Tonight,I am actually feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good,if not too eventful,day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I simply had breakfast when I woke up and I also did my personal PC work.There wasn't an awful lot to do.After doing that,I started to plan the day.
I had an errand to run today for my mom.I had to pick up a few things that she needed in the house pretty quickly.It was quite a short list she gave me and I managed to find everything at the local Dollar General.After buying all the stuff on my mom's behalf,I headed straight home.
After I got home,I bathed while my mom prepared dinner.I am going out to sing tonight and I wanted to make sure that I was cleaned up so I could be ready to go out.
After eating a light diner,I did some more personal PC work and I also registered the two bills that I got in change at Where's George.I also e-mailed a friend of mine who lives out of town.I managed to get that done despite an issue that my computer was having.I restarted the computer after sending the e-mail because my computer was freezing up and rebooting itself while I was trying to type the e-mail and also sending it.My computer is now working good.I am having no problems.
Tonight,I am going to be singing up a storm tonight.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.Though I rarely have an off night,I still hope for things to go well for me because you never know what could happen.But I do have the feeling that everything will work out for me.Still,I hope.
With this being the weekend,the state senate is not working.During the week,the encouraging news that the New York state senate is opposing the Same-Sex Marriage bill was the best news the entire week.At the moment,the senate office is closed and will resume next week.Again,I am hoping that the Same-Sex Marriage bill will never make law in New York state.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode this morning.I was still trying to wake up even after getting out of bed.Images and cravings were clouding my mind and I was playing with myself as well.But I managed to stop myself before it went any further.I am just fortunate that it didn't lead to masturbation or worse.I have to be on guard.I can't let the cravings overwhelm me like that.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans but whatever I do,I am hoping that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.After I ate lunch,I did my job and I did everything that I needed to do in the short period of time that I had.After I finished,I bagged everything and I dropped everything off at the rehab center.I headed straight home.
I also left the house after I came home.I went to my regular bank to cash my paycheck and I also withdrew some money for myself that I needed to help me pay a few bills that I need to pay next week.The day also was a bright sunny day and I enjoyed just being out in the community and getting some air.Before heading back home,I went to a nearby gas station to get some gas.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and afterwards,I registered all the bills that I had at Where's George.It was quite a lot but I managed to get them all on there.I relaxed and listened to some music for a while before going back out again.
I went to a local Wal-Mart to buy some allergy medicine that I needed because I took my last pill this morning.I was blowing my nose quite a bit and I also was clearing my throat constantly.I headed straight home and that is where I am staying for the rest of the night.
I haven't heard anything new in the news regarding what New York governor David Paterson is doing to try and make Same-Sex Marriage legal in New York state.So far,the only thing that I have heard is that the state senate is still working dilligently and agressively to try and keep the bill from becoming law.The NY state senate wants to fight to keep traditional marriage the way it is and not have it be perverted by this bill.I am hoping that the NY state senate can keep the Same-Sex Marriage bill from becoming law.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images nor cravings crept up.I am glad for that.If I can get through the weekend unscathed,great.I am just hoping that I can.
Tomorrow night,I am going to be singing up a storm and I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did my required work in the amount of time that I had and when I was done,I simply bagged everything that was clean and dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while because despite having a pretty smooth work day,I was feeling tired and wanted to relax.While relaxing,I watched an episode of the 2nd season of Friday The 13th:The Series on the DVD that I own and I enjoyed it.I was also eagerly awaiting the delivery of a movie that I ordered at the beginning of the week and I wanted to get the movie in the house so it would be in my library.With mail thefts happening on occasion,I just wanted to make sure that it was in the house.After checking the DVD out,I shut off the DVD player and finished my personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work by cleaning out my e-mail Inbox after it was all done.I was going to do it right after finishing but I had an issue with the program.I restarted it and did the work.It is now completed.
I also received some news.I heard that New York governor David Paterson is trying to get a bill on Same-Sex Marriage on the law books.The good news is that the state senate is working to make sure that it doesn't get on the books.Lead by George Maziarz,they are working to keep marriage between a man and a woman and that it should always be kept that way.I am hoping that the state senate succeeds in keeping the bill because marriage is between a man and a woman and nothing should change that.I am just glad that I am in the healing process from SSA and not in the rut that I used to be.I am glad to know the truth and I feel free.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems and I also had no images nor cravings while trying to sleep last night.I had a good nights sleep and today,even the news regarding what NY governor Paterson is trying to do didn't have any impact on me.Again,I am hoping that the state senate succeeds in blocking this bill from becoming law.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up.I simply picked up the bags and dropped them off at the work site.After lunch,I sorted out the laundry before heading for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my regular bank to withdraw some money for my mom and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I prepared some stuff that I had to mail out.I sent out an RCA DVD Recorder/VCR combo that I bought on credit to the place that I ordered it from because it was defective.I also had to mail out a couple of other things for my mom and after that was done,I headed back home.
I stayed at home for a while waiting for the mail to come.I was waiting on a new movie that I bought off of Ebay.I was checking the USPS's track and confirm and though it informed me that it arrived in my hometown,I didn't receive it.But there is always tomorrow.I am still eagerly awaiting this.I am hoping to add it to my collection pretty soon.
After the mail came,I went to the local drug store to pick up a follow-up prescription on my blood pressure medication and a couple of half gallons of milk.I headed back home.
We had a light dinner early because my grand nieces and grand nephew were coming over for over an hour.While they watched a movie on TV that I put into the DVD player,I went out for a walk for a bit but went back home after staying out for about 20 minutes.I laid down for a while while the kids were watching the movie.I needed some peace and quiet for a while and being upstairs in my room was a way for me to get it.My grand nieces and grand nephew are now home with their mother and it is now pretty quite in the house.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode overnight while trying to get to sleep.I was also manipulating my sexuality along with the images that were crossing through my head.The intensity was so much that I had to ask the creator to help me remove the images from my mind and as I prayed,the images disappeared and I went to sleep.Today,I had no problems as a result of me staying busy and keeping my mind on my job and the tasks that I had to do today.During the day no images crept into my mind nor any cravings.If I can get through the rest of the week unscathed,good.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I had quite a lot to do.I picked up four heaping bags of laundry and sorted everything out and started my job.I hung out at the social club for a while waiting for the first loads to get done.
After that,I started another load and I decided to pay more attention to my job before my lunch break.After lunch,I simply finished the hours and I read from my copy of "A Christian Perspective on Homosexuality" while waiting for the last loads to get done.After they were done,I dropped off everything that was clean at the rehab center and I headed for home.
When I got home,I saw that a package that I was expecting had come in.It was a four DVD set of the first two movies in the Japanese One Missed Call series.I did play the first one to check it out and it plays terrific.I have yet to try out the second one in the series and I am hoping that this will also play great.I relaxed for much of the afternoon and only did one errand for my mom before I ate dinner.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also added another blog to my watch list.It is a People Can Change blog.I learned about this via a People Can Change online forum that I am a member of.I added it immediately.It is a new blog on Blogger and I am glad to have it on my watch list.
I also received some great news today.I heard on the news that the Same-Sex Marriage bill might not become law in New York state after all.It has passed the New York state assembly but now,it is in the hands of the New York state senate.So far,the vast majority of the NY state senate is opposing the bill,including George Maziarz,who also believes in traditional marriage.Not only that,a pastor named Gerry Gillis also supports the senate majority who are opposed and also hopes that traditional marriage is kept the way it is.I am also hoping that this happens.So far,So Good.Again,I hope that the bill doesn't become law in New York state.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have nothing negative to report.I had a pretty good day and I kept busy all day with my job and it went well.I know that there is tomorrow and the rest of the week.I hope that I can get by unscated.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I didn't have too much to do today.I had breakfast and I did my personal PC work.After that,I got ready to do what I needed to do.
I had an appointment to day with a sexual abuse support counselor who I had worked with previously.Before heading for that clinic,I had to make a stop over at my doctor's office to inquire about getting a follow-up on my prescription for a blood pressure medication that I am currently taking.They told me that they would call it in before the end of the day but when I called the drug store,they informed me that nothing was called in at the moment.I am hoping that it will be called in soon.I would hate to be without the blood pressure medication that I need.I only have a few pills left and I am going to be needing enough to last me until the next appointment that I have with the doctor.I am going to call tomorrow and see if it has been called in.
My session with the sexual abuse support counselor went well.I told her what I had been doing for the past several months.I told her about the accident that I had in late November 2008,which was why I hadn't come to counseling for a few months.After the session,we made another appointment and I left the office.
On the way home,I stopped at my mechanic's garage so he could check on my wheel alignment.I had a problem trying to steer my 4X4 on Friday trying to go in another area of Western New York and he said for me to bring the vehicle over and have him check it out.After he drove it and checked the undercarriage,he told me that there was nothing wrong and that the reason why I had trouble was that it was windy on the day that I was trying to go out of town.I was relieved and I headed straight home.
I guess that I am still a little nervous after what had happened to me in November of last year.I was in a very bad accident that totaled my car and I had to get my 4X4 back on the road as a result,which took a little over two months and lots of expensive work.I am glad to be driving again but I need to take this slow.I guess that I need to work on my long distance travel and try to overcome the nervousness that I am still feeling as a result of the November accident.I know that I will be back to where I was before that happened but it will take some time to ease back into it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had really nothing happen.No images or cravings came upon me and I feel pretty good.I know that there is tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am hoping to get by unscathed this week.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Happy Easter,Everybody!
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good holiday today.
When I woke up,I did my personal PC work and while doing that,I listened to a sermon online.It was really neat.It was all about the resurrection of Jesus Christ and what it truly meant and symbolized.I actually enjoyed listening to the sermon and I am looking forward to next week's.I am hoping that that it will be another wonderful one.
Despite some issues with the internet browser that I used,I finished the work and I closed off the internet after finishing.It was quite a lot to do and I am happy that I did it.
After that,I watched another episode of the classic Friday The 13th:The Series TV show.Since I really didn't have much to do,I just took it easy and I only ran a couple of errands.I had to pick up a couple of things that my mom and I needed.I also went to a local gas station to get some gas in my gas tank.
When I got home,I watched a little bit of TV as I eagerly awaited for dinner to get done.My mom was preparing dinner for the two of us as we decided to stay home for the holiday.
After eating,I registered a bill that I got in change from the gas station that I went to and I also went to check up on someone that I know to see how he was doing.I tried to call him up on the phone but I kept getting a busy signal,so I went to his house only to learn that he was sick from eating something.I told his visitor to wish him well on my behalf and he said that he would do that.I left and headed straight home after that.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another awesome night.I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd and it really made me feel good.I am looking forward to next Saturday night and I am hoping that next week goes as great as last night did.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today.No images and no cravings came upon me.I managed to escape almost unscathed without acting out or even masturbating.The new week will be a new beginning and I am hoping that I can get through the week unscathed.I know that the struggles with SSA is no picnic but I have to keep trying.I need prayers and advice on how to keep myself together.
Before the evening is over,I am thinking of going out and having a drink with the guys at the place where I entertain and I am hoping to have some great talks with any guys that will be there.
Tomorrow is my day off.I do have an appointment with a sexual abuse support counselor tomorrow afternoon and I am hoping that the session goes well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ