Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had two cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was finished,I got dressed and dropped my car off at a local garage to get looked at.Late last night,I experienced a foul smelling odor coming out of my exhaust and decided to have the garage look at it today.After dropping it off,I walked from the garage and stopped at a local drug store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and after a few minutes rest,I showered and when I was done with that,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the day watching a movie that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I decided to relax and pop another movie in the DVD player and watch it.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up masturbating to ejaculating to these images.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins and I begged for his mercy as I prayed.I asked him for these things in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I did feel miserable after giving into these terrible temptations.I hate this struggle as it does nothing to enhance life at all.It simply brings shame and regret due to the sinful and selfish nature that it creates and cares only about itself rather than the individual who struggles with this terrible SSA condition.I really need to buckle down and get really tough on myself as I hate the sinful sexual activity connected with this terrible SSA.I need to really go to my Heavenly Father and pray really hard to him whenever temptation rears it's ugly head at me.I need to really pray hard and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these urges to sin by acting out with fantasies and lusting.I need to really pour this on my Heavenly Father and really ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me strength to help me fight and resist.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am going through a very rough time emotionally as a result of me being without my car and not knowing how he is going to do things until his car is back on the road again.I also please ask that you don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I really need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ