Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning,nearly oversleeping,and showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed over to church for the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home.I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit.I firs had a light lunch and after that,I did my personal PC work.
Today,I was invited to a birthday party for a long time friend of mine and after I got dressed when my personal PC work was done,I headed over to his place to pick him up and take him to where the party was being held.
The party was wonderful.After it was over,I dropped him off at home and I headed straight home myself.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church makes the day eventful and the birthday party was swell indeed.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one minute to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was once again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and I stayed sitting up until the erection softened and I went back to sleep once it did.Fortunately for me,I was around some company as a result of the birthday party and that was wonderful as since I was around others,I wasn't tempted to act out by other means aside from seeking out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.I didn't get any temptations to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping or even to masturbate.While it didn't happen for much of the day,I am still asking that all of you who repeatedly follow and read my blog to continue praying for me and to also write an encouraging word or two in the comments section on my blog as both your prayers and comments help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and also,make me even more determined to overcome SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ