Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and moved some stuff of mine out of the garage and into the storage unit that I'm renting.I also went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I put everything away.In between doing those things,I was waiting all day for a guy to come and help rip out the ceiling in the dining room of the house,but he never called me.I also sent him a text,but he never replied.I simply waited all day,but I did manage to wipe down and clean the bathroom awaiting for him to call me or reply to my text message.This really frustrated me as I was going to do some things that I wanted to do,but put that on hold as a favor.But again,he never called nor did he ever reply to my text message.I felt as if a whole day was wasted.

When the early evening came,I had a light evening meal and in between waiting and the meal,I did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A not too good of a day,but frustrating and somewhat uneventful.

I'm still struggling with the same issues that I've been having for quite some time.I have talked about these issues yesterday and a few days ago.I need help and advice on how I can get rid of this "couldn't care less" attitude that I've been having lately.As stated,I've been having this type of attitude towards my co-workers and the clients at the facility.I need to stop this and get rid of it,but don't know how.I don't want to lose my job nor do I want anyone to get an unfavorable impression of me.This is making me sad and miserable.This type of attitude gets nobody nowhere nor does it create a positive atmosphere,but a negative and hostile one.I really want to stop this.I also want to overcome and contain the anger and rage issues that I also still struggle with.

I again ask:

"What's wrong with me?"

"Why can't I stop this?"

I also ask:

"How can I stop this?"

Any helpful advice or answers are appreciated.I also would still appreciate your continued prayerful support.I need all the prayers that I can get.I also ask that all of you pray for others who are also struggling with this same thing,including those who are still struggling with SSA issues,such as myself.Thanks to all of you for your prayers and support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I did some of my personal PC work and washed up and shaved real quickly.I then finished my personal PC work.After that was finished,I got dressed and headed for my therapist's office.

My session with my therapist went well.I got a lot out of the session.After that,I had my income tax filed and after that,I headed for home.

On the way home,I stopped at a local bottle return place to turn in some empty bottles and cans.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I vacuumed a couple of rugs and did some more personal PC work.Later on,I heated up my evening meal.

After eating,I watched a few videos online and did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

I still ask myself these questions:

"What's wrong with me?"

"Why can't I stop this?"

I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I have been struggling with these things for quite some time.I want to overcome and contain these issues for good.I still have this "couldn't care less" attitude towards the clients and my co-workers.I need to get rid of this attitude.I don't know how I started this nor where it came from.I'm desperate to get rid of this.If I don't,it could result in my losing my job.I don't want that to happen.I need help.I need to learn how I can contain and overcome these terrible anger and rage issues and also,get rid of this "couldn't care less" attitude that I have.I need help.I need all of you to give me any helpful advice and positive verbal support.I also need prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I hope that the weekend starts off well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I shopped at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a few things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I dropped off a few things at home and headed back out to a local church for a free dinner.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I showered quickly and did a little bit of cleaning up in the house.I also did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A Very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

I have the day off tomorrow as I have an appointment with my therapist.I'm hoping that the session goes well.I also hope that my extended weekend is also wonderful.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.I then did my personal PC work.I later also helped with some minor cleaning up around the house.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was all over,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a few needed things.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my work clothes and showered quickly.After that,I ate a light evening meal and did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with the same anger and rage issues,which I shared last night,and still need prayerful support.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is another work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,and since I had the day off due to it being a holiday today,I did my personal PC work.I then got dressed and went outside to shovel some snow that fell last night and after that,I washed up and shaved real quickly.I relaxed while my face warmed-up after that and I went out to run a few errands.

I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After that,I stopped at at a local Rite Aid to buy a few more needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had a light evening meal.

After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

I need to be open right now.I have been struggling with intense anger and rage issues lately.Lately,I have been having a "couldn't care less" attitude about the people I work with and the clients of the facility.This is really bothering me.I am also feeling intense misery and sadness as a result of this thing.I have been muttering angry and uncaring words under my breath,especially at work.So far,none of the clients have reported this to the supervisor(s),but I'm afraid that one day,they will do so and then,I could be out of a job if this is brought to their attention,which is something I don't want to have happen.Right now,during this time of the year,employment opportunities are scarce and I can't afford to be out of a job at all.This is also making me ashamed and hateful of myself.I don't want to be out of a job.I also don't want to be in any other negative situation as a result of this.I need to eliminate this terrible problem to save myself and most importantly,to hold onto my job.I'm also starting to have a "can't stand the sight of them" attitude towards my co-workers and the clients themselves,which is also making me feel miserable and ashamed of myself.Again,I need and want to stop this terrible problem.I can't have this type of thing where I work,as again,it could mean that I lose my job and again,I don't want that to happen.I also don't know whether I'm coming or going as a result of this.

What's wrong with me?

Why can't I stop this?

If anyone has any advice on how I can,please share within the comments section.I also need all the prayerful support that I can get.Please continue praying for me because this is becoming a terrible and real struggle for me.Please pray for me that I stop and eliminate this terrible problem that I have.I'm desperate for anything helpful,both prayerful and positive verbal support,alongside any helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is back to work day.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and got dressed up in a suit.I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.

Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I stopped at McDonald's for a light lunch and after that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I helped my sister out around the house with hanging some stuff up.My nephew also came over to help out as well.

After all of that work,we had a light evening meal and I did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

Please continue praying for me as I'm still struggling with anger and rage issues.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support,alongside some helpful advice,within the comments section.Thanks to all of you for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a day off as it is a holiday for me.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ