Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work,but stayed home for the day as it was raining for much of the day.I simply stayed home and I relaxed.I listened to some music and watched some TV.I also stayed online for much of the day as well.I was communicating with many of my online friends.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little bit more TV and I also did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will keep you all updated on them tomorrow as I am feeling very sleepy.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often to help keep me going.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Friday, September 12, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to do my personal PC work first and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I headed out to my usual Celebrate Recovery group,which went as wonderfully as expected and after that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I have some things that I need to say in this regard to my struggles with SSA and it isn't pretty.This week has been an up and down roller coaster weekend.I have been struggling a lot this week and as a result,I have given into temptations a few times this week.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which led to me fantasizing and lusting after other men and on a couple of occasions,it led to ejaculation.On these occasions,I felt really miserable after doing these things as I know that my Heavenly Father condemns such activity and I really felt sorry for myself as a result of me giving into these terrible,meaningless and worthless temptations.On all of these occurrences,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and I confessed all of my sins to him and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falls into sin.I also begged and pleaded,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for both his forgiveness and his mercy.I begged for him to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sins.I was really sorry for doing that and again,these activities are things that my Heavenly Father not only condemns,but also,abhors.When I was finished,I felt better and knew and truly and totally believed that I was forgiven.I really need to start getting tough with myself.The emotional factor was that I was angry this week.The reason for my anger was because my sister had the gall to call me three nights ago when I was about to go to sleep and say that she needed to pick up a couple of things.This really made me angry because I was tired,very sleepy and wanted to go to bed.The worst part of her coming over was her meddling into my life and my business,which I didn't appreciate at all.That led to all the stuff and falling that few times this week.I am not saying that it excuses it,but it was the motivator and the way that I was feeling.I also need to work on not letting my anger get the better of me when things that I don't want happening happen.Again,I need to get tough with myself and start showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I hate that I have sexual feelings for men and I hate this struggle.I want to do what is right,but my sinful nature wants me to do the opposite.I have to show my sinful nature that I am no longer interested in any of those things that are connected to the so called "Pro-Gay" agenda.I want to be what my Heavenly Father wants me and intends me to be.I happen to be a man and a male and that is what I am identity wise.All other identities,such as "Homosexual/Gay" are false identities.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in desperate need of your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I decided to do my personal PC work first and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I headed out to my usual Celebrate Recovery group,which went as wonderfully as expected and after that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I have some things that I need to say in this regard to my struggles with SSA and it isn't pretty.This week has been an up and down roller coaster weekend.I have been struggling a lot this week and as a result,I have given into temptations a few times this week.I have given into the temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which led to me fantasizing and lusting after other men and on a couple of occasions,it led to ejaculation.On these occasions,I felt really miserable after doing these things as I know that my Heavenly Father condemns such activity and I really felt sorry for myself as a result of me giving into these terrible,meaningless and worthless temptations.On all of these occurrences,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and I confessed all of my sins to him and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my falls into sin.I also begged and pleaded,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,for both his forgiveness and his mercy.I begged for him to be merciful towards me and to forgive my sins.I was really sorry for doing that and again,these activities are things that my Heavenly Father not only condemns,but also,abhors.When I was finished,I felt better and knew and truly and totally believed that I was forgiven.I really need to start getting tough with myself.The emotional factor was that I was angry this week.The reason for my anger was because my sister had the gall to call me three nights ago when I was about to go to sleep and say that she needed to pick up a couple of things.This really made me angry because I was tired,very sleepy and wanted to go to bed.The worst part of her coming over was her meddling into my life and my business,which I didn't appreciate at all.That led to all the stuff and falling that few times this week.I am not saying that it excuses it,but it was the motivator and the way that I was feeling.I also need to work on not letting my anger get the better of me when things that I don't want happening happen.Again,I need to get tough with myself and start showing these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I hate that I have sexual feelings for men and I hate this struggle.I want to do what is right,but my sinful nature wants me to do the opposite.I have to show my sinful nature that I am no longer interested in any of those things that are connected to the so called "Pro-Gay" agenda.I want to be what my Heavenly Father wants me and intends me to be.I happen to be a man and a male and that is what I am identity wise.All other identities,such as "Homosexual/Gay" are false identities.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in desperate need of your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would really appreciate both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of errands to run.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I had a light evening meal tonight.After I was finished eating,I watched some TV and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement as evening came.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I an putting off talking about them until tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in dire need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of errands to run.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I had a light evening meal tonight.After I was finished eating,I watched some TV and I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement as evening came.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I an putting off talking about them until tomorrow.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I am still in dire need of both your prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and did some much needed cleaning up around the house.I had to get rid of a whole bunch of paper piles that had accumulated over a span of time.I put all of them into trash bags and I headed for my church because they had dumpsters where you can dump recyclable papers to help raise funds for the church and it's accompanying school.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to dump a whole bunch of plastic shopping bags into their recycling can.After that,I purchased a few needed things and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will start talking about them again tomorrow as I am really tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support.I really need and appreciate all the support that I can get.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have n plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and did some much needed cleaning up around the house.I had to get rid of a whole bunch of paper piles that had accumulated over a span of time.I put all of them into trash bags and I headed for my church because they had dumpsters where you can dump recyclable papers to help raise funds for the church and it's accompanying school.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to dump a whole bunch of plastic shopping bags into their recycling can.After that,I purchased a few needed things and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In regards to my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I will start talking about them again tomorrow as I am really tired.Please continue praying for me and please leave me some positive verbal support.I really need and appreciate all the support that I can get.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have n plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, September 09, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and I watched a little TV.Later on,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wasn't tempted in any way to act out on my desires.I simply went through the day without any problems nor anything to get me to compromise.It was good that I had no problems today,but I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Why?Satan and his minions can strike at ant time when least expected and try to tempt me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let the unnatural desires that I have own me.I have to show these desires that I have that I own them.I am going to try and make it my resolve to start setting aside a time for prayer.Lately,I have been only going to my Heavenly Father when I am in need of strength to help me fight and resist the urges when they come around and I feel that this is why that the temptations keep coming at me.I can't let Satan and his minions have their way.I have to show them that I worship the only true God,our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father and that I have his son Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.I am going to make it my effort and resolve to make prayer a regular part of my day.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I really need your prayers right now as well as daily and often.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section right now as well as daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing on my agenda for today.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and I watched a little TV.Later on,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I wasn't tempted in any way to act out on my desires.I simply went through the day without any problems nor anything to get me to compromise.It was good that I had no problems today,but I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Why?Satan and his minions can strike at ant time when least expected and try to tempt me to break my Heavenly Father's perfect law in regards to sexuality.I can't let the unnatural desires that I have own me.I have to show these desires that I have that I own them.I am going to try and make it my resolve to start setting aside a time for prayer.Lately,I have been only going to my Heavenly Father when I am in need of strength to help me fight and resist the urges when they come around and I feel that this is why that the temptations keep coming at me.I can't let Satan and his minions have their way.I have to show them that I worship the only true God,our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father and that I have his son Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.I am going to make it my effort and resolve to make prayer a regular part of my day.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I really need your prayers right now as well as daily and often.I also need your positive verbal support in the comments section right now as well as daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, September 08, 2014
Sunday, September 07, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study group and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I left the house to see about work this week,but I have the week off again.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that,I relaxed for a while.After the relaxation,I headed back out to get a few things at a couple of local supermarkets.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way shape or form.I went through the day unscathed.It was great that I wasn't tempted to do anything in a sexual way that is connected with SSA.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations of all sorts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study group and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I left the house to see about work this week,but I have the week off again.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that,I relaxed for a while.After the relaxation,I headed back out to get a few things at a couple of local supermarkets.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way shape or form.I went through the day unscathed.It was great that I wasn't tempted to do anything in a sexual way that is connected with SSA.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations of all sorts.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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