Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up and I headed for church this morning.As usual,I look forward to church every Sunday morning since I returned last year in September.
Both the Holy Bible study class and the service afterwards were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the people and a few snacks that the people were handing out,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to get all of my dirty clothes together to take them to the laundromat to get them washed and cleaned.It was quite a lot and after I got everything together,I headed over to the laundromat to get them done.
ON the way there,I made a few stops.I picked up a few pizza slices for lunch and stopped at a small convenience store for a small bottle of milk.After paying for those,I headed to the laundromat.
When I got there,I found an available machine and started doing my laundry in a snap.It took about and hour and a half to do.After it was all clean,I put all of my laundry in two separate dryers and eagerly awaited them to get dry.After that was done,I folded everything and I put it in the bag and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply unloaded all of my laundry and put it away.I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
My road to recovery continues to go forward.It isn't easy dealing with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.It is always a struggle to try and stay emotionally balanced.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that also makes the BPD struggle even more difficult.But now,though it is a struggle,I am now relying on God through his son Jesus Christ to get me through the struggle.It is still difficult,but it is only a tad easier with them taking the wheel and guiding me.God and his son Jesus Christ are always working to get me through the rough and rocky road of having BPD and also,having schizophrenic tendencies that makes the struggle more difficult.But I am hanging in there and trying to stay focused.I am still going to continue my therapy sessions and continue to take my medication as directed.I am hoping that these good feelings last for quite a while for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection awakened me out of a deep sleep.This was a really hard erection and also,another throbbing one.I had to really use all of my strength to resist this temptation.I simply got up and used the bathroom and after I was finished,my erection softened and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I still have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it is,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.Whenever that temptation occurs,I have to use all the strength that I have to fight and resist.I also have God and his son Jesus Christ helping me out in this area.I know that whenever I get the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,I can count on God and his son Jesus Christ to get me through the temptation and carry me out of it by simply putting in in their hands.After that,I don't feel it anymore and I can move on from there.It is wonderful that I can rely on God and his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to resist any temptation and with their help,anything is possible.Thanks again to God and his son Jesus Christ.
Tomorrow,I have a group at the local hospital that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ