Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and when I was done with that,I headed out to with draw a little bit of money from my account at the bank and I did a little shopping at a local and nearby Dollar Tree store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.I also relaxed for a while and enjoyed a little bit of music.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I didn't have any problems with temptation.I had no problems with anything sexual in regards to men clouding my mind and that made me feel pretty good.I went through the day without any problems and that was okay.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can tempt me to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men and also,they can tempt me to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men that they make to cloud my mind.Again,I need to stay on guard and be watchful of the machinations of Satan and his minions.They can try to make me do anything that is contradictory to the word of my Heavenly Father,which is the Holy Bible and is also his perfect law.I have to continue to work on being tough with myself and to show the unnatural desires that I have and my own gender identity that I own them and not the other way around.I don't want to be enslaved to the unnatural desires that I have as I refuse to let these unnatural desires that I have define who I am nor dictate to me how I will act.I also refuse to let my gender identity own me as masturbation,which is one of my problems alongside genital manipulation,is simply when one is enslaved to their own gender identity/sexuality.I have to work on being tough with myself and also,show these unnatural desires and my gender identity/sexuality that I own them and not them owning me.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need positive verbal support each and every day alongside the continued prayers.I need to be reaffirmed that I am not alone in this particular struggle because I feel alone when visitors and/or curiosity seekers don't leave me any encouraging comments in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ