Tonight,my road to recovery marches on.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I had a quick lunch.After lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a couple of things to do.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple packs of toilet tissue and after paying for those,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a few more things there.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I popped a DVD in the DVD player and relaxed while watching it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery marches on,but the road is still not an easy one.I still have to struggle with the symptoms of BPD and that is never an easy one.I am usually on an emotional roller coaster ride and that is what makes it difficult.I am in therapy and I do take medication as directed,which I will both continue to do,but the struggle to try and keep my moods on an even scale are never easy.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD.While the struggle with a double whammy like I have is never an easy one,I still rely on God to get me through any of the difficulties.I just turn to God whenever the struggle seems unbearable.He and his son Jesus Christ really do help when asked.I feel better whenever I throw this on them and they get me out.It does make me feel relieved and I am turning to them whenever I do need to talk to them when this struggle seems unbearable.If I don't, I won't know whether I am coming or going.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by erections at a few separate intervals in the morning.This real whammy was really overwhelming me as it felt like the desire to masturbate an erection away was starting to overtake me.As the wee early morning hours were moving forward,I started to pray to God to give me strength to fight and resist this temptation to masturbate.I was still sleepy and as a result,my speech wasn't really straightforward as a result of the drowsiness and tiredness,but I managed to get some words out before falling back asleep while talking to God.I did escape this episode thanks to God,but the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form of acting out it might be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.At times,the temptation to act out can be very overwhelming and also,unbearable.But again,I simply rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through any temptation.After that,the temptation simply fades into non-existence.I feel better and I can carry on without thinking about the temptations.I even try reading the recommended Holy Bible readings in the daily devotions that I receive in my e-mail.I have to continually rely on God and Christ more than on my own strength as that is the only way that I will get anywhere in these struggles.I also ask that those reading these posts also pray for me as well.I would appreciate that.Thanks.
Tomorrow,it is church as usual in the morning.Regarding the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues marching forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my bath,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first had to go to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom and after that,I headed over to the post office to mail out an important letter.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up one more thing.After paying for that item,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and relaxed for a short time.
I also had one more thing on my agenda.I had an appointment for my one on one study class with the pastor over at the church.When the time came for that,I headed over to the church to meet with him and study the material that he assigned me to read every week.
The meeting was wonderful.After the meeting was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while and I also watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to march forward and it is still a very rocky road at that.I have to continually put up with the symptoms of BPD and the struggle with that is never easy.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle even more difficult.But again,I am simply relying on God more than on my own strength and power.Since doing that,I am having a much better time working on managing this stuff.It doesn't make it easier,but it does make it only a tad bearable.It is tough going through what I have to go through,but with God and his son Jesus Christ taking over,I have nothing to worry about.I simply throw it on God and for his help in the name of his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another throbbing erection.The temptation to masturbate it away was very overwhelming.I had to really fight to resist this temptation as it was a very overwhelming one.I simply got up to use the bathroom and after I was finished,the erection died down and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,the temptation to act out,no matter what form of acting out it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Day after day,I get the temptation to act out on thee unnatural desires that I have and I am always in the fight to do what is right.Still,all I do is that I throw it all on God and ask him to keep me strong.I simply do that and after talking with him about it,I feel much better.All it takes is approaching him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and when I put it in their hands,it is like that a big weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.I feel better and I can go on with the rest of the day.Now,I simply rely on God and he gets me through the temptation with the power of his son Jesus Christ working alongside him.Thanks go to God and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a few things planned.
I first attended my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I am always looking forward to this group with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I headed over there looking forward to the discussions.
The group meeting went well.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after lunch was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with BPD and the symptoms of it.It is never an easy thing to deal with.I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD and that makes the struggle even more difficult.I have to not only put up with the emotional roller coaster ride,but also with hearing things that other people don't/can't hear.But since I have been relying on God more than my own strength,it's only makes it a tad easier.It is still a struggle,but when God is in control,I have really nothing to fear or worry about.It shows that I am not alone in my suffering.God and his son Jesus Christ get me through the toughest things and that is better than nothing.I mean,I still struggle,but with God and Christ Jesus leading the way,the struggle isn't as unbearable as it is when they are not relied upon and that is wonderful.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into the temptation to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away.After the episode was all over,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for falling.Though I believed that I was forgiven,I still felt miserable for a while and though I did sleep well until the alarm went off,I got up still feeling miserable and guilty, although I believed that I was forgiven.As the day went on,I started to feel better and the guilt and shame of giving into this temptation started to wear down.This time,the fall was more emotional than sexual,although there was a little bit of fantasy involved,but not to the extreme,as it was more emotional as a result of me having an erection.I gave into this episode,but I now have to try and concentrate on things that are holy rather than things that are immoral,explicit,erotic and simply inappropriate as masturbation is also tied to lusting after other humans be they male or female.I have to really work on turning to God in prayer more when these temptations come.I can't do it alone.God and his son Jesus Christ are the only ones that can give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and the temptations can be very overwhelming and strong at times.Again,I have to start praying whenever the temptation to masturbate comes around and to ask for strength and power to fight and resist.I also ask that my fellow followers of my blog please say a prayer or two for me so I can also stay strong enough to fight and resist any temptations.Thanks in advance for doing so.
Tomorrow,I have a meeting with the pastor of the church in the late afternoon.Aside from that,I have nothing else planned.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned for today.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to mail out a letter.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I realized that I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I got ready to go to that.I headed over to her office.
The session with her went great and after it was over,I stopped in on a friend to see how he was doing.After a visit with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply went back out again to pick up something to eat.After paying for that,I headed straight home to eat.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.In between all of that,I managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
My road to recovery continues onward and while it does,I still have to struggle with the symptoms of BPD.It is never easy to deal with these symptoms and the struggle is always difficult.The emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD usually makes it difficult.Aside from BPD,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes it even more difficult.But as I said before and I will say it again,all I need to do is to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ for strength rather than rely on my own strength.While the struggle with any mental illness is never easy,one can put up with it all and reap benefits when God and his son Jesus Christ are relied on more than relying on one's own means.God,through prayer continuously,and his son Jesus Christ are there to help anyone who asks for help in their names.I am not saying that it makes the struggle easy,but it does make anyone feel more at ease.It is a matter of throwing the burden on God and have him help you in his son Jesus Christ's name.Again,it doesn't make it easier,but anyone who asks for their help will make themselves feel more at ease.I will just have to rely more on God in the near future in order for me to continue feeling pretty good.I am also hoping that those who read my posts will be motivated to give this a try if they are feeling overwhelmed by their mental illnesses and the issues alongside them.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection out of a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing one at that.I had to really fight this as I really wanted to touch myself and masturbate the erection away as that was my old way of coping with this problem.I simply got up to go to the bathroom and while walking there,the erection started to soften and after using the bathroom,I simply went back to sleep as my genitals were now back to their flaccid state.Though I did escape this episode,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It is never easy trying to fight and resist any temptation.But with God's help,it isn't as overwhelming as it used to be.Whenever I get tempted,all I need to do is to tell God about it and simply put it in his hands.I do this in his son Jesus Christ's name and after that,the temptation simply fades in memory and when I do give into the temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ's name to forgive me for that and after that,I also feel better.It is wonderful that I don't have to "tough it out" when it comes to relying on God and his son Jesus Christ to help get me through any sort of temptation.I am also glad that God is so loving and understanding that he does forgive and he does accept all of us regardless of out faults and character defects.Thanks be to God and his son Jesus Christ for being there when needed.Without them,I would be on the road to nowhere.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first had to go to the local hospital to see the nurse practitioner to get my prescription and also,to talk with her about what has been going on with me in my life.
The session went great.After getting my prescription,I headed out to finish the day.
I had to go to a friend of my mom's to pick up something that she wanted me to pick up.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to drop off my latest prescription.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward.I am still struggling with the symptoms of BPD and putting up with the ups and downs of the constant emotional roller coaster ride that I am usually on.Aside from that,I have schizophrenic tendencies that I also struggle with and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.But I am still praying to God in Heaven and asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the difficulties of both these evils.It has been pretty good and when I throw it all on God,as Psalm 55:22 says to do so,I feel better and I can move on with the rest of the day.I simply throw it on God and ask for help in his son Jesus Christ's name and after that,it isn't as burdensome as it was before asking them.I am just going to simply continue to rely on God through his son Jesus Christ to get me through.I will still continue to attend my therapy sessions.I am going to continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will continue to feel good in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by yet another erection.This was also another throbbing one as well.I had to really fight and resist this temptation.I simply got up to use the bathroom as the erection softened as I was walking there and after I was finished,I simply went back to sleep.Later on,I was actually manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for masturbatory purposes,but managed to stop myself and God through his son Jesus Christ to forgive me.Though I escaped these two episodes,I still have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more in order to remain strong and ask for their help in the resistance to acting out on these unnatural desires that I have.Without God and without his son Jesus Christ,I am relying on my own strength and I will constantly fail.I will just have to keep relying on God and Jesus Christ more for strength to resist the temptation to act out.I keep thanking them for everything and that is wonderful.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had only a few things on my agenda.
I first stopped at the drug store to pick up a prescription.After that was done,I headed over to the local hospital to attend a mandatory group meeting in order for me to get my prescription when I have to see the nurse practitioner a few weeks later.
The group meeting was great.After it was over,I headed over to a nearby McDonalds for a quick lunch.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I relaxed.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward and it still isn't an easy road to be on.Then again,it is never easy when somebody,like myself,struggles with BPD and the ups and downs that many who struggle with BPD have.It is always difficult and also,when somebody,like myself,has schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD.Still,though the struggle is never easy,I still rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through.If the struggle ever gets to feel unbearable,I simply lean on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through the struggle.It is still never easy,but relying on God through Jesus Christ more makes it only a tad easier.I feel good knowing that God is there to listen and he uses the power of his son Jesus Christ to aid in his own power to help make a person feel more at ease.Yes,I am glad that I now rely more on God through his son Jesus Christ to help me in my struggles with this double whammy of mental illnesses that I have.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by an erection.This also was yet another throbbing erection as well.I had to really fight this temptation as the temptation to masturbate is strongest whenever I get an erection.I simply got up and walked to the bathroom and as I walked there,the erection started to soften and when I was finished in the bathroom,I went right back to sleep as my genitals were now soft.Though I escaped this episode,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.But as I said above,I continue to rely on God through his son Jesus Christ and when I talk about the temptations to God,it seems that the temptation starts to fade when I talk about them.After finishing talking with God in the name of son Jesus Christ,I feel better and I simply continue on with the day.I feel better knowing that I can rely more on God through his son Jesus Christ rather than rely on my own strength to get through this.It makes me stronger asking God rather than relying on my own way.Thanks God and Jesus Christ for that.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up and I headed for church this morning.As usual,I look forward to church every Sunday morning since I returned last year in September.
Both the Holy Bible study class and the service afterwards were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the people and a few snacks that the people were handing out,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to get all of my dirty clothes together to take them to the laundromat to get them washed and cleaned.It was quite a lot and after I got everything together,I headed over to the laundromat to get them done.
ON the way there,I made a few stops.I picked up a few pizza slices for lunch and stopped at a small convenience store for a small bottle of milk.After paying for those,I headed to the laundromat.
When I got there,I found an available machine and started doing my laundry in a snap.It took about and hour and a half to do.After it was all clean,I put all of my laundry in two separate dryers and eagerly awaited them to get dry.After that was done,I folded everything and I put it in the bag and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply unloaded all of my laundry and put it away.I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward.It isn't easy dealing with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.It is always a struggle to try and stay emotionally balanced.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that also makes the BPD struggle even more difficult.But now,though it is a struggle,I am now relying on God through his son Jesus Christ to get me through the struggle.It is still difficult,but it is only a tad easier with them taking the wheel and guiding me.God and his son Jesus Christ are always working to get me through the rough and rocky road of having BPD and also,having schizophrenic tendencies that makes the struggle more difficult.But I am hanging in there and trying to stay focused.I am still going to continue my therapy sessions and continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that these good feelings last for quite a while for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection awakened me out of a deep sleep.This was a really hard erection and also,another throbbing one.I had to really use all of my strength to resist this temptation.I simply got up and used the bathroom and after I was finished,my erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Whenever that temptation occurs,I have to use all the strength that I have to fight and resist.I also have God and his son Jesus Christ helping me out in this area.I know that whenever I get the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,I can count on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through the temptation and carry me out of it by simply putting in in their hands.After that,I don't feel it anymore and I can move on from there.It is wonderful that I can rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to resist any temptation and with their help,anything is possible.Thanks again to God and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow,I have a group at the local hospital that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ