Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today as a result of me not having my car on the road.My niece worked for much of the day and I didn't get the car until the mid afternoon.When I did,I had to go out and do a little bit of shopping that I had to do.I had to get some personal stuff that I needed and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a while and also did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It never gets any easier to deal with.I am always on an up and down ride in regards to my emotions and my emotional make-up.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the all the negatives of this particular double whammy of a psychiatric disability that I suffer from.They both help in sustaining me and also,to keep me on a normal level plain and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I started to sit up and proceeded to get off the bed and that is what made the erection soften.After a few minutes,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.There was also some lusting and fantasizing with images of men involved.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I really was sorry for what I had done.I pleaded to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for my sins as I really was sorry for sinning and I did feel better as I truly knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him to keep me strong in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I didn't want ti sin again and I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these urges that were coming at me from all sides and I did feel stronger after I finished in prayer to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Christ Jesus.Though I am now really keeping up in that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts that I post here to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional period as a result of what happened on Wednesday when my car's starter mechanism went out.Please keep me in your prayers and also,I am again asking that all of you don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets quite a few visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I truly and desperately need some encouraging words.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, July 06, 2013
Friday, July 05, 2013
July 5th
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly to proceed with the rest of the day.
After dropping my niece off at work using her car,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had withdrawn and headed back out again to pay a couple of bills.One of them had to be mailed while the other I paid in person.After that,I headed straight home to pay my phone bill over the phone and after that was done,I headed out to pick up my niece from work.
After she dropped me off,I headed back into the house and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had really no place to go since I still haven't gotten my car back on the road as of yet.I know that it will be a while,so I'll just have hang in there.Later on,my niece dropped off some sunburn relief spray.I also did more personal PC work.
After eating.I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Today,I was marginally better as things are now starting to gradually improve.I will feel better once my car is back on the road and I am driving again to do the things that I have to do.Though I am feeling marginally better,I am still also dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have alongside the symptoms of BPD.It is never an easy thing to deal with.I have a double whammy of a psychiatric disability and it gets even more difficult to deal with by the day.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the rigamarole of my psychiatric disability and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up in bed and I got up to head for the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften and when I walked back to bed,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations as I didn't want to fall again like I did this week a couple nights ago.I did feel better and much stronger after doing so.Though I have been doing this,I am again asking that all of you continue to please pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am in desperate need for prayer and also,for some words of encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both prayers and encouragement.They both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and to also continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly to proceed with the rest of the day.
After dropping my niece off at work using her car,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had withdrawn and headed back out again to pay a couple of bills.One of them had to be mailed while the other I paid in person.After that,I headed straight home to pay my phone bill over the phone and after that was done,I headed out to pick up my niece from work.
After she dropped me off,I headed back into the house and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had really no place to go since I still haven't gotten my car back on the road as of yet.I know that it will be a while,so I'll just have hang in there.Later on,my niece dropped off some sunburn relief spray.I also did more personal PC work.
After eating.I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Today,I was marginally better as things are now starting to gradually improve.I will feel better once my car is back on the road and I am driving again to do the things that I have to do.Though I am feeling marginally better,I am still also dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have alongside the symptoms of BPD.It is never an easy thing to deal with.I have a double whammy of a psychiatric disability and it gets even more difficult to deal with by the day.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the rigamarole of my psychiatric disability and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up in bed and I got up to head for the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften and when I walked back to bed,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations as I didn't want to fall again like I did this week a couple nights ago.I did feel better and much stronger after doing so.Though I have been doing this,I am again asking that all of you continue to please pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am in desperate need for prayer and also,for some words of encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both prayers and encouragement.They both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and to also continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, July 04, 2013
Happy 4th To All Americans
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a little bit improved day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did much of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I went out and did my grocery shopping and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I started to get ready to go to have dinner with somebody who invited me over and when the time had come for me to go,I headed over that and I made it there despite some heavy traffic that I encountered getting there as a result of this being the 4th of July holiday.
We had some pizza and chicken wings for dinner and after we were finished,we had some small talk and when he told me that he was going to rest for a while,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put on some music,took my medication and finished my personal PC work.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.Overall,a little bit improved day over yesterday,though not much different.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.This time around,my moods have been fluctuating quite a bit.This is the result of what has been wrong with my car and I am really feeling pretty much at edge and also,I am really feeling the negatives of what I am going through psychiatric disability wise.The schizophrenic tendencies have also been striking me pretty hard as well.I have been hearing so much around me that it is to the point where it is beyond insane.In almost another week,I have to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital and I will be explaining this to her when the day comes.I now have to work on keeping my therapy sessions in check as to try not to miss them like I accidentally missed my therapist appointment recently.I am also going to rely heavily on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to make sure that I stay sustained,stabilized and on a more level styled plain.If they can get me through this negative time,I will be extremely and positively thankful to both of them.I am going to need all the help that I can get from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation during the wee early morning hours by masturbating to lustful and fantasy styled images of men.I actually manipulated my genitals to the images and I wound up ejaculating.After cleaning myself from that,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was truly sorry and repentant for my actions.I did feel better after that,but for much of the night,I had a difficult time trying to get to sleep as a result of what went on with my car and the starter problems and I was really worried about what could happen if it stays in the same place for too long a time.I did manged to doze off without realizing it and though I did have an erection later on as the wee early morning hours were winding down,but this didn't last very long.I now have to work on staying close to my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus in prayer so I won't fall again.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and read the posts.Please continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and struggle and they both make me more determined to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA as I really need many people to support me in this struggle as I can't go it alone.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and also,please continue to pray for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did much of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
For much of the day,I went out and did my grocery shopping and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and I started to get ready to go to have dinner with somebody who invited me over and when the time had come for me to go,I headed over that and I made it there despite some heavy traffic that I encountered getting there as a result of this being the 4th of July holiday.
We had some pizza and chicken wings for dinner and after we were finished,we had some small talk and when he told me that he was going to rest for a while,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put on some music,took my medication and finished my personal PC work.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done.Overall,a little bit improved day over yesterday,though not much different.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.This time around,my moods have been fluctuating quite a bit.This is the result of what has been wrong with my car and I am really feeling pretty much at edge and also,I am really feeling the negatives of what I am going through psychiatric disability wise.The schizophrenic tendencies have also been striking me pretty hard as well.I have been hearing so much around me that it is to the point where it is beyond insane.In almost another week,I have to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital and I will be explaining this to her when the day comes.I now have to work on keeping my therapy sessions in check as to try not to miss them like I accidentally missed my therapist appointment recently.I am also going to rely heavily on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to make sure that I stay sustained,stabilized and on a more level styled plain.If they can get me through this negative time,I will be extremely and positively thankful to both of them.I am going to need all the help that I can get from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation during the wee early morning hours by masturbating to lustful and fantasy styled images of men.I actually manipulated my genitals to the images and I wound up ejaculating.After cleaning myself from that,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was truly sorry and repentant for my actions.I did feel better after that,but for much of the night,I had a difficult time trying to get to sleep as a result of what went on with my car and the starter problems and I was really worried about what could happen if it stays in the same place for too long a time.I did manged to doze off without realizing it and though I did have an erection later on as the wee early morning hours were winding down,but this didn't last very long.I now have to work on staying close to my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus in prayer so I won't fall again.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and read the posts.Please continue to pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and struggle and they both make me more determined to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA as I really need many people to support me in this struggle as I can't go it alone.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section and also,please continue to pray for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, July 03, 2013
July 3rd
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty so-so day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a spirituality group at the place where the groups are at as tomorrow,the group place will be closed in observance of the holiday on the 4th tomorrow.
The group meeting was wonderful and after it was over,I was going to do a little bit of grocery shopping,but ran into some problems.
My car wouldn't start and I tried repeatedly to get it going,but nothing.I called my niece and she sent her former step-father to help,but he couldn't get it going either.We concluded that it could something wrong with the starter mechanism,such as the starter itself,or the starter cellnoid,or it could be a blown fuse of a starter relayer wire.He dropped me off at home as I had to abandon my car at the parking lot there and I also had to let the bank,which was in the same building where the group place.know about this so they wouldn't have my car towed away.
My niece is loaning me her car until my car is back on the road and I went and did the grocery sopping that I had to do and it was great to get it all done.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to get some stuff and at another local supermarket for more.After all of that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and finished my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty so-so day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to tale my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I ask them to help me endure and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to walk out of my room and the erection started to soften.After a while,my genitals were soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted pretty much throughout the day as the stressful things that were happening to me made my SSA skyrocket.I kept close to my Heavenly Father in prayer and kept asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to keep me strong and to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I did feel better and also much stronger.I am again asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both you prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and motivate me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I got invited out to dinner at a friend's house.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to a spirituality group at the place where the groups are at as tomorrow,the group place will be closed in observance of the holiday on the 4th tomorrow.
The group meeting was wonderful and after it was over,I was going to do a little bit of grocery shopping,but ran into some problems.
My car wouldn't start and I tried repeatedly to get it going,but nothing.I called my niece and she sent her former step-father to help,but he couldn't get it going either.We concluded that it could something wrong with the starter mechanism,such as the starter itself,or the starter cellnoid,or it could be a blown fuse of a starter relayer wire.He dropped me off at home as I had to abandon my car at the parking lot there and I also had to let the bank,which was in the same building where the group place.know about this so they wouldn't have my car towed away.
My niece is loaning me her car until my car is back on the road and I went and did the grocery sopping that I had to do and it was great to get it all done.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to get some stuff and at another local supermarket for more.After all of that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and finished my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty so-so day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to tale my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I ask them to help me endure and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to walk out of my room and the erection started to soften.After a while,my genitals were soft and I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted pretty much throughout the day as the stressful things that were happening to me made my SSA skyrocket.I kept close to my Heavenly Father in prayer and kept asking him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to keep me strong and to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I did feel better and also much stronger.I am again asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both you prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and motivate me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I got invited out to dinner at a friend's house.That is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, July 02, 2013
July 2nd
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I went out to drop off some free newspapers to people that I know within my hometown.I also turned in a small amount of bottles and cans that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten for the bottles and cans that I turned in at the Where's George site and after that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to buy something I really needed at the last minute and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My emotions are always on an up and down scale and I never know how they will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father about this particular struggle and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure these issues that at times,can try to get me down and make me emotionally exhausted at times and they both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a normal level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and since I sensed that I had to go to the bathroom,I headed for there and the erection started to soften as I headed for there.After I finished in the bathroom,at which time,my genitals were fully soft,I headed right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men and they were really strong.I had to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that were coming at me from all sides.I prayed really hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father as I didn't want to displease him.After I was finished praying each time,I felt much better and also,felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this rough and difficult emotional time.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets quite a few visitors,but comments are rarely left for me in the comments section.Again,I need prayers and encouraging words from all of you really desperately.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of me attending a Wednesday afternoon spirituality group as a result of there being no group Thursday as a result of it being the 4th of July holiday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I went out to drop off some free newspapers to people that I know within my hometown.I also turned in a small amount of bottles and cans that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten for the bottles and cans that I turned in at the Where's George site and after that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to buy something I really needed at the last minute and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My emotions are always on an up and down scale and I never know how they will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father about this particular struggle and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure these issues that at times,can try to get me down and make me emotionally exhausted at times and they both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a normal level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and since I sensed that I had to go to the bathroom,I headed for there and the erection started to soften as I headed for there.After I finished in the bathroom,at which time,my genitals were fully soft,I headed right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men and they were really strong.I had to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that were coming at me from all sides.I prayed really hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father as I didn't want to displease him.After I was finished praying each time,I felt much better and also,felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this rough and difficult emotional time.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets quite a few visitors,but comments are rarely left for me in the comments section.Again,I need prayers and encouraging words from all of you really desperately.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of me attending a Wednesday afternoon spirituality group as a result of there being no group Thursday as a result of it being the 4th of July holiday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, July 01, 2013
July 1st
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today,though most of it was at home.
I had some more cleaning up that I had to do around the house and that is what I did for most of the day.I simply cleaned up here and there around the house and after that was done,I relaxed and did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I have a very complicated emotional system where my mood can be up and good one day or minute/moment and down and not so good the next day or minute/moment.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply have my Heavenly Father take over and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the worst of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in not only sustaining me,but also help keep me on a relatively calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the we early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had fully softened.It was slow going,but the erection did soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I laid back down and went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.The burning lust that I had within me was starting to burn again as it did the last few days.I really had to pray hare to my Heavenly Father and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and also,to help me control this burning lust that I had within me.I prayed really hard and again,asked for strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and also asked my Heavenly Father that he removed the burning lust that was within me if that were possible and I felt much better and much stronger as I finished praying as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me the strength that I asked for to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.While I have been doing that,I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up prayer for me as I am going through this difficult and trying emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as well.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really could use some encouraging words right now.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and also,they make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,they motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and also,for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in mid morning and I showered.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned for today,though most of it was at home.
I had some more cleaning up that I had to do around the house and that is what I did for most of the day.I simply cleaned up here and there around the house and after that was done,I relaxed and did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I have a very complicated emotional system where my mood can be up and good one day or minute/moment and down and not so good the next day or minute/moment.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles,alongside my SSA struggles,even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply have my Heavenly Father take over and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the worst of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in not only sustaining me,but also help keep me on a relatively calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the we early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had fully softened.It was slow going,but the erection did soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I laid back down and went right back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.The burning lust that I had within me was starting to burn again as it did the last few days.I really had to pray hare to my Heavenly Father and asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist these temptations and also,to help me control this burning lust that I had within me.I prayed really hard and again,asked for strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and also asked my Heavenly Father that he removed the burning lust that was within me if that were possible and I felt much better and much stronger as I finished praying as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me the strength that I asked for to help me fight and resist all of these temptations.While I have been doing that,I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up prayer for me as I am going through this difficult and trying emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as well.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I really could use some encouraging words right now.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and also,they make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,they motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for being there and also,for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly to head for church for an outdoor service and brunch afterwards.
The outdoor service was wonderful.The brunch afterwards was also wonderful as I had some wonderful fellowship with many of my fellow worshipers.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into a pair of lounge pants.I did my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.I also did a little bit of reading as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church each Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD on a daily basis.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I talk often about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles with my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives and rigamarole of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in keeping me sustained and a little more at ease.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed as I had to use the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft once I was finished in the bathroom and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out with lustful images of men and to fantasize with these lustful images.I also had the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I also had lust burning inside of me.It was really terrible and I was stuck in the middle as to what to do.I also had the temptation to look up pornography online.I got away from the computer and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist all of these temptations and also,for strength to fight and resist the burning lust that was within me.I asked my Heavenly Father to help keep me strong and to help me fight and resist all of these things.I kept up in prayer until the temptations and the lust had dissipated.I felt better after doing that and I also felt more at ease and better yet,I felt much stronger after praying to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I truly believed that they heard me and I received what I needed from my Heavenly Father and he gave me all that I asked for and needed in the name of his son Christ Jesus.While I have been keeping up in prayer,I am also asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,I ask that none of you who follow my blog be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Don't be shy and afraid to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue the fight against this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,to motivate and inspire me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,to also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly to head for church for an outdoor service and brunch afterwards.
The outdoor service was wonderful.The brunch afterwards was also wonderful as I had some wonderful fellowship with many of my fellow worshipers.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into a pair of lounge pants.I did my personal PC work and after I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.I also did a little bit of reading as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church each Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the symptoms and the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD on a daily basis.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I talk often about my BPD/Schizophrenia struggles with my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives and rigamarole of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in keeping me sustained and a little more at ease.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed as I had to use the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft once I was finished in the bathroom and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to act out with lustful images of men and to fantasize with these lustful images.I also had the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I also had lust burning inside of me.It was really terrible and I was stuck in the middle as to what to do.I also had the temptation to look up pornography online.I got away from the computer and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist all of these temptations and also,for strength to fight and resist the burning lust that was within me.I asked my Heavenly Father to help keep me strong and to help me fight and resist all of these things.I kept up in prayer until the temptations and the lust had dissipated.I felt better after doing that and I also felt more at ease and better yet,I felt much stronger after praying to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I truly believed that they heard me and I received what I needed from my Heavenly Father and he gave me all that I asked for and needed in the name of his son Christ Jesus.While I have been keeping up in prayer,I am also asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,I ask that none of you who follow my blog be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Don't be shy and afraid to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue the fight against this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,to motivate and inspire me to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA that I struggle with and also,to also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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