Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I bathed quickly.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda.I first had to go to the local hospital to see the nurse practitioner to get my prescription and also,to talk with her about what has been going on with me in my life.
The session went great.After getting my prescription,I headed out to finish the day.
I had to go to a friend of my mom's to pick up something that she wanted me to pick up.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to drop off my latest prescription.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward.I am still struggling with the symptoms of BPD and putting up with the ups and downs of the constant emotional roller coaster ride that I am usually on.Aside from that,I have schizophrenic tendencies that I also struggle with and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.But I am still praying to God in Heaven and asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the difficulties of both these evils.It has been pretty good and when I throw it all on God,as Psalm 55:22 says to do so,I feel better and I can move on with the rest of the day.I simply throw it on God and ask for help in his son Jesus Christ's name and after that,it isn't as burdensome as it was before asking them.I am just going to simply continue to rely on God through his son Jesus Christ to get me through.I will still continue to attend my therapy sessions.I am going to continue taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that I will continue to feel good in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours to masturbate when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by yet another erection.This was also another throbbing one as well.I had to really fight and resist this temptation.I simply got up to use the bathroom as the erection softened as I was walking there and after I was finished,I simply went back to sleep.Later on,I was actually manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or near erect for masturbatory purposes,but managed to stop myself and God through his son Jesus Christ to forgive me.Though I escaped these two episodes,I still have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I will just have to keep relying on God and his son Jesus Christ more in order to remain strong and ask for their help in the resistance to acting out on these unnatural desires that I have.Without God and without his son Jesus Christ,I am relying on my own strength and I will constantly fail.I will just have to keep relying on God and Jesus Christ more for strength to resist the temptation to act out.I keep thanking them for everything and that is wonderful.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ