Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first had to pick up my niece's kids from school to take them home.After dropping them off at home,I headed for my own home to register a few bills at the Where's George site.After doing that,I helped my neighbor out by taking her out so she could do her shopping.After that was done,I dropped her off at home and I headed out to do some stuff that I needed to do.
I first went to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed over to a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to look around and not buy anything.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things and after paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to visit with a friend to see how he was.After a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries that I bought away and I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light meal,I watched a classic TV episode on DVD and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am still taking my medication for the former and I deal with it when I have to deal with it.Regarding the latter struggle of SSA,I had to renew my resolve with my Heavenly Father because I had fallen back into the trap of habitual sin.I fell back into it because during the time that I was sick with the terrible stomach virus,I neglected my prayer relationship with my Heavenly Father because I didn't pray very much if not at all during my illness.As a result of that,Satan and his minions started moving in and started taking control of me.I fell again to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also manipulated my genitals to these impure and unclean images.I also wound up masturbating to the images and each and every time that I fell,I was miserable and felt so unworthy.I even gave into the temptations today as well.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him and I left nothing out.I revealed everything to my Heavenly Father and asked for his mercy and forgiveness for my sinning against him.I did feel better,but later on,I prayed again by renewing my resolve with my Heavenly Father.My renewing my resolve to my Heavenly Father simply means putting my struggles with SSA into his hands again and let him work with me and transforming me.I threw the entire struggle again on my Heavenly Father and asked him to help me overcome my SSA and to help me heal from SSA.I prayed for about ten minutes and after I finished,I felt renewed and I can continue throwing everything on my Heavenly Father and ask him to help me get through it all and also,to help me overcome and heal.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support by my fellow blog followers each and every day.I struggle with SSA and prayers and positive verbal support really help here with this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ