Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I headed out to run a few errands that needed to be run.I got some gas in my gas tank and dropped off some newspapers.I also bought something from a local Dollar Tree store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I headed over to my niece's house to babysit her kids and later on,I dropped my youngest grand-niece off at her dance lesson before heading straight home.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was as wonderful as I expected it.After it was over,I headed straight home and when I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitals to the images of men that were clouding my mind.But,I managed to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist the overwhelming urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I prayed for the strength because I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father by giving into these terrible temptations.I didn't cease praying until the overwhelming urges had dissipated.I felt better and much stronger after praying and I went on with the rest of the day unscathed.I simply kept busy by doing what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the immoral things.There was nothing that went through my head the whole day and I wasn't tempted to give into anything.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations.I need to be watchful as they can strike at any time.I don't want to give them what they want,which is to make me sin by acting out on these unnatural desires that I have and that would be sinful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue in prayer for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal support.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Your prayers and your positive verbal support does help.They reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't hesitate to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to the agency to sign some more job applications and a session that I have with the priest,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ