Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I washed my hair and face quickly as well as shaved quickly.I got dressed up in dress clothes and headed over to the job placement agency to sign a few more job applications and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I showered quickly.After my shower,I got dressed in casual clothes and had my usual quick breakfast.I also quickly did my personal PC work and headed out one more time to pay a visit to the priest in hopes of getting into a Courage group.
The meeting with the priest went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby small restaurant to have a light lunch.After that,I stopped at an AMVETS store in the area and I bought a few things.After that,I stopped at a 7-11 to buy a bottle of water to drink while driving home.After that,when I made it back into my hometown,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I took the mail in and I also brought the stuff that I bought into the house.After that,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I dressed up in dress clothes and I dropped off one more application at a local Wendy's.I headed straight home to change into casual clothes and headed for my weekly Celebrate Recovery group,which went wonderfully.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and did some personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,it was a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,I was again tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to the lusting after other men.I again went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength and I didn't cease praying until the terrible temptations died.When I was finished,I felt better and much stronger and had no problems for the rest of the day with temptations.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time to tempt me to sin against my Heavenly Father.I don't want to sin against my Heavenly Father.I also have to continue working on telling the unnatural desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I also need to show my gender identity that I own my identity and that it also doesn't own me.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some positive verbal support alongside the prayerful support every day.They both help in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They both reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep my determination to overcome and my motivation to heal strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and again,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to a Men's Network group in the morning,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ