Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed out to my monthly Men's Network meeting,only to find out when I got to the church where the meeting is held that the meeting was postponed until next week.I left and did a little bit of shopping at a nearby Salvation Army thrift store and a nearby Goodwill thrift store.After that,I went to the post office to mail out an important payment.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I dropped the stuff that I bought at home and after that,I headed for the bank to pay a bill there and I also went to the local Sears to pay another bill.After that,I did some shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and headed to another local supermarket to buy some stuff there and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I did my personal PC work.I relaxed and took it easy for the rest of the day as it was raining for much of the day.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I also relaxed and watched a DVD.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,a passing immoral thought came into my mind and I dwelled on it.It made my private parts twitch a little in my pants.Fortunately,I stopped it before it got worse and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.I left nothing out as I prayed and when I was finished praying,I felt better and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day without any problems,but I know that I have to really stay on guard as passing immoral thoughts can come when least expected.I also need to be really watchful at the same time.Satan and his minions can strike at any minute and I need to be on guard at all times.I don't want to sin and disappoint my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support each and every day.I hope that more and more people who visit my blog will leave positive verbal support in the comments section.Please leave me some positive verbal support and please continue to keep me in your prayers.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I washed my hair and face quickly as well as shaved quickly.I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed over to the job placement agency to sign a few more job applications and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed in casual clothes and had my usual quick breakfast.I also quickly did my personal PC work and headed out one more time to pay a visit to the priest in hopes of getting into a Courage group.
The meeting with the priest went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby small restaurant to have a light lunch.After that,I stopped at an AMVETS store in the area and I bought a few things.After that,I stopped at a 7-11 to buy a bottle of water to drink while driving home.After that,when I made it back into my hometown,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took the mail in and I also brought the stuff that I bought into the house.After that,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I dressed up in dress clothes and I dropped off one more application at a local Wendy's.I headed straight home to change into casual clothes and headed for my weekly Celebrate Recovery group,which went wonderfully.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and did some personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,it was a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was again tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to the lusting after other men.I again went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength and I didn't cease praying until the terrible temptations died.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger and had no problems for the rest of the day with temptations.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time to tempt me to sin against my Heavenly Father.I don't want to sin against my Heavenly Father.I also have to continue working on telling the unnatural desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I also need to show my gender identity that I own my identity and that it also doesn't own me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some positive verbal support alongside the prayerful support every day.They both help in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They both reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep my determination to overcome and my motivation to heal strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and again,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to a Men's Network group in the morning,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I headed out to run a few errands that needed to be run.I got some gas in my gas tank and dropped off some newspapers.I also bought something from a local Dollar Tree store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I headed over to my niece's house to babysit her kids and later on,I dropped my youngest grand-niece off at her dance lesson before heading straight home.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was as wonderful as I expected it.After it was over,I headed straight home and when I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to the images of men that were clouding my mind.But,I managed to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist the overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed for the strength because I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father by giving into these terrible temptations.I didn't cease praying until the overwhelming urges had dissipated.I felt better and much stronger after praying and I went on with the rest of the day unscathed.I simply kept busy by doing what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the immoral things.There was nothing that went through my head the whole day and I wasn't tempted to give into anything.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations.I need to be watchful as they can strike at any time.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to make me sin by acting out on these unnatural desires that I have and that would be sinful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Your prayers and your positive verbal support does help.They reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't hesitate to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to the agency to sign some more job applications and a session that I have with the priest,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I went out to go to a local 7-Eleven to pick up a bag of nacho cheese Doritos to have with my lunch.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up my lunch in the microwave and I ate it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then eagerly awaited a phone call from an out of state SSA counselor as I had a lot to talk about with him.
The phone session with the SSA counselor went wonderfully.After it was over,I headed back out to get a gallon of milk at the local Super Wal-Mart.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away and I relaxed while reading.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,it was a pretty fair day as I was home for much of the day due to rainy weather for the second day in a row,though I managed to get a couple of needed things.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer when I was getting tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these images.I prayed for strength to fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and asked for that strength because I didn't want to sin again nor did I want to enslaved to this particular sin.I kept asking for that strength and didn't cease praying until the urges had died down.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.I also knew and truly believed that I received what I asked for from my Heavenly Father.I felt stronger and it was great.I went on with the rest of the day without any problems.Though I did escape today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Not that I am worried about tomorrow,I simply need to continued staying on guard and being watchful as these temptations,which Satan and his minions cause,can come when least expected.Fellow blog followers,I still need you to continue keeping me in your prayers and also,I still need your positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.I really need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.The positive verbal support also reassures and reaffirms me that I am not along in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and had a light lunch afterwards.I was home for much of the day as a result of rainy weather that was happening for much of the day today.Later on,I went out to run a small errand to go to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to relax for a while and I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I did manage to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation looking at a couple of porn videos online.Yes,I admit it.I gave into watching pornography.For much of the day,my conscience was really getting on me for watching these videos and later on,after my small errand was finished,I went into my room and I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him by giving into the temptation to watch porn online and I left nothing out.I prayed and I prayed.I asked for my Heavenly Father's mercy while praying and I also asked that he help me to break free from both the sexual sins,but also,the sin of getting caught up in anger as I was angry with myself for watching the pornography in the first place.I prayed and I prayed.I also ordered Satan and his minions to hit the road and get out of here and to take their baggage with them.I shouted that out to them while praying and it felt good to do that.I also asked that my Heavenly Father also help me in overcoming and healing from SSA as I really want to overcome and heal from this terrible emotional condition.I also asked that he help me to not only break free,but to also stay free from fantasizing and lusting after other men and to also help me to break free and to stay free from manipulating my genitals to these unwholesome images.While praying,my eyes were starting to tear as a result.When I was finished praying,I felt better and felt that a huge gigantic weight had been lifted off of me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need some positive verbal support alongside the prayerful support.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both prayers and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal stronger.They also reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of talking with someone on the phone in hoping to get some help and support for my SSA struggles,I haven't got much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when I was done with that,I headed out to with draw a little bit of money from my account at the bank and I did a little shopping at a local and nearby Dollar Tree store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.I also relaxed for a while and enjoyed a little bit of music.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I didn't have any problems with temptation.I had no problems with anything sexual in regards to men clouding my mind and that made me feel pretty good.I went through the day without any problems and that was okay.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can tempt me to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men and also,they can tempt me to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men that they make to cloud my mind.Again,I need to stay on guard and be watchful of the machinations of Satan and his minions.They can try to make me do anything that is contradictory to the word of my Heavenly Father,which is the Holy Bible and is also his perfect law.I have to continue to work on being tough with myself and to show the unnatural desires that I have and my own gender identity that I own them and not the other way around.I don't want to be enslaved to the unnatural desires that I have as I refuse to let these unnatural desires that I have define who I am nor dictate to me how I will act.I also refuse to let my gender identity own me as masturbation,which is one of my problems alongside genital manipulation,is simply when one is enslaved to their own gender identity/sexuality.I have to work on being tough with myself and also,show these unnatural desires and my gender identity/sexuality that I own them and not them owning me.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need positive verbal support each and every day alongside the continued prayers.I need to be reaffirmed that I am not alone in this particular struggle because I feel alone when visitors and/or curiosity seekers don't leave me any encouraging comments in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.We had a substitute pastor giving the sermon today and I had a wonderful conversation with him once the service was over,though I also had some wonderful fellowship with my other fellow worshipers as well.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I had a quick lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation yet again by masturbating upon awakening.I washed my hands afterwards and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed and I left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven and I also asked my Heavenly Father to help me in forgiving myself for falling short.For the rest of the day,I had no problems.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with their ways of tempting anyone to sin against the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,our Heavenly Father.I still need to work on getting tough with myself by asking for strength to fight and resist these terrible urges from my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive encouraging words in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately and right now.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section when they do visit.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section alongside your prayers.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two while also continuing to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ