Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my quick shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and headed over to the gastro doctor's office to see the results of my esophagus check-up.
The doctor informed me that there were no problems.I didn't have any ulcers or anything else.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the group site to pick up a gift card that they were holding for me.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did 3/4 of my personal PC work and I headed out again as I had an appointment with my case worker.
The meeting with my case worker went well.After a quick lunch at a nearby Burger King,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I picked up a bill that I forgot earlier and I headed over to the post office to mail it out with a money order.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a movie.After the movie was over,I finished my personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Today,I am feeling better than I did yesterday.Though I am still aching a little,it isn't as bad as it was yesterday.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that I also have nothing to fear.Thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation again in the wee early morning hours by masturbating.This complex emotional pattern is really starting to take it's toll on me.This is another fall and after it happened,I really felt miserable.I prayed to God to ask him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better.As stated,the complex emotional pattern that I am going through right now is really putting me into a tailspin.This is the first holiday season without my mom being here and also,the stress of me being sick yesterday and all other sorts of things contributed even more negativisms to the current emotional state that I am in at this moment.I am hoping that I will get over this complex emotional pattern soon as I really don't want to act out by masturbating or even by lusting anymore as I am really starting to get sick and tired of this entire SSA struggle.But I am not throwing in the towel.That is what Satan and his minions want.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who continually follows and reads my blog posts and I am again appealing top all of you for some kind words of encouragement in the comments section.It is just that my blog gets quite a few visitors,but nobody posts anything of encouragement to me at all.I would really appreciate some kind words of encouragement and please keep up the prayers.I will also keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ