fellowship hall,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, March 23, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After having coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed out.
I went to the local Big Lots and I bought something.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my sweatsuit and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for turning in for the night.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am again feeling way too tired.I will talk about my struggles tomorrow when I am more able.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the manager of and the job placement counselor at the rehab center,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the ahead.FJ

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I did another reading from the Holy Bible and I also volunteered to help with the offering collecting.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local bargain supermarket to pick up something I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple of classic episodes from a TV show that I have on DVD.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I can say that no temptations came my way.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions will always try to get me to go against my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to,but not limited to,sexuality.I can't let Satan and his minions get what they want.I have to show them,with the help of my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am much stronger than they are.I also have to show them that the unnatural sexual desires that I have don't own me,but that I own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to pray for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ