July 6th

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today as a result of me not having my car on the road.My niece worked for much of the day and I didn't get the car until the mid afternoon.When I did,I had to go out and do a little bit of shopping that I had to do.I had to get some personal stuff that I needed and after I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a while and also did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.It never gets any easier to deal with.I am always on an up and down ride in regards to my emotions and my emotional make-up.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me get through the all the negatives of this particular double whammy of a psychiatric disability that I suffer from.They both help in sustaining me and also,to keep me on a normal level plain and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I started to sit up and proceeded to get off the bed and that is what made the erection soften.After a few minutes,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I did give into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.There was also some lusting and fantasizing with images of men involved.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I really was sorry for what I had done.I pleaded to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for my sins as I really was sorry for sinning and I did feel better as I truly knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day and asked him to keep me strong in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I didn't want ti sin again and I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these urges that were coming at me from all sides and I did feel stronger after I finished in prayer to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Christ Jesus.Though I am now really keeping up in that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts that I post here to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional period as a result of what happened on Wednesday when my car's starter mechanism went out.Please keep me in your prayers and also,I am again asking that all of you don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets quite a few visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as I truly and desperately need some encouraging words.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ