Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day as I had only a few things planned for today.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.After that was done,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that my mom needed.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the post office to mail out a letter.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I realized that I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I got ready to go to that.I headed over to her office.
The session with her went great and after it was over,I stopped in on a friend to see how he was doing.After a visit with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I simply went back out again to pick up something to eat.After paying for that,I headed straight home to eat.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.In between all of that,I managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.
My road to recovery continues onward and while it does,I still have to struggle with the symptoms of BPD.It is never easy to deal with these symptoms and the struggle is always difficult.The emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD usually makes it difficult.Aside from BPD,I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes it even more difficult.But as I said before and I will say it again,all I need to do is to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ for strength rather than rely on my own strength.While the struggle with any mental illness is never easy,one can put up with it all and reap benefits when God and his son Jesus Christ are relied on more than relying on one's own means.God,through prayer continuously,and his son Jesus Christ are there to help anyone who asks for help in their names.I am not saying that it makes the struggle easy,but it does make anyone feel more at ease.It is a matter of throwing the burden on God and have him help you in his son Jesus Christ's name.Again,it doesn't make it easier,but anyone who asks for their help will make themselves feel more at ease.I will just have to rely more on God in the near future in order for me to continue feeling pretty good.I am also hoping that those who read my posts will be motivated to give this a try if they are feeling overwhelmed by their mental illnesses and the issues alongside them.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection out of a deep sleep.It was also another throbbing one at that.I had to really fight this as I really wanted to touch myself and masturbate the erection away as that was my old way of coping with this problem.I simply got up to go to the bathroom and while walking there,the erection started to soften and after using the bathroom,I simply went back to sleep as my genitals were now back to their flaccid state.Though I did escape this episode,I have to keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form it might be,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.It is never easy trying to fight and resist any temptation.But with God's help,it isn't as overwhelming as it used to be.Whenever I get tempted,all I need to do is to tell God about it and simply put it in his hands.I do this in his son Jesus Christ's name and after that,the temptation simply fades in memory and when I do give into the temptation,I simply ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ's name to forgive me for that and after that,I also feel better.It is wonderful that I don't have to "tough it out" when it comes to relying on God and his son Jesus Christ to help get me through any sort of temptation.I am also glad that God is so loving and understanding that he does forgive and he does accept all of us regardless of out faults and character defects.Thanks be to God and his son Jesus Christ for being there when needed.Without them,I would be on the road to nowhere.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ