Saturday, February 15, 2014
Friday, February 14, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was finished,I got dressed and dropped my car off at a local garage to get looked at.Late last night,I experienced a foul smelling odor coming out of my exhaust and decided to have the garage look at it today.After dropping it off,I walked from the garage and stopped at a local drug store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and after a few minutes rest,I showered and when I was done with that,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the day watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to relax and pop another movie in the DVD player and watch it.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up masturbating to ejaculating to these images.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins and I begged for his mercy as I prayed.I asked him for these things in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I did feel miserable after giving into these terrible temptations.I hate this struggle as it does nothing to enhance life at all.It simply brings shame and regret due to the sinful and selfish nature that it creates and cares only about itself rather than the individual who struggles with this terrible SSA condition.I really need to buckle down and get really tough on myself as I hate the sinful sexual activity connected with this terrible SSA.I need to really go to my Heavenly Father and pray really hard to him whenever temptation rears it's ugly head at me.I need to really pray hard and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these urges to sin by acting out with fantasies and lusting.I need to really pour this on my Heavenly Father and really ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me strength to help me fight and resist.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am going through a very rough time emotionally as a result of me being without my car and not knowing how he is going to do things until his car is back on the road again.I also please ask that you don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I really need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was finished,I got dressed and dropped my car off at a local garage to get looked at.Late last night,I experienced a foul smelling odor coming out of my exhaust and decided to have the garage look at it today.After dropping it off,I walked from the garage and stopped at a local drug store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and after a few minutes rest,I showered and when I was done with that,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the day watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to relax and pop another movie in the DVD player and watch it.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up masturbating to ejaculating to these images.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins and I begged for his mercy as I prayed.I asked him for these things in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I did feel miserable after giving into these terrible temptations.I hate this struggle as it does nothing to enhance life at all.It simply brings shame and regret due to the sinful and selfish nature that it creates and cares only about itself rather than the individual who struggles with this terrible SSA condition.I really need to buckle down and get really tough on myself as I hate the sinful sexual activity connected with this terrible SSA.I need to really go to my Heavenly Father and pray really hard to him whenever temptation rears it's ugly head at me.I need to really pray hard and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these urges to sin by acting out with fantasies and lusting.I need to really pour this on my Heavenly Father and really ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me strength to help me fight and resist.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am going through a very rough time emotionally as a result of me being without my car and not knowing how he is going to do things until his car is back on the road again.I also please ask that you don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I really need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had a couple cups of coffee.After that,I relaxed for a bit and had my usual quick breakfast.After I was done eating that,I decided to do some personal PC work and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished with my shower,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I decided to visit with a friend of mine who I hadn't spoken to in quite a while.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to relax and enjoy a little bit of music.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images and the temptation was really strong and unrelenting.I immediately threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges as they were very overwhelming.I prayed and prayed for that strength and I asked my Heavenly Father for it in the name of his Jesus Christ.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also,much stronger.I thanked my Heavenly Father for giving me the strength and went on with the rest of the day.Though I escaped today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as these urges can come when least expected.When they do,I will simply ask my Heavenly Father again for the strength to help me fight and resist these urges and I will ask for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Since renewing my resolve with my Heavenly Father,I have been feeling better and also,I know that he has been hearing me as I truly felt him today as I prayed for that strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges that came at me today.I am also going to ask that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day from my fellow blog followers,especially if they also struggle with SSA like I do and want to help others who also struggle,such as myself.I would really appreciate prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my Holy Bible study groups in the morning and evening,I haven't made any other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had a couple cups of coffee.After that,I relaxed for a bit and had my usual quick breakfast.After I was done eating that,I decided to do some personal PC work and after that was done,I showered quickly and when I was finished with my shower,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I decided to visit with a friend of mine who I hadn't spoken to in quite a while.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to relax and enjoy a little bit of music.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men as sexual images of men were clouding my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images and the temptation was really strong and unrelenting.I immediately threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges as they were very overwhelming.I prayed and prayed for that strength and I asked my Heavenly Father for it in the name of his Jesus Christ.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also,much stronger.I thanked my Heavenly Father for giving me the strength and went on with the rest of the day.Though I escaped today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as these urges can come when least expected.When they do,I will simply ask my Heavenly Father again for the strength to help me fight and resist these urges and I will ask for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Since renewing my resolve with my Heavenly Father,I have been feeling better and also,I know that he has been hearing me as I truly felt him today as I prayed for that strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges that came at me today.I am also going to ask that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive encouragement.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day from my fellow blog followers,especially if they also struggle with SSA like I do and want to help others who also struggle,such as myself.I would really appreciate prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my Holy Bible study groups in the morning and evening,I haven't made any other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first had to pick up my niece's kids from school to take them home.After dropping them off at home,I headed for my own home to register a few bills at the Where's George site.After doing that,I helped my neighbor out by taking her out so she could do her shopping.After that was done,I dropped her off at home and I headed out to do some stuff that I needed to do.
I first went to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to look around and not buy anything.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things and after paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend to see how he was.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light meal,I watched a classic TV episode on DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am still taking my medication for the former and I deal with it when I have to deal with it.Regarding the latter struggle of SSA,I had to renew my resolve with my Heavenly Father because I had fallen back into the trap of habitual sin.I fell back into it because during the time that I was sick with the terrible stomach virus,I neglected my prayer relationship with my Heavenly Father because I didn't pray very much if not at all during my illness.As a result of that,Satan and his minions started moving in and started taking control of me.I fell again to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also manipulated my genitals to these impure and unclean images.I also wound up masturbating to the images and each and every time that I fell,I was miserable and felt so unworthy.I even gave into the temptations today as well.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and I left nothing out.I revealed everything to my Heavenly Father and asked for his mercy and forgiveness for my sinning against him.I did feel better,but later on,I prayed again by renewing my resolve with my Heavenly Father.My renewing my resolve to my Heavenly Father simply means putting my struggles with SSA into his hands again and let him work with me and transforming me.I threw the entire struggle again on my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me overcome my SSA and to help me heal from SSA.I prayed for about ten minutes and after I finished,I felt renewed and I can continue throwing everything on my Heavenly Father and ask him to help me get through it all and also,to help me overcome and heal.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support by my fellow blog followers each and every day.I struggle with SSA and prayers and positive verbal support really help here with this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first had to pick up my niece's kids from school to take them home.After dropping them off at home,I headed for my own home to register a few bills at the Where's George site.After doing that,I helped my neighbor out by taking her out so she could do her shopping.After that was done,I dropped her off at home and I headed out to do some stuff that I needed to do.
I first went to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to look around and not buy anything.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things and after paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend to see how he was.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light meal,I watched a classic TV episode on DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am still taking my medication for the former and I deal with it when I have to deal with it.Regarding the latter struggle of SSA,I had to renew my resolve with my Heavenly Father because I had fallen back into the trap of habitual sin.I fell back into it because during the time that I was sick with the terrible stomach virus,I neglected my prayer relationship with my Heavenly Father because I didn't pray very much if not at all during my illness.As a result of that,Satan and his minions started moving in and started taking control of me.I fell again to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also manipulated my genitals to these impure and unclean images.I also wound up masturbating to the images and each and every time that I fell,I was miserable and felt so unworthy.I even gave into the temptations today as well.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and I left nothing out.I revealed everything to my Heavenly Father and asked for his mercy and forgiveness for my sinning against him.I did feel better,but later on,I prayed again by renewing my resolve with my Heavenly Father.My renewing my resolve to my Heavenly Father simply means putting my struggles with SSA into his hands again and let him work with me and transforming me.I threw the entire struggle again on my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me overcome my SSA and to help me heal from SSA.I prayed for about ten minutes and after I finished,I felt renewed and I can continue throwing everything on my Heavenly Father and ask him to help me get through it all and also,to help me overcome and heal.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support by my fellow blog followers each and every day.I struggle with SSA and prayers and positive verbal support really help here with this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, February 10, 2014
Tonight,I am feeling a lot better and I managed to get out and do some necessary stuff today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on and catch up with some stuff that I needed to get done.
I mailed out an important thing today and I also made yet another important payment as well.I couldn't do these things last week as a result of the terrible Winter storm that we had and after those were done,I did a little bit of shopping and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.I was really hungry from all the running that I did today and it was wonderful that I got everything that needed to get done accomplished.I am now all caught up on everything and I can now relax and take it easy.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and busy day for me.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am hoping to start sharing my struggles again very soon.Please continue praying for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance for doing so as I really appreciate both of these things.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I proceeded to get on and catch up with some stuff that I needed to get done.
I mailed out an important thing today and I also made yet another important payment as well.I couldn't do these things last week as a result of the terrible Winter storm that we had and after those were done,I did a little bit of shopping and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.I was really hungry from all the running that I did today and it was wonderful that I got everything that needed to get done accomplished.I am now all caught up on everything and I can now relax and take it easy.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good and busy day for me.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am hoping to start sharing my struggles again very soon.Please continue praying for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance for doing so as I really appreciate both of these things.FJ
Sunday, February 09, 2014
Tonight,I am actually starting to feel a lot better and I think that I am almost at 100% relief.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I proceeded to head for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did a reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation today.After the service was over,we had a lunchtime brunch in the fellowship hall and the food was delicious.I had a couple of helpings and after some wonderful talks with many of my fellow worshipers,I helped with the clean-up and I headed for home once that was done.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got out of my suit and changed into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the afternoon while listening to some music.
Since I ate a lot at the church lunchtime brunch,I decided to have a light evening meal of a bowl of chicken ramen noodle soup.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will start my usual reporting of my struggles on Monday evening,hopefully.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance for doing so.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I proceeded to head for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did a reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation today.After the service was over,we had a lunchtime brunch in the fellowship hall and the food was delicious.I had a couple of helpings and after some wonderful talks with many of my fellow worshipers,I helped with the clean-up and I headed for home once that was done.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I got out of my suit and changed into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for much of the afternoon while listening to some music.
Since I ate a lot at the church lunchtime brunch,I decided to have a light evening meal of a bowl of chicken ramen noodle soup.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I will start my usual reporting of my struggles on Monday evening,hopefully.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance for doing so.FJ
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