July 5th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed quickly to proceed with the rest of the day.
After dropping my niece off at work using her car,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had withdrawn and headed back out again to pay a couple of bills.One of them had to be mailed while the other I paid in person.After that,I headed straight home to pay my phone bill over the phone and after that was done,I headed out to pick up my niece from work.
After she dropped me off,I headed back into the house and I stayed there for the rest of the day as I had really no place to go since I still haven't gotten my car back on the road as of yet.I know that it will be a while,so I'll just have hang in there.Later on,my niece dropped off some sunburn relief spray.I also did more personal PC work.
After eating.I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Today,I was marginally better as things are now starting to gradually improve.I will feel better once my car is back on the road and I am driving again to do the things that I have to do.Though I am feeling marginally better,I am still also dealing with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have alongside the symptoms of BPD.It is never an easy thing to deal with.I have a double whammy of a psychiatric disability and it gets even more difficult to deal with by the day.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the rigamarole of my psychiatric disability and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up in bed and I got up to head for the bathroom and that is what made the erection soften and when I walked back to bed,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erection and/or to point of orgasm and stopping.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations as I didn't want to fall again like I did this week a couple nights ago.I did feel better and much stronger after doing so.Though I have been doing this,I am again asking that all of you continue to please pray for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am in desperate need for prayer and also,for some words of encouragement.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both prayers and encouragement.They both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and to also continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ