Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast.I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the agency to drop off some important paperwork.After that,I took a drive out to another area of the county to see where the place where I will be meeting the counselor on Wednesday.After that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I went to a local restaurant to buy something for dinner.After that,I picked my prescription up at the drug store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I put into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as the evening was winding down,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,in the wee early morning hours,I gave into the temptation to masturbate an erection away.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him by masturbating.Though it was mostly emotional,it was still sinning and I had to repent from that.When I was finished praying,I went right back to sleep.I went through the rest of the day with no problems.I haven't been sticking to my resolve lately to get tough with myself.I am being honest here.I haven't.I need to start sticking that resolve and fight these urges to manipulate myself in my genital area and/or to masturbate.I also have to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and that they don't own me.I am hoping that the counselor that I will be seeing can help me.The reason why I have been having a difficult time in my SSA struggle is because I do have some unresolved issues from my childhood that I need to get resolved.I am hoping that the counseling can lead me to let go of these issues,remove the excessive emotional baggage that I have and finally start transcending,so I can finally discover real healing and finally start to fully and successfully overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need prayers hoping that this new thing will work out for me as I am hoping.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I would appreciate both types of support right now.I am hoping that the counselor,who I will be seeing on Wednesday,can help me and I can finally be free and again,discover real healing and overcoming.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing my urologist for my yearly check-up,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ