Saturday, November 22, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and I read for a while.Later on,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
Later on,I got dressed and I headed out.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I went to a local Subway to buy a small sandwich for dinner.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate the sandwich and I also watched a classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems in regards to temptations today.I simply went through the day with nothing to worry about.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am still asking that you please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I really don't have much here in my hometown and that does make me feel alone.This is why I continually ask all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue to pray for me and to also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support helps keep me going.It also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Friday, November 21, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good,but not too eventful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Before I did anything,I made a phone call to the counseling center in another area of the county and I rescheduled my appointment for this coming Tuesday.After that,I headed out to a local Dollar Tree to pick up deodorant.After paying for that,I dropped off a few newspapers at a few houses and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the deodorant that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for a bit and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a couple more classic TV episodes on DVDs that I have and after that,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.As it was getting late,I started to prepare to turn in for the night.Overall,a pretty good,if not too eventful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I can report that I had no problems in regards to being tempted and I went through the day unscathed.I went through the day and I had no problems.I just kept my mind on what I had to do and that kept my mind off of the negative sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am always in need of support as I really don't have much here in my hometown to help and support me.I am hoping that the therapeutic step that I am going to make will work out for me.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good,but not too eventful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the kitchen sink,alongside shaving.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I got dressed real quickly as I had to head out to another local agency to see about getting back with them.
The appointment went well and after that,I headed over to a friend's place to spend a little time with them.After spending several minutes with them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I headed back out to get a sandwich at a local Subway for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich while watching a couple of classic TV episodes that I had on DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also did some e-mail work while I was at it.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good,but not to eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I actually did give into the temptation to masturbate an early wee morning hour erection away.I was miserable after that and after washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for giving into that terrible temptation.I prayed hard and I also begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy.After I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was truly forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any problems,but I have to really buckle down and get tough.I have to stop falling and repenting.I just don't want to feel and think that I am abusing my Heavenly Father's divine gift of forgiveness.I know that he is all loving,all forgiving and all,but I don't want to feel like I am abusing this.No,I don't.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also also that you please leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.It shows that I am not alone in this struggle.It also helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.When I finished,I did a little cleaning up in the house as I had no place to go due to it being a very snowy day.I also had to postpone an appointment that I had today to meet with a counselor at a rehab center within another area of the county,but due to the snowy Wintry mess,I called to postpone and I will be calling them either tomorrow or Friday to reschedule.After that,I laid down to read for a while and when I was done,I went outside to do a little bit of snow shoveling.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a little TV.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I have on a DVD set that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though it does,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.For much of the day,I had to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD.I was feeling good for much of the day,but as the day wound down,I wound up down and feeling not so good.I guess that the negative feelings started happening After I postponed the appointment that I had for today.I only did so because of the weather,but tomorrow,first thing after waking,I am going to call tomorrow and reschedule so I can start letting go of these issues and finally start to transcend from these issues.I want to finally discover real healing and real overcoming.I have struggles with SSA for far too long.I want to stop falling short and finally get the much needed strength and healing that I truly need.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment that I have at another local agency,I have nothing much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair and face over the sink,alongside shaving.After that was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I reduced some of my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed and headed out as I had an appointment with my urologist.
The urologist appointment went well.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home as it was a cold and windy day.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
As for my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,I am feeling really tired and I really can't talk much.I will hopefully start tomorrow again and share where I am at in regards to my struggles.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I was hoping to get out to the rehab center in the other area of the country,but I may have to postpone due to heavy snows coming tomorrow to the region.I don't want to take any chances driving in a storm and getting into an accident.I will call tomorrow and postpone and reschedule and I am hoping for next week.I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.I might simply stay home and take it easy.I might also watch a movie or two.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Monday, November 17, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast.I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the agency to drop off some important paperwork.After that,I took a drive out to another area of the county to see where the place where I will be meeting the counselor on Wednesday.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I went to a local restaurant to buy something for dinner.After that,I picked my prescription up at the drug store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I put into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as the evening was winding down,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,in the wee early morning hours,I gave into the temptation to masturbate an erection away.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him by masturbating.Though it was mostly emotional,it was still sinning and I had to repent from that.When I was finished praying,I went right back to sleep.I went through the rest of the day with no problems.I haven't been sticking to my resolve lately to get tough with myself.I am being honest here.I haven't.I need to start sticking that resolve and fight these urges to manipulate myself in my genital area and/or to masturbate.I also have to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I am hoping that the counselor that I will be seeing can help me.The reason why I have been having a difficult time in my SSA struggle is because I do have some unresolved issues from my childhood that I need to get resolved.I am hoping that the counseling can lead me to let go of these issues,remove the excessive emotional baggage that I have and finally start transcending,so I can finally discover real healing and finally start to fully and successfully overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need prayers hoping that this new thing will work out for me as I am hoping.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I would appreciate both types of support right now.I am hoping that the counselor,who I will be seeing on Wednesday,can help me and I can finally be free and again,discover real healing and overcoming.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing my urologist for my yearly check-up,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a bottle of men's body wash.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I laid down for a little over two hours as I was still feeling drowsy.When I got up out of bed,I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player to watch.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for the rest of the evening as I started to prepare to retire for the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I was tempted to act out by manipulating my genitals,but since I was still feeling drowsy,I decided to sleep it off and it worked.After that,I went through the rest of the day without hassles.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike with temptations when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.They both help keep me going.They also help both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of hoping to get some much needed blood work done,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ