Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and had my usual coffee.After my coffee,I washed up real quickly and moved some stuff of mine out of the garage and into the storage unit that I'm renting.I also went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few needed things.I then headed straight home.

When I got home,I put everything away.In between doing those things,I was waiting all day for a guy to come and help rip out the ceiling in the dining room of the house,but he never called me.I also sent him a text,but he never replied.I simply waited all day,but I did manage to wipe down and clean the bathroom awaiting for him to call me or reply to my text message.This really frustrated me as I was going to do some things that I wanted to do,but put that on hold as a favor.But again,he never called nor did he ever reply to my text message.I felt as if a whole day was wasted.

When the early evening came,I had a light evening meal and in between waiting and the meal,I did my personal PC work.I also watched a few videos online.I also watched a few videos online.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared to retire for the evening.A not too good of a day,but frustrating and somewhat uneventful.

I'm still struggling with the same issues that I've been having for quite some time.I have talked about these issues yesterday and a few days ago.I need help and advice on how I can get rid of this "couldn't care less" attitude that I've been having lately.As stated,I've been having this type of attitude towards my co-workers and the clients at the facility.I need to stop this and get rid of it,but don't know how.I don't want to lose my job nor do I want anyone to get an unfavorable impression of me.This is making me sad and miserable.This type of attitude gets nobody nowhere nor does it create a positive atmosphere,but a negative and hostile one.I really want to stop this.I also want to overcome and contain the anger and rage issues that I also still struggle with.

I again ask:

"What's wrong with me?"

"Why can't I stop this?"

I also ask:

"How can I stop this?"

Any helpful advice or answers are appreciated.I also would still appreciate your continued prayerful support.I need all the prayers that I can get.I also ask that all of you pray for others who are also struggling with this same thing,including those who are still struggling with SSA issues,such as myself.Thanks to all of you for your prayers and support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope that the day goes well for me.FJ