Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that,I went out to go to a local 7-Eleven to pick up a bag of nacho cheese Doritos to have with my lunch.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I heated up my lunch in the microwave and I ate it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then eagerly awaited a phone call from an out of state SSA counselor as I had a lot to talk about with him.
The phone session with the SSA counselor went wonderfully.After it was over,I headed back out to get a gallon of milk at the local Super Wal-Mart.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk away and I relaxed while reading.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,it was a pretty fair day as I was home for much of the day due to rainy weather for the second day in a row,though I managed to get a couple of needed things.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer when I was getting tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to these images.I prayed for strength to fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and asked for that strength because I didn't want to sin again nor did I want to enslaved to this particular sin.I kept asking for that strength and didn't cease praying until the urges had died down.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.I also knew and truly believed that I received what I asked for from my Heavenly Father.I felt stronger and it was great.I went on with the rest of the day without any problems.Though I did escape today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Not that I am worried about tomorrow,I simply need to continued staying on guard and being watchful as these temptations,which Satan and his minions cause,can come when least expected.Fellow blog followers,I still need you to continue keeping me in your prayers and also,I still need your positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.I really need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.The positive verbal support also reassures and reaffirms me that I am not along in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ