Tonight,my road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day as I had only a few things on my agenda.
I first stopped at the drug store to pick up a prescription.After that was done,I headed over to the local hospital to attend a mandatory group meeting in order for me to get my prescription when I have to see the nurse practitioner a few weeks later.
The group meeting was great.After it was over,I headed over to a nearby McDonalds for a quick lunch.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD in the DVD player and I relaxed.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward and it still isn't an easy road to be on.Then again,it is never easy when somebody,like myself,struggles with BPD and the ups and downs that many who struggle with BPD have.It is always difficult and also,when somebody,like myself,has schizophrenic tendencies alongside the BPD.Still,though the struggle is never easy,I still rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through.If the struggle ever gets to feel unbearable,I simply lean on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through the struggle.It is still never easy,but relying on God through Jesus Christ more makes it only a tad easier.I feel good knowing that God is there to listen and he uses the power of his son Jesus Christ to aid in his own power to help make a person feel more at ease.Yes,I am glad that I now rely more on God through his son Jesus Christ to help me in my struggles with this double whammy of mental illnesses that I have.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by an erection.This also was yet another throbbing erection as well.I had to really fight this temptation as the temptation to masturbate is strongest whenever I get an erection.I simply got up and walked to the bathroom and as I walked there,the erection started to soften and when I was finished in the bathroom,I went right back to sleep as my genitals were now soft.Though I escaped this episode,I have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.But as I said above,I continue to rely on God through his son Jesus Christ and when I talk about the temptations to God,it seems that the temptation starts to fade when I talk about them.After finishing talking with God in the name of son Jesus Christ,I feel better and I simply continue on with the day.I feel better knowing that I can rely more on God through his son Jesus Christ rather than rely on my own strength to get through this.It makes me stronger asking God rather than relying on my own way.Thanks God and Jesus Christ for that.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ