July 2nd

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I went out to drop off some free newspapers to people that I know within my hometown.I also turned in a small amount of bottles and cans that I had in the back seat of my car.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I had gotten for the bottles and cans that I turned in at the Where's George site and after that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to buy something I really needed at the last minute and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My emotions are always on an up and down scale and I never know how they will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk to my Heavenly Father about this particular struggle and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure these issues that at times,can try to get me down and make me emotionally exhausted at times and they both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a normal level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and since I sensed that I had to go to the bathroom,I headed for there and the erection started to soften as I headed for there.After I finished in the bathroom,at which time,my genitals were fully soft,I headed right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men and they were really strong.I had to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that were coming at me from all sides.I prayed really hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father as I didn't want to displease him.After I was finished praying each time,I felt much better and also,felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me as I am going through this rough and difficult emotional time.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets quite a few visitors,but comments are rarely left for me in the comments section.Again,I need prayers and encouraging words from all of you really desperately.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and also provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of me attending a Wednesday afternoon spirituality group as a result of there being no group Thursday as a result of it being the 4th of July holiday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ