Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving on.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some things that I needed for the house and after paying for them,I headed straight home as I really didn't have too much to do.
When I got home,I relaxed and I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving on,I am still on my usual daily battle and struggle with BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes withe the territory.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or by the minute/moment and I never know how they will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and it also means that I don't have to go it alone.It is wonderful that God and Christ help sustain anyone who struggles with any type of disorder.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of the strength that I had to fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I got up as I had to use the bathroom and while I was on my way there,the erection started softening and when I got to the bathroom,the erection fully died down and I simply went back to bed after using the bathroom.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out on these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with SSA and the temptations can be very overwhelming at times.I threw every temptation on God and asked him in the name of Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges and I felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil each time.I kept it up throughout the day and I felt better each time.While I have been doing that,I am still continuing to ask that everyone who follows and reads this blog of mine to continue praying for me as I am going through this complex emotional period.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class before the service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ