Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving on.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some things that I needed for the house and after paying for them,I headed straight home as I really didn't have too much to do.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving on,I am still on my usual daily battle and struggle with BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes withe the territory.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or by the minute/moment and I never know how they will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and it also means that I don't have to go it alone.It is wonderful that God and Christ help sustain anyone who struggles with any type of disorder.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of the strength that I had to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I got up as I had to use the bathroom and while I was on my way there,the erection started softening and when I got to the bathroom,the erection fully died down and I simply went back to bed after using the bathroom.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA and the temptations can be very overwhelming at times.I threw every temptation on God and asked him in the name of Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil each time.I kept it up throughout the day and I felt better each time.While I have been doing that,I am still continuing to ask that everyone who follows and reads this blog of mine to continue praying for me as I am going through this complex emotional period.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class before the service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Friday, December 14, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues uninterrupted.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hurriedly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I first went to see my case worker and that meeting went as well as planned.After that,I went to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed over to a friend's place to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was about to relax and watch a DVD when the phone rang.It was my sister and she told me that my niece wasn't feeling well and was checking into the emergency ward at the local hospital.I had to pick up my niece's kids from school,drop them off at home and babysit them until my niece's live-in boyfriend came home from work.When he did,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my home suit and started to prepare dinner.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or at times by the minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply put the struggle in God's hands and ask him to get me through this in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is a simply a matter of talking to God to prayer in the name of his son Jesus Christ and feeling a little bit better as they take the wheel and lead the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I sat up for about 5 minutes and when the erection softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept up asking for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I kept it up all day as I was tempted throughout the day to act out by masturbating or by grabbing my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer and I felt better each time.I am also continuing to ask all of you who follow this blog of mine and read my posts to continue praying for me as I am still trying to overcome this complex emotional period that I am still going through.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your positive encouragement and prayers both help keep me going and even more determined to continue in my journey out of this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do as well.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I hurriedly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I first went to see my case worker and that meeting went as well as planned.After that,I went to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed over to a friend's place to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was about to relax and watch a DVD when the phone rang.It was my sister and she told me that my niece wasn't feeling well and was checking into the emergency ward at the local hospital.I had to pick up my niece's kids from school,drop them off at home and babysit them until my niece's live-in boyfriend came home from work.When he did,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my home suit and started to prepare dinner.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues uninterrupted,I am still having to deal and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or at times by the minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes the struggle with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply put the struggle in God's hands and ask him to get me through this in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is a simply a matter of talking to God to prayer in the name of his son Jesus Christ and feeling a little bit better as they take the wheel and lead the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I sat up for about 5 minutes and when the erection softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept up asking for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil.I kept it up all day as I was tempted throughout the day to act out by masturbating or by grabbing my genitals for the purpose of getting them erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer and I felt better each time.I am also continuing to ask all of you who follow this blog of mine and read my posts to continue praying for me as I am still trying to overcome this complex emotional period that I am still going through.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your positive encouragement and prayers both help keep me going and even more determined to continue in my journey out of this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do as well.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning Spirituality group and that went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have my lunch and after eating that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little something that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in his son Christ Jesus' name and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation early this morning when I masturbated an erection away.After that happened,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better.I was still tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides and I really had to pray hard to God in his son Jesus Christ's name to get me through the temptations and also to continue giving me strength to fight and resist the temptations.I felt better each time,but I have to keep doing this as temptation will never leave me alone.I am also continuing to ask all of you who follow this blog of mine and read the posts to continue praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to those who follow and read my blog posts for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have an early appointment with my case manager.Aside from that,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose too do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning Spirituality group and that went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have my lunch and after eating that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little something that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in his son Christ Jesus' name and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation early this morning when I masturbated an erection away.After that happened,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better.I was still tempted throughout the day as the temptations kept coming at me from all sides and I really had to pray hard to God in his son Jesus Christ's name to get me through the temptations and also to continue giving me strength to fight and resist the temptations.I felt better each time,but I have to keep doing this as temptation will never leave me alone.I am also continuing to ask all of you who follow this blog of mine and read the posts to continue praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to those who follow and read my blog posts for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have an early appointment with my case manager.Aside from that,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose too do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a very eventful and stressful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,since I was getting my esophagus checked out.I couldn't eat anything and I could only take my morning medication for my blood pressure and my allergy.After that,I got dressed real quickly and when my locally living sister arrived,we headed for the local hospital.
When we got there,I registered and headed for the area where the doctor was going to check my esophagus.I really waited quite a long time for them to get to me and when they did,I was put under and I woke up over an hour later.
Fortunately,I had no ulcers and that was good.But my doctor will give me even more details when I see them next week.After it all done,my sister dropped me off at home and I heeded the advice of not to leave the house the rest of the day for anything,which I didn't.I decided to stay home and I will do what I have to do tomorrow.
When I got into the house,I had my usual quick,but late,breakfast and I finally had my coffee.After eating breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,an eventful and stressful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading down as well.
As a result of the stressful day that I had at the hospital and since I am still not feeling well as a result of all the testing and all the sedating medication that they gave,I am not going to talk about my struggles with mental illness or SSA today.To my fellow followers who read my blog,I will still continue to ask that you all continue praying for me as I am going through all of this rough stuff and also please leave and encouraging word or two in the comments section as both of those things help keep me going in my fight against this terrible SSA and the terrible temptations that go with that particular territory.I also will keep praying.Thanks in advance to all of you for all your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,since I was getting my esophagus checked out.I couldn't eat anything and I could only take my morning medication for my blood pressure and my allergy.After that,I got dressed real quickly and when my locally living sister arrived,we headed for the local hospital.
When we got there,I registered and headed for the area where the doctor was going to check my esophagus.I really waited quite a long time for them to get to me and when they did,I was put under and I woke up over an hour later.
Fortunately,I had no ulcers and that was good.But my doctor will give me even more details when I see them next week.After it all done,my sister dropped me off at home and I heeded the advice of not to leave the house the rest of the day for anything,which I didn't.I decided to stay home and I will do what I have to do tomorrow.
When I got into the house,I had my usual quick,but late,breakfast and I finally had my coffee.After eating breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,an eventful and stressful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading down as well.
As a result of the stressful day that I had at the hospital and since I am still not feeling well as a result of all the testing and all the sedating medication that they gave,I am not going to talk about my struggles with mental illness or SSA today.To my fellow followers who read my blog,I will still continue to ask that you all continue praying for me as I am going through all of this rough stuff and also please leave and encouraging word or two in the comments section as both of those things help keep me going in my fight against this terrible SSA and the terrible temptations that go with that particular territory.I also will keep praying.Thanks in advance to all of you for all your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda.
I only did a couple of important things.I first went to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some money.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my usual daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions change and vary by the day or by the minute/moment.I never know how they will be and it can be very draining.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing these struggles to God and asking for help in keeping me clam and serene.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and while I was sitting up,the erection softened and I laid back down and fell back asleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day and I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.After each prayer,I did feel better.I kept it up throughout the day as I am still working on recovering from the emotional tailspin of the previous week.I am also continuing to ask all of you followers and readers of my blog to keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a lot of negative stuff.I am also asking that you all leave an encouraging word or two for me on my blog in the comments section as both your prayers and your positive encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets a lot of visitors,but usually,nobody leaves an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please leave an encouraging word in the comments section as I would really appreciate that and again,keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to go to the local hospital to get my esophagus checked out.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda.
I only did a couple of important things.I first went to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed over to the bank to withdraw some money.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my usual daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions change and vary by the day or by the minute/moment.I never know how they will be and it can be very draining.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a matter of bringing these struggles to God and asking for help in keeping me clam and serene.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and while I was sitting up,the erection softened and I laid back down and fell back asleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day and I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations as they kept coming at me.After each prayer,I did feel better.I kept it up throughout the day as I am still working on recovering from the emotional tailspin of the previous week.I am also continuing to ask all of you followers and readers of my blog to keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a lot of negative stuff.I am also asking that you all leave an encouraging word or two for me on my blog in the comments section as both your prayers and your positive encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets a lot of visitors,but usually,nobody leaves an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please leave an encouraging word in the comments section as I would really appreciate that and again,keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to go to the local hospital to get my esophagus checked out.As for the rest of the day,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, December 10, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I went to my usual building and improving self esteem group today and I did get quite a bit out of it.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.This is one of my daily struggles aside from my struggles with SSA.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.The emotional tailspin that happened to me last week is still upon me.After I gave into that particular temptation,I really felt miserable as it was yet another falling caused by negative emotions that I endured last week from the persecution to the stressful days on Thursday and Saturday.I really prayed hard to God and asked him for his mercy and forgiveness for falling and I asked all of that in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I did feel better.After that,I moved on and kept up in prayer to God and his son Christ Jesus all day.On the advice of a minister that I communicate with via e-mail,I read Romans Chapter 7 and it showed that Paul humbly talked about his struggles with sin and that he wants to do what is right,but his sinful nature keeps him from doing that.The minister told me to take great comfort in the words of the Apostle Paul to the Christians who were living in Rome.It did show me that even though that like Paul,I also want to do what is right,but my sinful nature also prevents me from doing that.Not that I am enslaved to sin,which I am not,but it does show that we all give in to temptations at times and we will sin as we are all still imperfect and will fall short from time to time.When we do,God will be there to forgive us as he understands that we are imperfect as a result of Adam and Eve's sin and he won't bear a grudge as a result of our inherent imperfection.Paul also shows that God is there to forgive and he will always forgive anyone who confesses their sins to him as again,he knows that we are imperfect.That,in itself,is very comforting to know.I again continue that all of you continue in prayer for me and also to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both you prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly to proceed with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
I went to my usual building and improving self esteem group today and I did get quite a bit out of it.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.This is one of my daily struggles aside from my struggles with SSA.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take it to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating an erection away.The emotional tailspin that happened to me last week is still upon me.After I gave into that particular temptation,I really felt miserable as it was yet another falling caused by negative emotions that I endured last week from the persecution to the stressful days on Thursday and Saturday.I really prayed hard to God and asked him for his mercy and forgiveness for falling and I asked all of that in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I did feel better.After that,I moved on and kept up in prayer to God and his son Christ Jesus all day.On the advice of a minister that I communicate with via e-mail,I read Romans Chapter 7 and it showed that Paul humbly talked about his struggles with sin and that he wants to do what is right,but his sinful nature keeps him from doing that.The minister told me to take great comfort in the words of the Apostle Paul to the Christians who were living in Rome.It did show me that even though that like Paul,I also want to do what is right,but my sinful nature also prevents me from doing that.Not that I am enslaved to sin,which I am not,but it does show that we all give in to temptations at times and we will sin as we are all still imperfect and will fall short from time to time.When we do,God will be there to forgive us as he understands that we are imperfect as a result of Adam and Eve's sin and he won't bear a grudge as a result of our inherent imperfection.Paul also shows that God is there to forgive and he will always forgive anyone who confesses their sins to him as again,he knows that we are imperfect.That,in itself,is very comforting to know.I again continue that all of you continue in prayer for me and also to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both you prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, December 09, 2012
Tonight,my road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch afterwards.After lunch,I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one minute to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.It is a never ending thing.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel good.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night for the fourth consecutive time this week when I masturbated an erection away.I immediately prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and asked that he forgive me for giving into the temptation and I felt better after that.I went right back to sleep afterwards.Throughout the day,I was getting tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his Christ Jesus to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations that kept coming at me.I have really been tormented by temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and at times,the temptation can try to bring me down.I just kept throwing them on God and asking for strength to fight and resist the temptations.Temptations can be very terrible and I don't want to give into them at all,but I have been giving into them and I know that I have been forgiven for them as I can feel God put his hand on my shoulder when I ask to be forgiven.I am also again asking for prayers by those who follow my blog.Please continue to pray for me and also,I again ask that all of you who follow and read my blog or pay my blog a visit that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments sections.It is just that my blog gets plenty of visitors,but they usually don't leave me any encouraging words in the comments.Alongside prayers,positive words of encouragement also keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and keeps me even more determined to continue my goals in overcoming SSA and the unnatural desires connected with it.Again,please continue in prayers for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my building and improving self esteem group.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I did my personal PC work and had a light lunch afterwards.After lunch,I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still having to deal with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one minute to the next or at times from one minute/moment to the next.It is a never ending thing.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It also shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel good.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night for the fourth consecutive time this week when I masturbated an erection away.I immediately prayed to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and asked that he forgive me for giving into the temptation and I felt better after that.I went right back to sleep afterwards.Throughout the day,I was getting tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and I kept throwing every temptation on God and asked him in the name of his Christ Jesus to give me the strength to fight and resist the temptations that kept coming at me.I have really been tormented by temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and at times,the temptation can try to bring me down.I just kept throwing them on God and asking for strength to fight and resist the temptations.Temptations can be very terrible and I don't want to give into them at all,but I have been giving into them and I know that I have been forgiven for them as I can feel God put his hand on my shoulder when I ask to be forgiven.I am also again asking for prayers by those who follow my blog.Please continue to pray for me and also,I again ask that all of you who follow and read my blog or pay my blog a visit that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments sections.It is just that my blog gets plenty of visitors,but they usually don't leave me any encouraging words in the comments.Alongside prayers,positive words of encouragement also keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and keeps me even more determined to continue my goals in overcoming SSA and the unnatural desires connected with it.Again,please continue in prayers for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my building and improving self esteem group.Aside from that,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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